Yesterday, went to Newton to attend a talk, "1-Day Business Apprentrepreneurship Program" organised by the Maximas Training Academy and presented by Mr. Thomas Mathew, Financial Services Director of Prudential, and Coach, Trainer and Consultant of Maximas Group Pte Ltd.
This talk is about the process of identification and Evaluation of business opportunities, and leasts about 5 hours.
Of course there is time given for lunch.
The flow of the presentation is smooth and you will not be wanting to look at your watch often to see the time remaining, though there is insufficient time to complete everything.
But overall its a good presentation in the sense that the presenter keeps you awake and focused, not dozing off.
After the talk ends at around 4pm, went to TM GV to watch Avatar : 3D.
I paid only $6 while my friend offered to pay the rest, in the form of a long-overdue birthday present. (lol)
but i helped to pay for drinks and part of the lunch.
(we ate vegetarian bee hoon at the cafe in the Prudential Building)
anyway
the movie is ..nice..not like any common movie you see in the cinema which after watching you will regret paying the money for it.
Its 15 years in the making, and the CG, actors, special effects, plot....worth your money i feel.
The movie lasts thre hours...but there is very few boring scenes, which means you wil not feel bored just becasue its three hours.
Overall flow of the movie is good, and the action scenes are , in 3D, not perfect but can be counted as magnificent.
One of the few flaws is that of the 3-D glasses which does not seem to be the right size for my eyes, kept dropping off, had to use one finger to hold it in place...
Next Movie (s) :
- Bodyguards and Assassins
- The Treasure Hunter
Must-watch, or if your wallet / time allows.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
You must know that a person's personality or character will stay with him like his own shadow, throughout his life.
You cannot change it, nor can the person himself.
But if others cannot tolerate or come to terms with it, its their own problem.
People who knows me will know that i am not a loner, and though i do not speak much, its because i cannot interact well with others, not because i am an ARROGANT BASTERD.
No one says i am so, but some things you do not have to say it out to let people know how you feel about them
Yes, i am not able to interact well with other.
Yes, my actions make poeple feel that i am a loner.
Yes, i cannnot commit to interacting with people for long period of time ( and in my case 30 mins is quite long) unless the person initiates the talk .
But this does not mean i cannot do well in group work!!
If you bloody hell feel that my lack of interaction skills or communication skills will afect the group as a whole ( and i can say that whatever i was told to do (eg. research or parts of report), i will do my best to finish it within the time limit), then FINE!
worst come to worst i can accept any group that is willing to accept me as a group member
I dun need friends just because i have few.
I dun need those that look down on me.
I dun need those that cannot accept me as me.
I dun need people who use streotypes to look at others. (and i know i am doing the same thing in this post but i dun care)
I dun need friends just to increase my current number of friends.
I need only those that are worthy of my friendship.
I am not a loner by nature, i am forced by circumstances
i know no one forced me, and this is all my wrongdoing.
but i know the meaning of fairness and separating personal feuds with official work.
If you dun like me, say it out.
Dun use other excuses like you dun want more than 5 people in your group.
okokokokok i know this may seem very biasd and i am limiting this situation to my own thinking and not based on objectivity.
In the first place i should not have post this post and affect my readers, but i feel the need to just vent the pent-up feeligs within myself.
This may look as if its full of slander but i dun care.
I am not aiming at anyone, just the situation i am in now.
or am i lying to myself?
BTBM or not, this is the last semester.
Just get the hell over with it and survive NS.
Tekong or not it does not really matter
What matters is at least i gt a few friends who kows what the hell i am babbling about.
I'll show them i can do it even with this psychological problem of mine.
No one can be denied any fairness and right in achieving success just because they have any communication or interaction problems.
I am starting to wonder if SP DBA is the right choice for me, except the fact that i've made some good friends here.
Needless to say, this is the extreme side of me.
Poeple ask, why i am different when outside and at home?
I might or might not provide an answer in this blog, but its for another time.
but i know that whatever happens in SP, its just a tweeny weeny part of my life.
I have far more important matters to do, to achieve, to enjoy, than to stay here and suffer or cry just because people dun welcome me.
Even if SP dun welcome me, there are people outside who will accept me.
To an extreme, for me, SP is just a place to get a diploma and cca points and to make a few real friends.
tt's all.
besides this, it does not matter if the whole class doe not wish to interact with me, or in a sadder case, fear to.
People change but not their character or personality, but if they do change these two things, then it means they have achieved something great, provided they change for the better.
To conclude,
(1)
In life, you will experience failures more than success.
This is because there will never be success without failure.
The main thing is to accept the failure, learn from it and to apply what you have learnt.
In this way you will not have failed for nothing.
(2)
In life, one of the most important things to do, and also the thing that you must learn to do, is to
LET GO.
remember the phrase: "Live and let live"?
if we forever remember hatred and force ourselves to carry this hatred with us throughout our lives, isn't it more easy to just let go and live a more less stresful and peaceful life?
Only when we can put down truly all our hatred will there be peace in our mind and soul.
but sadly, its not the case in this world.
even i am not able to achieve these things
After writing this post,i feel a little better.
I dun care what will happen for BTBM, lets worry when the time comes.
for now, just do my MMIT and enjoy the holidays (if i can)
Stay Positive!!!
If you ever find youself lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of the people you love.
Their love will get you home :)
You cannot change it, nor can the person himself.
But if others cannot tolerate or come to terms with it, its their own problem.
People who knows me will know that i am not a loner, and though i do not speak much, its because i cannot interact well with others, not because i am an ARROGANT BASTERD.
No one says i am so, but some things you do not have to say it out to let people know how you feel about them
Yes, i am not able to interact well with other.
Yes, my actions make poeple feel that i am a loner.
Yes, i cannnot commit to interacting with people for long period of time ( and in my case 30 mins is quite long) unless the person initiates the talk .
But this does not mean i cannot do well in group work!!
If you bloody hell feel that my lack of interaction skills or communication skills will afect the group as a whole ( and i can say that whatever i was told to do (eg. research or parts of report), i will do my best to finish it within the time limit), then FINE!
worst come to worst i can accept any group that is willing to accept me as a group member
I dun need friends just because i have few.
I dun need those that look down on me.
I dun need those that cannot accept me as me.
I dun need people who use streotypes to look at others. (and i know i am doing the same thing in this post but i dun care)
I dun need friends just to increase my current number of friends.
I need only those that are worthy of my friendship.
I am not a loner by nature, i am forced by circumstances
i know no one forced me, and this is all my wrongdoing.
but i know the meaning of fairness and separating personal feuds with official work.
If you dun like me, say it out.
Dun use other excuses like you dun want more than 5 people in your group.
okokokokok i know this may seem very biasd and i am limiting this situation to my own thinking and not based on objectivity.
In the first place i should not have post this post and affect my readers, but i feel the need to just vent the pent-up feeligs within myself.
This may look as if its full of slander but i dun care.
I am not aiming at anyone, just the situation i am in now.
or am i lying to myself?
BTBM or not, this is the last semester.
Just get the hell over with it and survive NS.
Tekong or not it does not really matter
What matters is at least i gt a few friends who kows what the hell i am babbling about.
I'll show them i can do it even with this psychological problem of mine.
No one can be denied any fairness and right in achieving success just because they have any communication or interaction problems.
I am starting to wonder if SP DBA is the right choice for me, except the fact that i've made some good friends here.
Needless to say, this is the extreme side of me.
Poeple ask, why i am different when outside and at home?
I might or might not provide an answer in this blog, but its for another time.
but i know that whatever happens in SP, its just a tweeny weeny part of my life.
I have far more important matters to do, to achieve, to enjoy, than to stay here and suffer or cry just because people dun welcome me.
Even if SP dun welcome me, there are people outside who will accept me.
To an extreme, for me, SP is just a place to get a diploma and cca points and to make a few real friends.
tt's all.
besides this, it does not matter if the whole class doe not wish to interact with me, or in a sadder case, fear to.
People change but not their character or personality, but if they do change these two things, then it means they have achieved something great, provided they change for the better.
To conclude,
(1)
In life, you will experience failures more than success.
This is because there will never be success without failure.
The main thing is to accept the failure, learn from it and to apply what you have learnt.
In this way you will not have failed for nothing.
(2)
In life, one of the most important things to do, and also the thing that you must learn to do, is to
LET GO.
remember the phrase: "Live and let live"?
if we forever remember hatred and force ourselves to carry this hatred with us throughout our lives, isn't it more easy to just let go and live a more less stresful and peaceful life?
Only when we can put down truly all our hatred will there be peace in our mind and soul.
but sadly, its not the case in this world.
even i am not able to achieve these things
After writing this post,i feel a little better.
I dun care what will happen for BTBM, lets worry when the time comes.
for now, just do my MMIT and enjoy the holidays (if i can)
Stay Positive!!!
If you ever find youself lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of the people you love.
Their love will get you home :)
This morning, when i was throwing some hoops in the basketball court just opposite my HDB flat, i met Mr Kelvin Koh, my geography teacher in HSCS.
He was returing home from breakfast at the nearby coffee shop.
we chatted.
I do not remember everything but here are some excepts:
- Mr Koh asked me about my recent GPA.
- He said 3.0 is still ok cos its just a matter of 0.5 to go Uni.
- He said that some unis got exempted courses depending on the relevance of the particular course to that which you are taking currently in poly.
- If i wanted to take up any part-time courses during my NS vocation, it is cautioned that i choose those private intitutions that are recognised in Singapore.
- Safe bets would be national univerities of foreign countries such as ANU (Australia National University)
- I must have discipline in myself as its already tiring having to cope with NS.
- By taking part in part-time courses, after NS just need to finish remaining years eg. one or two years of uni then can obtain degree le, provided the institution that you took part-time courses in is recognisied in Singapore and by the particular university u want to finish your degree in.
- It is better to apply for admission to your chosen university as soon as possible after you graduated, as if you are admitted, the course fees that you need to pay will be based on the course fee for the particular year you applied for admission.
- eg. you applied for admission in 2010, and after NS in 2012, you gt admitted, you only need to pay the amount of course fees stated in 2010, not 2012.
- Advantage is the course fees will always be increasing year after year. It may be more expensive in 2012 compared to 2010, maybe by even a thousand dollars.
- so the earlier you apply, the lesser you need to pay.
- If your aplication failed in this year, you can always apply in next year.
- priority will be based on those who have the highest GPA, and if there are any vacanies left, then the second-highest will be considered.
Thats about all i can remember for our conversation (some info i might have remembered wrongly sry if tts the case ><)
Good luck!
He was returing home from breakfast at the nearby coffee shop.
we chatted.
I do not remember everything but here are some excepts:
- Mr Koh asked me about my recent GPA.
- He said 3.0 is still ok cos its just a matter of 0.5 to go Uni.
- He said that some unis got exempted courses depending on the relevance of the particular course to that which you are taking currently in poly.
- If i wanted to take up any part-time courses during my NS vocation, it is cautioned that i choose those private intitutions that are recognised in Singapore.
- Safe bets would be national univerities of foreign countries such as ANU (Australia National University)
- I must have discipline in myself as its already tiring having to cope with NS.
- By taking part in part-time courses, after NS just need to finish remaining years eg. one or two years of uni then can obtain degree le, provided the institution that you took part-time courses in is recognisied in Singapore and by the particular university u want to finish your degree in.
- It is better to apply for admission to your chosen university as soon as possible after you graduated, as if you are admitted, the course fees that you need to pay will be based on the course fee for the particular year you applied for admission.
- eg. you applied for admission in 2010, and after NS in 2012, you gt admitted, you only need to pay the amount of course fees stated in 2010, not 2012.
- Advantage is the course fees will always be increasing year after year. It may be more expensive in 2012 compared to 2010, maybe by even a thousand dollars.
- so the earlier you apply, the lesser you need to pay.
- If your aplication failed in this year, you can always apply in next year.
- priority will be based on those who have the highest GPA, and if there are any vacanies left, then the second-highest will be considered.
Thats about all i can remember for our conversation (some info i might have remembered wrongly sry if tts the case ><)
Good luck!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Just completed my MMIT target market analysis
first need to draw tables and graphs based on the tabulazted spss results downloaded from BB
then "analyse" them (which in my case i just put the tables and graphs into words)
took more than three hours (from 8pm to 6-something to 8-something, then from 11pm to 2am)
yesterday's interview was ok i guess.
100% eye cotact, or should i say staring blankly in front?
The interviewer asked around 6 or 7 or 8 or dunno how many questions, but lucky i got prepare beforehand but i got nervious and answered a little too fast without thinking (no time to think)but the good thing is i managed to answer all quesions with only some pauses in between.and i tried not to say "er", 'em" and "ar" . lol.
the way i prepare is ,to others, scary or strange or wierd haz
i was reading my script and speaking out to no one in particular,then suddnely a person came to me ask me if i m alright cos i was, like , mumbling to myself...
a crazy guy talking to himself...but in reality i was reading from my script.
lol.
anyway now just need to do BTBM tutorial then can sleep le..
completed my part for my MMIT project le yeah!!
still got BD which is in... a mess??how many times have i said my BD is in a mess?? cos its has always been a mess...
CSB has notihng le for the time being...
hope i can get back my results and portfolio by next week.
the portfolio veri ex u know, $10 lol.
wat else do i have??
BTBM?? RC??
oh ya RC we doin the window display for a shop in Tampines Mall called "Uptown Kids" the people there veri good cos they actually got heir own designers le, but becos we need this client-based project for our marks so they let us do..thanks!
Today veru suay lor cos we took one whole bag of things there to show the supervisor our ideas, then it al finihsed i had to take this whole bag (think of santa clause red bag and u know how it looks like) cos of a stupid but not practical reason: i live the closest to Tampines mall.
i do not want to drag the whole thing home, so while my other groupmates were busy in the shop, i took out everytihing and rearrange all the small and big bags..
I found that i have a gift for organising things..;)
after what seems like forever, what is left is a small bag dnad a large bag and my laotop and my backpack...
still alot la but much better the=an the santa clause bag..
i scared if i cary the santa claue bag i might be mugged or surrounded by kids asking for presents.
lol
wth i haven do my tut yet
signing off
JL.
first need to draw tables and graphs based on the tabulazted spss results downloaded from BB
then "analyse" them (which in my case i just put the tables and graphs into words)
took more than three hours (from 8pm to 6-something to 8-something, then from 11pm to 2am)
yesterday's interview was ok i guess.
100% eye cotact, or should i say staring blankly in front?
The interviewer asked around 6 or 7 or 8 or dunno how many questions, but lucky i got prepare beforehand but i got nervious and answered a little too fast without thinking (no time to think)but the good thing is i managed to answer all quesions with only some pauses in between.and i tried not to say "er", 'em" and "ar" . lol.
the way i prepare is ,to others, scary or strange or wierd haz
i was reading my script and speaking out to no one in particular,then suddnely a person came to me ask me if i m alright cos i was, like , mumbling to myself...
a crazy guy talking to himself...but in reality i was reading from my script.
lol.
anyway now just need to do BTBM tutorial then can sleep le..
completed my part for my MMIT project le yeah!!
still got BD which is in... a mess??how many times have i said my BD is in a mess?? cos its has always been a mess...
CSB has notihng le for the time being...
hope i can get back my results and portfolio by next week.
the portfolio veri ex u know, $10 lol.
wat else do i have??
BTBM?? RC??
oh ya RC we doin the window display for a shop in Tampines Mall called "Uptown Kids" the people there veri good cos they actually got heir own designers le, but becos we need this client-based project for our marks so they let us do..thanks!
Today veru suay lor cos we took one whole bag of things there to show the supervisor our ideas, then it al finihsed i had to take this whole bag (think of santa clause red bag and u know how it looks like) cos of a stupid but not practical reason: i live the closest to Tampines mall.
i do not want to drag the whole thing home, so while my other groupmates were busy in the shop, i took out everytihing and rearrange all the small and big bags..
I found that i have a gift for organising things..;)
after what seems like forever, what is left is a small bag dnad a large bag and my laotop and my backpack...
still alot la but much better the=an the santa clause bag..
i scared if i cary the santa claue bag i might be mugged or surrounded by kids asking for presents.
lol
wth i haven do my tut yet
signing off
JL.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
List of Suggested Questions for CSB Job Interview
Hi All
CSB job interview is tomorrow
I've compiled a list of questions that might or might not be asked during the interview.
These questions are taken from some youtube videos and my CSB notes.
Here are them:
1) Tell me about yourself
2) Why did you choose to go to the Polytechnic?
3) Did you participate in any special projects while in polytechnic?
4) What is your biggest weakness?
5) Why should we hire you?
6) Why do you want the job?
7) What would be your preferred salary for this position?
8) Where do you see yourself in five years’ time?
I've done my answers to these questions, hope i can remember at least half of them tomorrow
Good luck for your interviews tomorrow :)
CSB job interview is tomorrow
I've compiled a list of questions that might or might not be asked during the interview.
These questions are taken from some youtube videos and my CSB notes.
Here are them:
1) Tell me about yourself
2) Why did you choose to go to the Polytechnic?
3) Did you participate in any special projects while in polytechnic?
4) What is your biggest weakness?
5) Why should we hire you?
6) Why do you want the job?
7) What would be your preferred salary for this position?
8) Where do you see yourself in five years’ time?
I've done my answers to these questions, hope i can remember at least half of them tomorrow
Good luck for your interviews tomorrow :)
Friday, November 20, 2009
<20/11/09>
Today went to Tampines Mall to do my Retail Communications Project.
We went straight there after school at round 5.15pm.
I feel sorry for my groupmates who mostly lived in the west.
One of them even lived in Boon Lay..
Our client is the shop "Uptown Kids"
we're supposed to help them decorate their window displays in the theme of Christmas.
We visited the shop, asked some questions then had an individual meeting within our group.
This dragged on until around 8.15pm...
when i reached home, it was already 9 pm i think.
This weekend, i had to do two main things :
- MMIT full company analysis
- BD Financial excel template
Did you realise that i have added two new blogs?
They are "J Secrets Within" and "NS Memory Lane"
I've been working for "J Secrets Within" for quite some time , but my "NS Memory Lane" will only be officially started after June 2010.
However, "J Secrets Within" will not be available for public view except for some close friends. So far, i had not sent out any invites as i feel that its not time yet to release this blog to anyone.
Pls look forward to it.
Check you email some time in the future and you might just get the chance to visit "J Secrets Within".
GPA 3.4, here i come.
I do not want to think about not getting this.
Signing off,
JL
Today went to Tampines Mall to do my Retail Communications Project.
We went straight there after school at round 5.15pm.
I feel sorry for my groupmates who mostly lived in the west.
One of them even lived in Boon Lay..
Our client is the shop "Uptown Kids"
we're supposed to help them decorate their window displays in the theme of Christmas.
We visited the shop, asked some questions then had an individual meeting within our group.
This dragged on until around 8.15pm...
when i reached home, it was already 9 pm i think.
This weekend, i had to do two main things :
- MMIT full company analysis
- BD Financial excel template
Did you realise that i have added two new blogs?
They are "J Secrets Within" and "NS Memory Lane"
I've been working for "J Secrets Within" for quite some time , but my "NS Memory Lane" will only be officially started after June 2010.
However, "J Secrets Within" will not be available for public view except for some close friends. So far, i had not sent out any invites as i feel that its not time yet to release this blog to anyone.
Pls look forward to it.
Check you email some time in the future and you might just get the chance to visit "J Secrets Within".
GPA 3.4, here i come.
I do not want to think about not getting this.
Signing off,
JL
Thursday, November 12, 2009
What a surprise :)
Today Hong Ning, Celine and Qi Zhen actualy gave me a birthday cake to celebrate my birthday in advance.
Actually not really surpried as a few days ago when she smsed me and asked me if vegetarians do eat egg...i've guessed a bit about the cake,but not very sure about it
This is my first time eating my birthday cake outside my house...and with frens around me..
I admit i'm not able to show how i feel openly, and i do not know how to respond when i saw the cake..tts my weaknesss i guess
and i also admit i am not able to hide how i feel , maybe i had a bad day in school and cannot hide my feelings then become moody and most of the time even if nthing happend to me , i dun smile ofen, and suddenly you saw me and i said hi but i did not smile and looked emo to you, pls forgive me :)
and smiling...when i do smile, it would look as if i'm not..i dunno why... and i dun realy look good in photos..
oh and my birthday present ia a bid "book" with lots of pictures and meaningful sentences inside, some of them handwriten by my friends..heard they spent quite some time staying after sch to do it..
Even though i often see others celebrating their fren's birthdays in the Foodcourt or sumwhere else, and it might seem common, but inside me i feel special.
It'l always be in my heart.
i'm happy that even though we had been in diferent clases since year two, and had known each other only since year one, but the feling betwen us is like i had known them for more than three years.
I feel unrestrained when talking to them (compared to my own class), it feels good when its just the four of us (or five before one goes MIA, lol)
realy miss Year one and hope i can go back again and choose Retail or HRM...
em dunno what to write le...
I reeived my part of my motivation, strength and confidence from my friends and family.
Actually my mind is in a blank while typing this post (oops, sry!!) but i ...i do not know how to feel and express my self...communicaton has really been a problem for me since secondary school..i knw in my mind i have four special frens in school, but i can only say hi and bye when i meet them, or if there's realy some time to chat,i feel that i do not know what to say...i really hate myself on this.
They're some of the few friends i can realy interatct with in school.
I know friendship is in the heart, not through your actions, but i feel like i had not done anything to "proof" or to improve my friendship with them, while they had, once and again, provided me with the friendship i treasured.
Its good to know that you have someone to talk to even if others do not lke you.
No matter how badly i feel in class, i know there will always be 4 frens in my life.
and not forgeting some others outside too, but that will be another story...
Signing off,
JL.
Today Hong Ning, Celine and Qi Zhen actualy gave me a birthday cake to celebrate my birthday in advance.
Actually not really surpried as a few days ago when she smsed me and asked me if vegetarians do eat egg...i've guessed a bit about the cake,but not very sure about it
This is my first time eating my birthday cake outside my house...and with frens around me..
I admit i'm not able to show how i feel openly, and i do not know how to respond when i saw the cake..tts my weaknesss i guess
and i also admit i am not able to hide how i feel , maybe i had a bad day in school and cannot hide my feelings then become moody and most of the time even if nthing happend to me , i dun smile ofen, and suddenly you saw me and i said hi but i did not smile and looked emo to you, pls forgive me :)
and smiling...when i do smile, it would look as if i'm not..i dunno why... and i dun realy look good in photos..
oh and my birthday present ia a bid "book" with lots of pictures and meaningful sentences inside, some of them handwriten by my friends..heard they spent quite some time staying after sch to do it..
Even though i often see others celebrating their fren's birthdays in the Foodcourt or sumwhere else, and it might seem common, but inside me i feel special.
It'l always be in my heart.
i'm happy that even though we had been in diferent clases since year two, and had known each other only since year one, but the feling betwen us is like i had known them for more than three years.
I feel unrestrained when talking to them (compared to my own class), it feels good when its just the four of us (or five before one goes MIA, lol)
realy miss Year one and hope i can go back again and choose Retail or HRM...
em dunno what to write le...
I reeived my part of my motivation, strength and confidence from my friends and family.
Actually my mind is in a blank while typing this post (oops, sry!!) but i ...i do not know how to feel and express my self...communicaton has really been a problem for me since secondary school..i knw in my mind i have four special frens in school, but i can only say hi and bye when i meet them, or if there's realy some time to chat,i feel that i do not know what to say...i really hate myself on this.
They're some of the few friends i can realy interatct with in school.
I know friendship is in the heart, not through your actions, but i feel like i had not done anything to "proof" or to improve my friendship with them, while they had, once and again, provided me with the friendship i treasured.
Its good to know that you have someone to talk to even if others do not lke you.
No matter how badly i feel in class, i know there will always be 4 frens in my life.
and not forgeting some others outside too, but that will be another story...
Signing off,
JL.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
BD presentationis tml
really, i really hate BD
emotionally and psychologically tired
a lot of headaches and frustrations and stress....
done my speech
haven even complete report
hope tml the teacher allow by 5pm or next day or gg.
its 12am...
did Bd from 8 to 10am and then from 1 to 6pm toay.
tml i just present then let them shoot dun care what they say
if it just concerns me i dun give a damn...
just present , get shot then go home !!
yeah!!
Finally i'm free!! (but only for a limitd period and only for BD)
Anyone watching the Channel U 10pm show??
It really nice but i dun like the girl with short hair(Li Wen's aunite's daughter i tink)
and i tink its really sad that Bo Qiao's gf died too early in the show
and they did not put in across seriously , its like she got shot, died and the scene goes to a few months later..lol
anyway the whole damn presentation is finally done..
but now there goes the round of "whu's taking which section to present" thing..haiz
but my team's really doing their job..sometimes i even tok if i had done too little, but i know i'm weak and cant endure for long...tire easily...
i feel more relaxed with them than with my class..more often than not.
signing off,
JL
really, i really hate BD
emotionally and psychologically tired
a lot of headaches and frustrations and stress....
done my speech
haven even complete report
hope tml the teacher allow by 5pm or next day or gg.
its 12am...
did Bd from 8 to 10am and then from 1 to 6pm toay.
tml i just present then let them shoot dun care what they say
if it just concerns me i dun give a damn...
just present , get shot then go home !!
yeah!!
Finally i'm free!! (but only for a limitd period and only for BD)
Anyone watching the Channel U 10pm show??
It really nice but i dun like the girl with short hair(Li Wen's aunite's daughter i tink)
and i tink its really sad that Bo Qiao's gf died too early in the show
and they did not put in across seriously , its like she got shot, died and the scene goes to a few months later..lol
anyway the whole damn presentation is finally done..
but now there goes the round of "whu's taking which section to present" thing..haiz
but my team's really doing their job..sometimes i even tok if i had done too little, but i know i'm weak and cant endure for long...tire easily...
i feel more relaxed with them than with my class..more often than not.
signing off,
JL
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Hello
Was watching Secret just now!
My fourth or fifth time watching it...
I remembered watching it for the first time in the cinema...
I remembered it was already showing for quite sometime le...
I went to the cinema and pray that it had not stopped showing....
I was like sitting in the centre of a empty row...lol
the movie was quite nice...Jay Chou's first movie(I think) directed by himself ..
The story plot i need to watch it a second time on DVD before i get the idea..
anyway was still doing BD report...change here and there and here again...
Thrusday like got presentation...
finish editing what my groupmate had edited what i edited..
so..good night everyone.
Signing off,
JL
Was watching Secret just now!
My fourth or fifth time watching it...
I remembered watching it for the first time in the cinema...
I remembered it was already showing for quite sometime le...
I went to the cinema and pray that it had not stopped showing....
I was like sitting in the centre of a empty row...lol
the movie was quite nice...Jay Chou's first movie(I think) directed by himself ..
The story plot i need to watch it a second time on DVD before i get the idea..
anyway was still doing BD report...change here and there and here again...
Thrusday like got presentation...
finish editing what my groupmate had edited what i edited..
so..good night everyone.
Signing off,
JL
Friday, October 30, 2009
十月三十日 雨
今天， 真的好不开心
连大结局都不让我看
不懂为什么， 作天也一样子，看到一半就睡着， 结果没得看完
今天更不用说了，连大结局都不让我看完
直到片尾才醒来， 什么都看不到
非常懊恼， 想发泄一下情绪， 却没人理会，而且还被骂。
好烦。
虽然知道可能永远也不能再在电视上看到这连续剧了，除非上网看，但我又不想这么做
这世界就是这么好笑， 没晚都在追，结果连大结局都看不到
这件事情，在我心中，无非是一种遗憾， 但也是一种无奈。
还能怎样呢？
连大结局都不让我看
不懂为什么， 作天也一样子，看到一半就睡着， 结果没得看完
今天更不用说了，连大结局都不让我看完
直到片尾才醒来， 什么都看不到
非常懊恼， 想发泄一下情绪， 却没人理会，而且还被骂。
好烦。
虽然知道可能永远也不能再在电视上看到这连续剧了，除非上网看，但我又不想这么做
这世界就是这么好笑， 没晚都在追，结果连大结局都看不到
这件事情，在我心中，无非是一种遗憾， 但也是一种无奈。
还能怎样呢？
Monday, October 19, 2009
The day of Reckoning
Today, through Google, i visited a classmate's blog.
Today, i found out i am really a weakling.
Today, i found out i am really ungrateful.
Today, i found out i had did so much wrong.
Today, i found out i really am anti-social, at least in the minds of other people.
Today, i went across a good quote in one of my classmate's blogs.
Today, i found out a class can be complete without me.
Today, i found out i had not stepped into my previous schools since i stepped out of them upon graduation.
Today, i found out i am worse than many others.
Today, i found out i cannot be a normal person at all.
Today, i found out i have no purpose in life.
Today, i found out i am slowly being forgotten by my friends / ex-classmates.
Today, i found out i had many secrets which i am not able to confess in this blog.
Today, i found out i am not a good friend at all.
Today is the day of reckoning for me.
After Today, i know i still am not able to change for the better.
Today, i hope i can be remembered thirty years from now --
--Not as an loner, but as a real friend.
--Not being anti-social, but being able to interact freely with others.
Today, and right now, i sign off with deepest regrets and apologies.
Today, i found out i am really a weakling.
Today, i found out i am really ungrateful.
Today, i found out i had did so much wrong.
Today, i found out i really am anti-social, at least in the minds of other people.
Today, i went across a good quote in one of my classmate's blogs.
Today, i found out a class can be complete without me.
Today, i found out i had not stepped into my previous schools since i stepped out of them upon graduation.
Today, i found out i am worse than many others.
Today, i found out i cannot be a normal person at all.
Today, i found out i have no purpose in life.
Today, i found out i am slowly being forgotten by my friends / ex-classmates.
Today, i found out i had many secrets which i am not able to confess in this blog.
Today, i found out i am not a good friend at all.
Today is the day of reckoning for me.
After Today, i know i still am not able to change for the better.
Today, i hope i can be remembered thirty years from now --
--Not as an loner, but as a real friend.
--Not being anti-social, but being able to interact freely with others.
Today, and right now, i sign off with deepest regrets and apologies.
Well, today's the first day of school after about one month of holidays.
First day of school, and i've already suffered motion sickness on the way to school.
Had to alight at Tiong Bahru mrt...very dizzy....weak....
now having 3-hour break..
I think it started yesterday when i took bus number 72 from Tampines to Hougang..quite a long trip...
but the laksa there nice to eat...
Hougang Mall..
Then took bus back again number 72..then another bus 292 home....there and then already very dizzy le..
go home bath then sleep le...nvr got the energy to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima" (sry dunno if Iwo Jima is spelt correctly)
Very worried about BD..dunno how to do or continue...
today got BD tutorial...got even more confused and worried...
today at MM and IT practical, a disaster...if not for two new students in this particular module, dun think i can form or join a group with any of the rest of the class at all..
kept yawning and yawning as if i'm on drugs which was not la..
Today received a keychain and a small box of preserved fruits from two friends who went overseas a few days ago...
Thanks for the nice gifts!
篮球火 and 学警出更 showing on TV soon(I think)!! yay!
dunno what to write le...head spinning like a top...dizzy...zzz..zzzz.zzzzzz
zzzing off,
JL
First day of school, and i've already suffered motion sickness on the way to school.
Had to alight at Tiong Bahru mrt...very dizzy....weak....
now having 3-hour break..
I think it started yesterday when i took bus number 72 from Tampines to Hougang..quite a long trip...
but the laksa there nice to eat...
Hougang Mall..
Then took bus back again number 72..then another bus 292 home....there and then already very dizzy le..
go home bath then sleep le...nvr got the energy to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima" (sry dunno if Iwo Jima is spelt correctly)
Very worried about BD..dunno how to do or continue...
today got BD tutorial...got even more confused and worried...
today at MM and IT practical, a disaster...if not for two new students in this particular module, dun think i can form or join a group with any of the rest of the class at all..
kept yawning and yawning as if i'm on drugs which was not la..
Today received a keychain and a small box of preserved fruits from two friends who went overseas a few days ago...
Thanks for the nice gifts!
篮球火 and 学警出更 showing on TV soon(I think)!! yay!
dunno what to write le...head spinning like a top...dizzy...zzz..zzzz.zzzzzz
zzzing off,
JL
Friday, October 2, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Finally, my exam results are out!!!!
Good news:
I finally got a 3.278 for my semester GPA..:)
My wish came true...
I raised from 2.646 to 3.278... its like a miracle, but lets hope its not a roller coaster.
Its a real relief for me.
The first time my GPA raised above 3 !!( the last time was 3.192 in 2007/ 2008 S1)
I really could not believed it at first..i was really depressed after each of my papers....i never knew i got all "B"s for my exams!! even my GBE (Global Business Environment) got a Distinction~
Now i really believed that i had studied for my exams after all...
Recently found two songs on youtube:
1.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6kjlqhjWzU&feature=related)
2.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIFLDx-ZtSc&featu)
Just to share with my readers.
Enjoy.
Confidence level + 1
** Was onto "Heart of Greed" these few weeks (Channel 8 9pm)
Next Monday (28 September)there will be a new Hong Kong serial coming up at 10pm.
gonna catch it too. **
:)
Will be posting again soon~
Signing off.
JL
Good news:
I finally got a 3.278 for my semester GPA..:)
My wish came true...
I raised from 2.646 to 3.278... its like a miracle, but lets hope its not a roller coaster.
Its a real relief for me.
The first time my GPA raised above 3 !!( the last time was 3.192 in 2007/ 2008 S1)
I really could not believed it at first..i was really depressed after each of my papers....i never knew i got all "B"s for my exams!! even my GBE (Global Business Environment) got a Distinction~
Now i really believed that i had studied for my exams after all...
Recently found two songs on youtube:
1.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6kjlqhjWzU&feature=related)
2.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIFLDx-ZtSc&featu)
Just to share with my readers.
Enjoy.
Confidence level + 1
** Was onto "Heart of Greed" these few weeks (Channel 8 9pm)
Next Monday (28 September)there will be a new Hong Kong serial coming up at 10pm.
gonna catch it too. **
:)
Will be posting again soon~
Signing off.
JL
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Found a part-time job at Popular warehouse near Expo.
Involves putting price tags on books.
5-day week, 9.30am til 6pm.
About 15 mins walk from Expo MRT.
Thanks Hong Ning and her friend for giving me this lobang.
Will be working til next Friday.
Went to Army Open House a few weeks ago.
Went to Gundam Fiesta 09 last Tuesday.
Photos will be uploaded on Facebook soon.
C ya.
Signed off,
JL.
Involves putting price tags on books.
5-day week, 9.30am til 6pm.
About 15 mins walk from Expo MRT.
Thanks Hong Ning and her friend for giving me this lobang.
Will be working til next Friday.
Went to Army Open House a few weeks ago.
Went to Gundam Fiesta 09 last Tuesday.
Photos will be uploaded on Facebook soon.
C ya.
Signed off,
JL.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Something about me ~
Found this website from a friend's blog:
Some of it, i found them to be quite true (especially my Soul Urge number)
" You entered: Lim Jian Long
There are 11 letters in your name.
Those 11 letters total to 53
There are 4 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 8
The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.
The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.
Your Soul Urge number is: 7
A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.
You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.
The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself. "
Taken from : http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp
Some of it, i found them to be quite true (especially my Soul Urge number)
" You entered: Lim Jian Long
There are 11 letters in your name.
Those 11 letters total to 53
There are 4 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 8
The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.
The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.
Your Soul Urge number is: 7
A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.
You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.
The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself. "
Taken from : http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Finally
Finished my Semester one Exams on Monday.
Four modules in total.
Now holidays until dunno when.
em
overall, its ...ok i guess except for IA & F.
I became very emo after the paper and waited till everyone went off before i left the classroom...
Though i really hope to get at least 3 this time, i know its impossible again..
nevermind, whatever i get is up to fate and heaven, and also as a result of how much i studied.
Been watching the Channel 8 9pm show.
its quite nice, provides a few new insights into our daily lives.
what i really wanted to see in Hong Kong series would include how the characters manage love, friendship and family.
Sometimes it makes me really envious of them, but of course, its all "just for show"..makes me wonder what it feels like if its for real??
I've always felt that the Hong Kong actors and actresses are 100% more natural and professional than those in Singapore.
It can never be compared.
If i got money, i would be watching VV Drama on Channel 55 by now..
anyway
sometimes, i realy felt that...
i've done so many bad thigs throughout my life that..
loneliness is my punishment, and those precious and few frendships that i am honoured to receive, are my consolations.
it could be seen through the fact that throughout my two weeks of exams, none of my classmates spoke to me before or after the exams.
i know very well that its my fault cos i also did not speak to them in the first place, and this is just a cycle:
i do not know how to speak to them -> they treat me as anti-social and loner then dun speak to me-> they dun speak to me, so i dun speak to them -> etc etc etc.
okok i had to confess again...i dun really treat my class as a class but just as a medium to study and do projects and get a diploma.. but it is not without a reason.
as what i wrote before in my previous posts....i just cannot find the right way to interact with them.
tt's just one reason.
sometimes i realy feel that one or two of them are really against me...but i dun care and dun want to care..
sometimes i really find that some of the people in my class realy treat me as an ani-social loner, but i dun care and dun want to even thnk about it...
i'm really sorry, i have to repeat again and again, but this may be the only medium where i can get my thoughts out in sentences, cos i cannot really tell tis to anyone who is willing to listen OR whom i can recount by just speaking.
like what i have been doing for my other posts, i'm writing what comes to my mind.
i feel that its much more easier to type it out rather than to say it out.
more effective as it tends to stay longer in people's minds and it could be read again and again.
dun have to rmb what i need to say, or what i've said.
you can say i'm a bit lazy (ya, really just a bit :p)
but sometimes...i did try to "merge" into them, in vain, and a very big vain at that.
take for example during my GEMs. I tried to interact by laughing with them and responding verbally to what they are doing, but guess what??
yup, you might have guessed it.
I'M TREATED AS AN INVISIBLE.
wow, so now besides being an anti-social loner, i became the Invisible man. You can call me mr. Invisible.
Does it mean that if someone is not good at the issue of interactivity, you can just anyhow clasify him and based on your own "perceptions" amd "definitions", do whatever you think is right??
sometimes, the Golden Rule does not apply here necessaily
(i.e. do what you want others to do to you, or do what others had did to you)
I'm really blessed to have friends who know i'm not just any anti-social you find on the streets. Nor am i a loner.
and i know what's the point of writing what i feel here?
y not just trash it out with them?
no.
yup, it may seem that i'm also using my own perceptions and definitions when i am writing these, cos i also dnno what they are thinking..
but i'm writng based on how i am treated outside schoolwork.
(which means if there is no projects/ schoolwork/any other things which needs necessary interaction, i'm being treated as non-living or invisible)
ok
i shall stop writing about these..these...these negative issues.
should be happy that exams are over
thanks Hong Ning for giving me the lobang for the popular IT fair !! :)
Wonder when we can get our exam results back??
long time nvr blog le....haz nvr know got so much to write.
btw.....
it feel so good to be throwing some loops (aka. throwing the basketball into the basket)especially when the basketball court is just below my flat..
but it does seem a little bored by myself but its ok..and sometimes i even feel lazy to even go down!! lol but dun worry this won't last long..i will not stay lazy for long..i just went down this morning. yay!
oh no..september need to book NAFTA test le...have nvr passed it before..
need to go NS soon...will i survive?
i have been doing nth for the past two days except playing dota and Freesky and going to the basketball court.
** i know i must be responsible for what i wrote in my blog, and should not just slam eveything into my posts. I'll reflect on this..but sometimes..its really hard.
to be continued.
Signing off,
JL.
Finished my Semester one Exams on Monday.
Four modules in total.
Now holidays until dunno when.
em
overall, its ...ok i guess except for IA & F.
I became very emo after the paper and waited till everyone went off before i left the classroom...
Though i really hope to get at least 3 this time, i know its impossible again..
nevermind, whatever i get is up to fate and heaven, and also as a result of how much i studied.
Been watching the Channel 8 9pm show.
its quite nice, provides a few new insights into our daily lives.
what i really wanted to see in Hong Kong series would include how the characters manage love, friendship and family.
Sometimes it makes me really envious of them, but of course, its all "just for show"..makes me wonder what it feels like if its for real??
I've always felt that the Hong Kong actors and actresses are 100% more natural and professional than those in Singapore.
It can never be compared.
If i got money, i would be watching VV Drama on Channel 55 by now..
anyway
sometimes, i realy felt that...
i've done so many bad thigs throughout my life that..
loneliness is my punishment, and those precious and few frendships that i am honoured to receive, are my consolations.
it could be seen through the fact that throughout my two weeks of exams, none of my classmates spoke to me before or after the exams.
i know very well that its my fault cos i also did not speak to them in the first place, and this is just a cycle:
i do not know how to speak to them -> they treat me as anti-social and loner then dun speak to me-> they dun speak to me, so i dun speak to them -> etc etc etc.
okok i had to confess again...i dun really treat my class as a class but just as a medium to study and do projects and get a diploma.. but it is not without a reason.
as what i wrote before in my previous posts....i just cannot find the right way to interact with them.
tt's just one reason.
sometimes i realy feel that one or two of them are really against me...but i dun care and dun want to care..
sometimes i really find that some of the people in my class realy treat me as an ani-social loner, but i dun care and dun want to even thnk about it...
i'm really sorry, i have to repeat again and again, but this may be the only medium where i can get my thoughts out in sentences, cos i cannot really tell tis to anyone who is willing to listen OR whom i can recount by just speaking.
like what i have been doing for my other posts, i'm writing what comes to my mind.
i feel that its much more easier to type it out rather than to say it out.
more effective as it tends to stay longer in people's minds and it could be read again and again.
dun have to rmb what i need to say, or what i've said.
you can say i'm a bit lazy (ya, really just a bit :p)
but sometimes...i did try to "merge" into them, in vain, and a very big vain at that.
take for example during my GEMs. I tried to interact by laughing with them and responding verbally to what they are doing, but guess what??
yup, you might have guessed it.
I'M TREATED AS AN INVISIBLE.
wow, so now besides being an anti-social loner, i became the Invisible man. You can call me mr. Invisible.
Does it mean that if someone is not good at the issue of interactivity, you can just anyhow clasify him and based on your own "perceptions" amd "definitions", do whatever you think is right??
sometimes, the Golden Rule does not apply here necessaily
(i.e. do what you want others to do to you, or do what others had did to you)
I'm really blessed to have friends who know i'm not just any anti-social you find on the streets. Nor am i a loner.
and i know what's the point of writing what i feel here?
y not just trash it out with them?
no.
yup, it may seem that i'm also using my own perceptions and definitions when i am writing these, cos i also dnno what they are thinking..
but i'm writng based on how i am treated outside schoolwork.
(which means if there is no projects/ schoolwork/any other things which needs necessary interaction, i'm being treated as non-living or invisible)
ok
i shall stop writing about these..these...these negative issues.
should be happy that exams are over
thanks Hong Ning for giving me the lobang for the popular IT fair !! :)
Wonder when we can get our exam results back??
long time nvr blog le....haz nvr know got so much to write.
btw.....
it feel so good to be throwing some loops (aka. throwing the basketball into the basket)especially when the basketball court is just below my flat..
but it does seem a little bored by myself but its ok..and sometimes i even feel lazy to even go down!! lol but dun worry this won't last long..i will not stay lazy for long..i just went down this morning. yay!
oh no..september need to book NAFTA test le...have nvr passed it before..
need to go NS soon...will i survive?
i have been doing nth for the past two days except playing dota and Freesky and going to the basketball court.
** i know i must be responsible for what i wrote in my blog, and should not just slam eveything into my posts. I'll reflect on this..but sometimes..its really hard.
to be continued.
Signing off,
JL.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Arghhhh
This Blogger thing has really gone Defective and Defunct and Deranged...i cant even add any page elements!!!
what the...
anyway i did very little for today, only managed to highlight eight chapters of one textbook according to the lecture notes..
blogging now..
its alomost 12 am.
but dun feel like sleeping...
a little scared..? stressed?actually i feel like sleeping but my exams are bugging me...
i feel like talking nonsense to anyone in msn now...
previously thought i cannot use my com, but now i can..lol
exam in a week's time.
i will pass all. or its over for me..
anyone out there pls tag me...!
Thanks.
Signing off,
JL.
I want to work hard for my exams!!
Pass all!!
Get a 3.0 for GPA!!
Pass NAFTA???
Essier said than done, but at least i said it out :P >_<
This Blogger thing has really gone Defective and Defunct and Deranged...i cant even add any page elements!!!
what the...
anyway i did very little for today, only managed to highlight eight chapters of one textbook according to the lecture notes..
blogging now..
its alomost 12 am.
but dun feel like sleeping...
a little scared..? stressed?actually i feel like sleeping but my exams are bugging me...
i feel like talking nonsense to anyone in msn now...
previously thought i cannot use my com, but now i can..lol
exam in a week's time.
i will pass all. or its over for me..
anyone out there pls tag me...!
Thanks.
Signing off,
JL.
I want to work hard for my exams!!
Pass all!!
Get a 3.0 for GPA!!
Pass NAFTA???
Essier said than done, but at least i said it out :P >_<
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Hello
waiting for BD tutorial to start..
These few weeks, its like there is a misunderstanding between one of my friends and I...
pls tell me what i did wrong. I need to know what caused this misunderstanding between us. But if it is not a misunderstanding, and is indeed my fault, then let me say : "Sorry, forgive me"
I really hope not to lose another friend..
its a very sad feeling to be ignored..
especially by a good friend of mine..
i know i'm a failure in expressing frendship to my friends, and maybe i sometimes dun feel the need to really show them how much friendship we have between us..
even towards my best friend, i also did not express out how much he means to me.This sentence is very gross and disturbing, but pls do not misunderstand me.(i'm straight)
or maybe sometimes i just like to let my mind wonder to duno where such that i became oblivious to almost evrything around me...
back to other issues:
BD is like ****
I dun even know how to do the report!
yesterday, from around 1pm to 7pm, i sat in FC 5 and just..type whatever comes to my mind..
it does not mean that my course is marketing, then i know a lot about it....this is a very wrong perception..!
but i'm the only one in my group who is studying marketing, so what can i do?
although i must admit the feeling of being productive (managed to at least write something for each of my part) and achievement (stayed in school fom 1 to 7 pm) is satisfying, but so what if i did so much and the teacher just take a look and say this is all crap and rubbish?
i dun care.
i did what i could, and even if its all crap, i did my best.
dun care how others think about our report.
exams are coming...
first exam on 24/8/09.
this is my final year..
pls at least let me get a 3.0 for my GPA..
it seems like when we are chionging for our projects, TV is a luxury. Dota is a luxury. Even sleeping for more than 5 hours is a luxury.
But when we finally sort of stabilised our project and have some free time, we might feel that we had not done enough for our projects, or that what we did for our project might not be up to standards...
this is wat i feel.
Its just my own opinion..
Even if a million bad things happen to you or worse than that, having someone next to you who would share your pain, emphasize your situation and whom you could speak and interact freely and without reservations to, is like a small column of light in a dark and limitless tunnel.
Friendships that truly give you happiness, courage and a sense of companionshp, are rare and few in this world.
Cherish it.
Don't break it like what i did.
Have a nice day.
Signing off,
JL.
waiting for BD tutorial to start..
These few weeks, its like there is a misunderstanding between one of my friends and I...
pls tell me what i did wrong. I need to know what caused this misunderstanding between us. But if it is not a misunderstanding, and is indeed my fault, then let me say : "Sorry, forgive me"
I really hope not to lose another friend..
its a very sad feeling to be ignored..
especially by a good friend of mine..
i know i'm a failure in expressing frendship to my friends, and maybe i sometimes dun feel the need to really show them how much friendship we have between us..
even towards my best friend, i also did not express out how much he means to me.This sentence is very gross and disturbing, but pls do not misunderstand me.(i'm straight)
or maybe sometimes i just like to let my mind wonder to duno where such that i became oblivious to almost evrything around me...
back to other issues:
BD is like ****
I dun even know how to do the report!
yesterday, from around 1pm to 7pm, i sat in FC 5 and just..type whatever comes to my mind..
it does not mean that my course is marketing, then i know a lot about it....this is a very wrong perception..!
but i'm the only one in my group who is studying marketing, so what can i do?
although i must admit the feeling of being productive (managed to at least write something for each of my part) and achievement (stayed in school fom 1 to 7 pm) is satisfying, but so what if i did so much and the teacher just take a look and say this is all crap and rubbish?
i dun care.
i did what i could, and even if its all crap, i did my best.
dun care how others think about our report.
exams are coming...
first exam on 24/8/09.
this is my final year..
pls at least let me get a 3.0 for my GPA..
it seems like when we are chionging for our projects, TV is a luxury. Dota is a luxury. Even sleeping for more than 5 hours is a luxury.
But when we finally sort of stabilised our project and have some free time, we might feel that we had not done enough for our projects, or that what we did for our project might not be up to standards...
this is wat i feel.
Its just my own opinion..
Even if a million bad things happen to you or worse than that, having someone next to you who would share your pain, emphasize your situation and whom you could speak and interact freely and without reservations to, is like a small column of light in a dark and limitless tunnel.
Friendships that truly give you happiness, courage and a sense of companionshp, are rare and few in this world.
Cherish it.
Don't break it like what i did.
Have a nice day.
Signing off,
JL.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Hello I'm back :)
Phew
Just submitted my GBE report at 5 pm today!!!!!
finally~!
my group and i stayed to 3am last night to do it lor.....
actually, two of them "disappeared" at around 2.40pm, and i so silly wait for them to reply...lol
2.45 pm pack up and flopped down on bed, then less than 4 hours later force myself to wake up...
lesson starts at 8am, but who cares?? especially when our report is , relatively, more important..anyway everyweek for GBE lecture, the MLT is almost empty one...
anyway, thought finally fnish le after the 11-to-3am chiong of references, butbutbut!!!
was told on round 1pm that....have to copy and paste websites of references for dunno what shit...and its not as easy as it sounds.
took 3-plus hours la...so stressed that i almost shouted at my friend who called.(he's like so innocent)
5 pm nid hand in lor!!
wth
the last few minutes to deadtime, the atmosphere is quite fiery...so stressed when doing the last remaining referenes, which is mine....almost harm our group...but lucky we managed to hand in the report on time...when the teacher said (what i heard)..actually we can hand in at 5.30pm.
the printing shop is fully packed to the brim...and though i did not really went down there as i've to help with the references, i can see two of our groupmates rushing to and fo just to print the report...
quite scary, like our lives depend on it..lol
anyway, finally finish le!! yay...still got MC and SM.
so,
Goodnight.
Signed off,
JL.
Phew
Just submitted my GBE report at 5 pm today!!!!!
finally~!
my group and i stayed to 3am last night to do it lor.....
actually, two of them "disappeared" at around 2.40pm, and i so silly wait for them to reply...lol
2.45 pm pack up and flopped down on bed, then less than 4 hours later force myself to wake up...
lesson starts at 8am, but who cares?? especially when our report is , relatively, more important..anyway everyweek for GBE lecture, the MLT is almost empty one...
anyway, thought finally fnish le after the 11-to-3am chiong of references, butbutbut!!!
was told on round 1pm that....have to copy and paste websites of references for dunno what shit...and its not as easy as it sounds.
took 3-plus hours la...so stressed that i almost shouted at my friend who called.(he's like so innocent)
5 pm nid hand in lor!!
wth
the last few minutes to deadtime, the atmosphere is quite fiery...so stressed when doing the last remaining referenes, which is mine....almost harm our group...but lucky we managed to hand in the report on time...when the teacher said (what i heard)..actually we can hand in at 5.30pm.
the printing shop is fully packed to the brim...and though i did not really went down there as i've to help with the references, i can see two of our groupmates rushing to and fo just to print the report...
quite scary, like our lives depend on it..lol
anyway, finally finish le!! yay...still got MC and SM.
so,
Goodnight.
Signed off,
JL.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Its been a while.
A lo of things happened recently.
How do i feel?
I felt like a stranger, even to my friends for two years.
Realised that life is forever changing, and fate just passes you by without warning.
Most of the time, i dun even have a part in it.I feel so idiotic, so stupid..(its not about any of the things in my previous posts)
My self-confidence's long gone by the time i reached secondary one.
For me, its either i have very good friends, or i have none at all.
I found my first good friends in primary school, but now we have lost touch since secaondary one, maybe even forever.
My next batch of good friends are found in secondary school.
Only two this time round.But it beats nothing, and the good thing is that we are still in touch.:)One of them even went to the same poly with me, or is it the other way round? haz.
Then in poly, i found another four good friends in year one. When we were in the same class then, we got along well with each other.
Until we went to year two, when things started to change, maybe a bit at first.
cos two of them went to HR, one went to Retail, and the other, i forgot where she went to. I lost touch with her since year two.
Year three. i remain regular contact with only my friend for almost six years, who is the one from seconday school.
Old frens are the best huh? Wrong.
Where have all the happines from primary school gone to?
people change, and its true. or maybe i'm too sensitive.
anyway, completed my BD presentation last Thursday. I'm in the Q and A team.and i answered one question, which is good :)
Actually, we were supposed to have a class outing at Vivocity, at the restaurant Marche or watever i dnno how to spell..
but i can't go cos:
- Its scheduled at 7.30pm, and i can't return late( if it starts at 8 and finishes at 10, i'll only reach home at 11.30pm or later..)and only on 6.30pm that i found out at home thru email that it changed to 6.30pm. ok i did not read my email often enough.
- Vivocity is too far away from Tampines (though one of my classmate live in pasir Ris and still going for it, we are two different people; maybe he can stay out as late 12am and take a cab home,but not for me)
- My relationshp with my clasmates as a whole could only be descrbed as "neutral" ; i found that i can't associate with them , or maybe i can't find similar topics to talk to them.thus to avoid any monents where i might be regarded as an extra, i decided not to go. I know i'm avoiding my problems, but ..i really duno, and dun care?( i'm stepping on dangerous waters here..this is not a good thing to say)ok so i can't find the right words to explain myself..
enough excuses.let's continue..
Just completed what i could do for the sectoral analysis for Hungary.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is on Channel five tomorrow!! gonna watch it :)
my laptop kept popping out a message saying " a network cable is unplugged" so irritating....lolol
actually i dunno what to write le.
thus ends my post!
Signed off,
JL
[if you've been reading my posts, pls leave a tag...!!thanks:):)]
A lo of things happened recently.
How do i feel?
I felt like a stranger, even to my friends for two years.
Realised that life is forever changing, and fate just passes you by without warning.
Most of the time, i dun even have a part in it.I feel so idiotic, so stupid..(its not about any of the things in my previous posts)
My self-confidence's long gone by the time i reached secondary one.
For me, its either i have very good friends, or i have none at all.
I found my first good friends in primary school, but now we have lost touch since secaondary one, maybe even forever.
My next batch of good friends are found in secondary school.
Only two this time round.But it beats nothing, and the good thing is that we are still in touch.:)One of them even went to the same poly with me, or is it the other way round? haz.
Then in poly, i found another four good friends in year one. When we were in the same class then, we got along well with each other.
Until we went to year two, when things started to change, maybe a bit at first.
cos two of them went to HR, one went to Retail, and the other, i forgot where she went to. I lost touch with her since year two.
Year three. i remain regular contact with only my friend for almost six years, who is the one from seconday school.
Old frens are the best huh? Wrong.
Where have all the happines from primary school gone to?
people change, and its true. or maybe i'm too sensitive.
anyway, completed my BD presentation last Thursday. I'm in the Q and A team.and i answered one question, which is good :)
Actually, we were supposed to have a class outing at Vivocity, at the restaurant Marche or watever i dnno how to spell..
but i can't go cos:
- Its scheduled at 7.30pm, and i can't return late( if it starts at 8 and finishes at 10, i'll only reach home at 11.30pm or later..)and only on 6.30pm that i found out at home thru email that it changed to 6.30pm. ok i did not read my email often enough.
- Vivocity is too far away from Tampines (though one of my classmate live in pasir Ris and still going for it, we are two different people; maybe he can stay out as late 12am and take a cab home,but not for me)
- My relationshp with my clasmates as a whole could only be descrbed as "neutral" ; i found that i can't associate with them , or maybe i can't find similar topics to talk to them.thus to avoid any monents where i might be regarded as an extra, i decided not to go. I know i'm avoiding my problems, but ..i really duno, and dun care?( i'm stepping on dangerous waters here..this is not a good thing to say)ok so i can't find the right words to explain myself..
enough excuses.let's continue..
Just completed what i could do for the sectoral analysis for Hungary.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is on Channel five tomorrow!! gonna watch it :)
my laptop kept popping out a message saying " a network cable is unplugged" so irritating....lolol
actually i dunno what to write le.
thus ends my post!
Signed off,
JL
[if you've been reading my posts, pls leave a tag...!!thanks:):)]
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Hi
its me again
time: 1.22am
ok dun complain since i chose this myself....
anyway today stayed back after school at around 4pm to do proj until around 7.15pm then walked to Dover MRT then take train home.
reached home at around 8.30pm....
then bathe, eat,..then on laptop, then slog until now [and leaving Restaurant City on all the way...=) ]
was doing my Services Marketing proj, the one that i said is due on Thurs...
now finished!!yay!
was staying in school to help out for another proj..the one i said presentation this thurs and report next tues...report almost done!! presentation only left editing!!!
yay!!
ok..
so...
left the proj meeting tml..and my part for this proj .
currently saving money to watch Transformers,and to buy present for my sis.
ok.
slping time~
Signed off,
The person who likes to push himself , sometimes too much, but not over the cliff ,yet.
its me again
time: 1.22am
ok dun complain since i chose this myself....
anyway today stayed back after school at around 4pm to do proj until around 7.15pm then walked to Dover MRT then take train home.
reached home at around 8.30pm....
then bathe, eat,..then on laptop, then slog until now [and leaving Restaurant City on all the way...=) ]
was doing my Services Marketing proj, the one that i said is due on Thurs...
now finished!!yay!
was staying in school to help out for another proj..the one i said presentation this thurs and report next tues...report almost done!! presentation only left editing!!!
yay!!
ok..
so...
left the proj meeting tml..and my part for this proj .
currently saving money to watch Transformers,and to buy present for my sis.
ok.
slping time~
Signed off,
The person who likes to push himself , sometimes too much, but not over the cliff ,yet.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I HAD ENOUGH.
i DUN KNOW AND I DUN CARE HOW MANY MILLIONS OF TIMES I HAD SAID THIS BEFORE,
BUT I'M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN. i HAD ENOUGH.
ACTUALLY TONIGHT I CAN SLEEP AT 10 PM.
BUT DUE TO SOME **** ******* CIRCUMSTANCES, ITS 1 AM NOW. 1 **** AM.
YUP I PRESSED CAPSLOCK ACCIDENTALLy, BUT I WILL NOT RETYPE WHAT I HAD TYPED.
ok.no capslock.
had to finish my part for a project due Thurs.NOT done yet.
got another proj not due, but meeting on wed.
another proj, PRESENTATION ON THURS, NOT A **** DONE YET.
yup, it may just be three things only, and you may have experiened much more worse than i'm currently in, but in my point of view, no one can save me.
the most you can do is look at this post and laugh if you want, or leave some encouragement, or do nothing at all.
pls give me some EMPATHY, Not SYMPATHY.
If there's anything i wrote that affected you in any other way, accept my apologies, though i feel that what i wrote in this post will affect only me,if not worse.
In case anyone don't know, its Tues NOW.
I'm really disappointed at how things turned out.
at how SLOW i am.
at how FAST time goes.
AT HOW TIRED and **** ** i am.
I'm really disappointed in myself.
If i m able to survive thorugh this, i thank you for reading this post.
Have a nice day,
while for me, BAD.BAD.BAD.
Signed,
Yours Truly.
i DUN KNOW AND I DUN CARE HOW MANY MILLIONS OF TIMES I HAD SAID THIS BEFORE,
BUT I'M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN. i HAD ENOUGH.
ACTUALLY TONIGHT I CAN SLEEP AT 10 PM.
BUT DUE TO SOME **** ******* CIRCUMSTANCES, ITS 1 AM NOW. 1 **** AM.
YUP I PRESSED CAPSLOCK ACCIDENTALLy, BUT I WILL NOT RETYPE WHAT I HAD TYPED.
ok.no capslock.
had to finish my part for a project due Thurs.NOT done yet.
got another proj not due, but meeting on wed.
another proj, PRESENTATION ON THURS, NOT A **** DONE YET.
yup, it may just be three things only, and you may have experiened much more worse than i'm currently in, but in my point of view, no one can save me.
the most you can do is look at this post and laugh if you want, or leave some encouragement, or do nothing at all.
pls give me some EMPATHY, Not SYMPATHY.
If there's anything i wrote that affected you in any other way, accept my apologies, though i feel that what i wrote in this post will affect only me,if not worse.
In case anyone don't know, its Tues NOW.
I'm really disappointed at how things turned out.
at how SLOW i am.
at how FAST time goes.
AT HOW TIRED and **** ** i am.
I'm really disappointed in myself.
If i m able to survive thorugh this, i thank you for reading this post.
Have a nice day,
while for me, BAD.BAD.BAD.
Signed,
Yours Truly.
Friday, June 12, 2009
I'm back :)
For a start, let's start with a short random post - -
Just a quick random post before goin to watch "Brink of Law" on Channel U
This week's a bit of a hell.
projects, surveys and a bit of study.
2 days of surveys, two days of projects, and i haven even finish even half of my surveys.
em...what should i write today?
its quite hot these few days....round 34 degrees rite? round there, what the newspaper said.
good weather huh?
having my three-week holiday now.
left two weeks.
any updates?? well...i already did, haz.
haz, here's a funny thing: i borrowed a book during the month of May, and now i haven even finish reading through half of it.
opps, hope its not overdue, or must renew again...
but cannot be too selfish la..kope the book for one whole month...
anyway lucky its an old book..The Bourne Identity.em..its old already rite? haz.
shall blog again soon.
- How childish / foolish am i -
Good night :)
For a start, let's start with a short random post - -
Just a quick random post before goin to watch "Brink of Law" on Channel U
This week's a bit of a hell.
projects, surveys and a bit of study.
2 days of surveys, two days of projects, and i haven even finish even half of my surveys.
em...what should i write today?
its quite hot these few days....round 34 degrees rite? round there, what the newspaper said.
good weather huh?
having my three-week holiday now.
left two weeks.
any updates?? well...i already did, haz.
haz, here's a funny thing: i borrowed a book during the month of May, and now i haven even finish reading through half of it.
opps, hope its not overdue, or must renew again...
but cannot be too selfish la..kope the book for one whole month...
anyway lucky its an old book..The Bourne Identity.em..its old already rite? haz.
shall blog again soon.
- How childish / foolish am i -
Good night :)
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I really hope its about me.
But i know nth is ever about me.
I'm dreaming is it is.
But who has no dreams??
What i need is to face,is reality.
I should stop saying bad things about me.
I should stop affecting readers with my posts (if i did)
Just what have i done?
I didn't even know what i've done...
I didn't even know if i had affected anyone(even in the slightest way) with my posts.
I need someone to tell me straight in the chatbox or email or msn etc etc...but i also know i should stop bothering people anymore.
Yup, maybe its time i stop blogging for a while. Stop posting rubbish or trash or whatever.
I'm not refering to anything, but only my post on 19 May 2009.
I felt like i've taken advantage of blogging to write whatever is in my mind, without any thoughts for my readers.
I'm selfish, I'm thoughtless, I'm sorry.
I can't recall how many "sorry"s i've typed using my keyboard, but as the saying goes :" sorry no cure"
But all i can say is Sorry. and i know i should stop saying that because its meaningless. Is it?
alrite i shall stop writing grandmother stories.
Changes? Nth will ever change even if i change.
We'll see.
*This will be my last post until further notice.
Signing off,
Lim Jian Long
12:18am
But i know nth is ever about me.
I'm dreaming is it is.
But who has no dreams??
What i need is to face,is reality.
I should stop saying bad things about me.
I should stop affecting readers with my posts (if i did)
Just what have i done?
I didn't even know what i've done...
I didn't even know if i had affected anyone(even in the slightest way) with my posts.
I need someone to tell me straight in the chatbox or email or msn etc etc...but i also know i should stop bothering people anymore.
Yup, maybe its time i stop blogging for a while. Stop posting rubbish or trash or whatever.
I'm not refering to anything, but only my post on 19 May 2009.
I felt like i've taken advantage of blogging to write whatever is in my mind, without any thoughts for my readers.
I'm selfish, I'm thoughtless, I'm sorry.
I can't recall how many "sorry"s i've typed using my keyboard, but as the saying goes :" sorry no cure"
But all i can say is Sorry. and i know i should stop saying that because its meaningless. Is it?
alrite i shall stop writing grandmother stories.
Changes? Nth will ever change even if i change.
We'll see.
*This will be my last post until further notice.
Signing off,
Lim Jian Long
12:18am
Yup, its me again,though i will be surprised if its not me posting here....
Yesterday, watched a movie on Channel U, 11.30pm
dun think anyone i know will know about this movie, but its ok. :)
decided to push everything regarding sch to tomorrow
i gt one project presentation and two tutorials and one lab exercise.
what else? em...
well i got along well with my BD group, haz...We had a new male member about two weeks ago.
Now goin to Garena to see if gt any available room to play.
Signing off,
JL
Yesterday, watched a movie on Channel U, 11.30pm
dun think anyone i know will know about this movie, but its ok. :)
decided to push everything regarding sch to tomorrow
i gt one project presentation and two tutorials and one lab exercise.
what else? em...
well i got along well with my BD group, haz...We had a new male member about two weeks ago.
Now goin to Garena to see if gt any available room to play.
Signing off,
JL
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I dunno whatever happens to me
i felt like a failure(once more)
i felt tired even though my projs are not in rough waters.
I just want to be noticed.
but i failed as a friend when i can't even say something useful/measningful to a friend about what she is going through now...
What right do i have in people's lives when i dun even give a damn about how they are doing?
Though everyone is my friend, not everyone treats it so.
Maybe i'm too sensitive, but ....what happens in sch is .... nvm i shall not elaborate.
If a mute can have many friends, why can't a normal person ? unless i'm adnormal?
is communication the only factor here?
I know whatever happens to me, i can only blame myself...as its all due to me .
Different people have different personalities, but why all these people can communicate well together, but not with me?
just tell me where i went wrong!!
yayayaya communications, solo guy, quiet, anti-social......i had already talked abou this in my previous posts!
...looks like i'm just cirlcing round and round....with no destination or goal.
ppl talk to me only about sch work and proj, but nth else.except some rare times.
if i say all r my friends, i can say only a few are real.
what is the meaning of real friends?
are friends just a term for "a person tt i know by the name and who i talked to only about sch work"?
what am i babbling about?
am i being randm today?
is it becos i gt nth better to blog about?
why am i secong-guessing your thoughts? or am i?
i'm just writing whatever comes to my mind?
do i ever think b4 i write?
i really envy others...but what's the point of envying?
i'm in my third year now...but i feel like a immature person, a selfish one at tt.
so what if i admit my mistakes? i said i'll change. where is it?
none at all!
all i can do is daydream!
My good friend has a clique of over 20! but i have nth...yes its my fault, no one else's...
I'm not trying to argue, grumble or complain here...
its my weakness..i can only communicate freely in msn!
am i being over-dependant on it?
am i just a coward shifting around in my tiny four-corner space?
i'm not fit to be anyone's .....i can only be a good friend, nth more than that
becos its after 19/11/2008 that i really start to think...and reflect...and lie to myself before dragging myself back to reality again..i had to face the fact!
i long for company, but what can i give in return? no one wants a loner for company...no one most certainly wants an emo anti-socialist in a clique.Actually i'm netiher! but my actions may have perceived ppl to think tt i am!
Change is not the thing here!
the thing is HOW? do i follow a certain number of steps?
or do i need to act indefinitely in front of them?
actually i do not know what exactly am i trying to convey in this post..
i just wanted to fall onto my bed and sleep.
how will i survive in NS?
why am i wacking my brain so i can continue this post?
can i just stop here?
do i need to continue?
i finally realised another important weakness about me.
i am not decisive at all!!
am i trying to show off or to catch attention by writing all this? if so, why? am i really desperate for company? Am i trying to get noticed? Yes? If no, does it contradict with my 4th sentence?
why am i typing so fast?
my neck hurts!
my head hurts...
my heart...ok stop being emo pls.but no, its not emo..its something else, something more complex, but which actually is quite simple and cruel, maybe?
i found out another thing...i'm talking to myself in this post!
am i?
stop....!
sorry did i scare you...hahaz.
I'm a hypocrite. but it depends on how ppl define it.How i define it. How you deine it.
relax, there's nth wrong with me.
This is a very random post. i'm just confused.or perplexed. or just being silly, wrong in the brain., etcetc, crazy even...
better end this post now.
Sighing off,
JL
i felt like a failure(once more)
i felt tired even though my projs are not in rough waters.
I just want to be noticed.
but i failed as a friend when i can't even say something useful/measningful to a friend about what she is going through now...
What right do i have in people's lives when i dun even give a damn about how they are doing?
Though everyone is my friend, not everyone treats it so.
Maybe i'm too sensitive, but ....what happens in sch is .... nvm i shall not elaborate.
If a mute can have many friends, why can't a normal person ? unless i'm adnormal?
is communication the only factor here?
I know whatever happens to me, i can only blame myself...as its all due to me .
Different people have different personalities, but why all these people can communicate well together, but not with me?
just tell me where i went wrong!!
yayayaya communications, solo guy, quiet, anti-social......i had already talked abou this in my previous posts!
...looks like i'm just cirlcing round and round....with no destination or goal.
ppl talk to me only about sch work and proj, but nth else.except some rare times.
if i say all r my friends, i can say only a few are real.
what is the meaning of real friends?
are friends just a term for "a person tt i know by the name and who i talked to only about sch work"?
what am i babbling about?
am i being randm today?
is it becos i gt nth better to blog about?
why am i secong-guessing your thoughts? or am i?
i'm just writing whatever comes to my mind?
do i ever think b4 i write?
i really envy others...but what's the point of envying?
i'm in my third year now...but i feel like a immature person, a selfish one at tt.
so what if i admit my mistakes? i said i'll change. where is it?
none at all!
all i can do is daydream!
My good friend has a clique of over 20! but i have nth...yes its my fault, no one else's...
I'm not trying to argue, grumble or complain here...
its my weakness..i can only communicate freely in msn!
am i being over-dependant on it?
am i just a coward shifting around in my tiny four-corner space?
i'm not fit to be anyone's .....i can only be a good friend, nth more than that
becos its after 19/11/2008 that i really start to think...and reflect...and lie to myself before dragging myself back to reality again..i had to face the fact!
i long for company, but what can i give in return? no one wants a loner for company...no one most certainly wants an emo anti-socialist in a clique.Actually i'm netiher! but my actions may have perceived ppl to think tt i am!
Change is not the thing here!
the thing is HOW? do i follow a certain number of steps?
or do i need to act indefinitely in front of them?
actually i do not know what exactly am i trying to convey in this post..
i just wanted to fall onto my bed and sleep.
how will i survive in NS?
why am i wacking my brain so i can continue this post?
can i just stop here?
do i need to continue?
i finally realised another important weakness about me.
i am not decisive at all!!
am i trying to show off or to catch attention by writing all this? if so, why? am i really desperate for company? Am i trying to get noticed? Yes? If no, does it contradict with my 4th sentence?
why am i typing so fast?
my neck hurts!
my head hurts...
my heart...ok stop being emo pls.but no, its not emo..its something else, something more complex, but which actually is quite simple and cruel, maybe?
i found out another thing...i'm talking to myself in this post!
am i?
stop....!
sorry did i scare you...hahaz.
I'm a hypocrite. but it depends on how ppl define it.How i define it. How you deine it.
relax, there's nth wrong with me.
This is a very random post. i'm just confused.or perplexed. or just being silly, wrong in the brain., etcetc, crazy even...
better end this post now.
Sighing off,
JL
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I'm afraid (very afraid) that i'm slipping into the dangerous but tempting habit of procastinating and laziness, again...
i'm supposed to do some research on my Global Business Environment project, but even though i returned home at round 7.30pm, i felt really tired, and enjoyed lying on my bed for 3 hours..the feeling is great..i just wanted to close my eyes and sleep...
so now i'm suffering the consequences for not doing my work early, and its nw 12am...
i just found some websites for what i'm supposed to find, and i guessed tt's it then.
then need to do GBE tutorial, and i'll let IA and F tut alone till tomorrow....
....
my procastination habit is getting worse...pls help me..
when even did i find the time to blog? but its a break for me, and it helped me to stay focus...lol
luckily for me, before my procastination and laziness habit kicks in, i've completed my assignments for my Business Development module..Market evaluation, Features of the industry and Demographic factors...
(i dun deny for some parts of these assignments...i did crap a bit .....)
anyway i forgot i sill need to do some appendix parts for my GBE project....
.....
....
...
..
.
wth
signing off,
J
i'm supposed to do some research on my Global Business Environment project, but even though i returned home at round 7.30pm, i felt really tired, and enjoyed lying on my bed for 3 hours..the feeling is great..i just wanted to close my eyes and sleep...
so now i'm suffering the consequences for not doing my work early, and its nw 12am...
i just found some websites for what i'm supposed to find, and i guessed tt's it then.
then need to do GBE tutorial, and i'll let IA and F tut alone till tomorrow....
....
my procastination habit is getting worse...pls help me..
when even did i find the time to blog? but its a break for me, and it helped me to stay focus...lol
luckily for me, before my procastination and laziness habit kicks in, i've completed my assignments for my Business Development module..Market evaluation, Features of the industry and Demographic factors...
(i dun deny for some parts of these assignments...i did crap a bit .....)
anyway i forgot i sill need to do some appendix parts for my GBE project....
.....
....
...
..
.
wth
signing off,
J
Monday, May 4, 2009
I'm back!
Recent Updates (Not in order of date or importance):
- Went to Istana last Friday(Labour day) to help out at Istana Open House
- Starting on Team Contract for my Buiness Development Module
- I'm in a no-man's-group(literally), cos all of my other group members are females..haz
- i'm appointed Secretary..men can be secretary ok ~ em..aka asst. team leader
- We finished our team contract today.
- I actually forgot to bring my Handphone today, and had to buy a new chip phonecard from 7-11 (lol)>> 5 damn dollars..anyway my old chip phone dunno why went out on me then the payphone say invalid chip phonecard, wth
- Chiong "Slam Dunk" on Saturday night(i knw its an ancient anime, but i'm rewatching it.)*bought the dvd at Giants.
i knw can dl on youtube, but the graphics on youtube not nice, and nid internet connection, and hard to search for the episodes, and..................etc etc
and also i bought with my pay, so its ok.
- may be going for swimming lessons on Tuesdays at Tampines Swimming Complex..round $50 fee per mth, and only once each week.is it too ex?
- to be continued.
Signed off,
J
Recent Updates (Not in order of date or importance):
- Went to Istana last Friday(Labour day) to help out at Istana Open House
- Starting on Team Contract for my Buiness Development Module
- I'm in a no-man's-group(literally), cos all of my other group members are females..haz
- i'm appointed Secretary..men can be secretary ok ~ em..aka asst. team leader
- We finished our team contract today.
- I actually forgot to bring my Handphone today, and had to buy a new chip phonecard from 7-11 (lol)>> 5 damn dollars..anyway my old chip phone dunno why went out on me then the payphone say invalid chip phonecard, wth
- Chiong "Slam Dunk" on Saturday night(i knw its an ancient anime, but i'm rewatching it.)*bought the dvd at Giants.
i knw can dl on youtube, but the graphics on youtube not nice, and nid internet connection, and hard to search for the episodes, and..................etc etc
and also i bought with my pay, so its ok.
- may be going for swimming lessons on Tuesdays at Tampines Swimming Complex..round $50 fee per mth, and only once each week.is it too ex?
- to be continued.
Signed off,
J
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Hello!
Been a while since ive blogged.
This week's ...not veri good.
though fri's off day.
Something happened at home, and i've taken two whole days and two half days..i have to.
so its like...i onli went to work for a day this week.
but its not good..i'd rather work for four days.
its been a blow to my parents and also to members of my paternal family..
however, to look on the bright side, finally i'm able to go to the same GEMS as my friend! and the same class and same time too :)
and its on a fri :)
and one more week left(tink so) til end of ITP :)
and our timetable's....nice should be the word, or cool?
but not as cool as my frend, who gt NO class on Wednesday.
i think it would be better if he gt no class on fri, until i rmb we gt GEMS on fri...hahaz
............................................
Many things happened recently..
and i knw i'm not as good as you think.
Everyone has his or her own probs.
His or her own weaknesses.
His or her own... secrets
I think its better this way.
At least you're happy. And that's great.
At least you found your happiness. That's the point, isn't it?
I dunno any words of support/encouragement/ etc.
but i knw as long as you feel at ease, comfortable, happy, and the sorts, i'll have no regrets.
No sadness, no nth.
And i'll carry on the path of life too.
Signing off,
JL.
Been a while since ive blogged.
This week's ...not veri good.
though fri's off day.
Something happened at home, and i've taken two whole days and two half days..i have to.
so its like...i onli went to work for a day this week.
but its not good..i'd rather work for four days.
its been a blow to my parents and also to members of my paternal family..
however, to look on the bright side, finally i'm able to go to the same GEMS as my friend! and the same class and same time too :)
and its on a fri :)
and one more week left(tink so) til end of ITP :)
and our timetable's....nice should be the word, or cool?
but not as cool as my frend, who gt NO class on Wednesday.
i think it would be better if he gt no class on fri, until i rmb we gt GEMS on fri...hahaz
............................................
Many things happened recently..
and i knw i'm not as good as you think.
Everyone has his or her own probs.
His or her own weaknesses.
His or her own... secrets
I think its better this way.
At least you're happy. And that's great.
At least you found your happiness. That's the point, isn't it?
I dunno any words of support/encouragement/ etc.
but i knw as long as you feel at ease, comfortable, happy, and the sorts, i'll have no regrets.
No sadness, no nth.
And i'll carry on the path of life too.
Signing off,
JL.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Saw my results today.
Yes, i've deteriorated.
de-proved.
felt really lousy.
besides that, dunno what i should feel. should i feel angry? sad? disappointed? mad? depressed? moody? any other feelings? em..happy?
've been falling and falling for almost three sems continuously.
from 3.2 to 3 to 2.9.
nth to say.
thought my gpa had improved but in reality, it has indeed dropped.
mistook my sem gpa for my cumulative gpa, or is it the other way round?
anyway, both dropped/ decreased by almost 0.2
felt that i'm really a failure, not only in r***********s, but also academically (not to mention i've failed in communication skills as well)
anyone may feel that i'm all talk and no action, but..ok i admit.and that's another reason why i feel like a failure.
yes..all along i may be being negative about myself, but that's because my confidence has been depleted a long time ago. Its in deficit now.
and that's one of the reasons why i may be a hypocrite..tend to hide my feelings and show two diferent sides when with my friends and when alone, but i dun deny i try to cover up my own feelings by not smiling or being quiet sometimes...which led to even more misunderstandings which i shall not elaborate here............................
duno what to type le.
that's all for today then :)
(haz dun worry, i'll be ok.)
~really.
Yes, i've deteriorated.
de-proved.
felt really lousy.
besides that, dunno what i should feel. should i feel angry? sad? disappointed? mad? depressed? moody? any other feelings? em..happy?
've been falling and falling for almost three sems continuously.
from 3.2 to 3 to 2.9.
nth to say.
thought my gpa had improved but in reality, it has indeed dropped.
mistook my sem gpa for my cumulative gpa, or is it the other way round?
anyway, both dropped/ decreased by almost 0.2
felt that i'm really a failure, not only in r***********s, but also academically (not to mention i've failed in communication skills as well)
anyone may feel that i'm all talk and no action, but..ok i admit.and that's another reason why i feel like a failure.
yes..all along i may be being negative about myself, but that's because my confidence has been depleted a long time ago. Its in deficit now.
and that's one of the reasons why i may be a hypocrite..tend to hide my feelings and show two diferent sides when with my friends and when alone, but i dun deny i try to cover up my own feelings by not smiling or being quiet sometimes...which led to even more misunderstandings which i shall not elaborate here............................
duno what to type le.
that's all for today then :)
(haz dun worry, i'll be ok.)
~really.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
ITP: Special Edition
Its been 2 weeks and 2 days since my ITP started!
whoa..been counting down the days..and guess which day i like most?
normally people would think its Friday.BUT.
.
They may be -- right this time.
Anyway my job scope, even though there's not much variety, is tough k.
Filing, data entry, checking names...
Sometimes it even required me to take up to five days to finish just ONE task.
I dun deny i MAY be a s.l.o.w workr, but...actually i m.
But i'm not slacking! [ > < ]
Anyway, today i spent the whole day (9 to 6.30pm) doing just one task. and all the things required for the task (eg.files, documents, staplers, copysafe pockets, and Scissors(really))covered around four tables.
yes.4.
it was really .. not really tiring, but really cold..til the point where you just can't think.
your brain kana freezed up to the point before it is certified "frozen".
very low rate of metabolism.
just find it hard to move( but nid to clarify, i'm NOT a lazy person.)
well
overall find that its..comfortable working in NIM.
The staff there are helpful, approachable,...nice...ya.
At least its a five-day work week.[Had frens workin from 8 to 5, for six days :( ]
Anyway we're supposed to be enjoying our holidays now lor ..
Results tomorrow!
hope to get more than 2.8 this time round.
dropped from 3.2 to 2.7 last time round.
(...Maybe i'll check at 12am later..?...)
just joking.
Signing off,
JL.
whoa..been counting down the days..and guess which day i like most?
normally people would think its Friday.BUT.
.
They may be -- right this time.
Anyway my job scope, even though there's not much variety, is tough k.
Filing, data entry, checking names...
Sometimes it even required me to take up to five days to finish just ONE task.
I dun deny i MAY be a s.l.o.w workr, but...actually i m.
But i'm not slacking! [ > < ]
Anyway, today i spent the whole day (9 to 6.30pm) doing just one task. and all the things required for the task (eg.files, documents, staplers, copysafe pockets, and Scissors(really))covered around four tables.
yes.4.
it was really .. not really tiring, but really cold..til the point where you just can't think.
your brain kana freezed up to the point before it is certified "frozen".
very low rate of metabolism.
just find it hard to move( but nid to clarify, i'm NOT a lazy person.)
well
overall find that its..comfortable working in NIM.
The staff there are helpful, approachable,...nice...ya.
At least its a five-day work week.[Had frens workin from 8 to 5, for six days :( ]
Anyway we're supposed to be enjoying our holidays now lor ..
Results tomorrow!
hope to get more than 2.8 this time round.
dropped from 3.2 to 2.7 last time round.
(...Maybe i'll check at 12am later..?...)
just joking.
Signing off,
JL.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Exams are finally Over!
but..i had gone thru three failures during these two weks of hell
1st:FEB
2nd:HRM
3rd:PSCM
My mind just blackout in the middle of the exam, leaving me with an empty mind......
emptiness in my mind.
Just hope i can pass all..dun even think of geting into Honours Roll or even getting at leat a B+ for all...
Just a few days ago, i managed to get four free tickets to the Singapore Flyer, and went there with my family.
I brought along my family's 2 mega-pixel (yup, onli 2 mega-pixel) camera and managed to get a few random shots while we were in the "cubicle" for one round.
Its at night, and there's only two mega pixels in the camera, and my photography skills're like ...dirt, so..well.
the pictures are in my Photobucket album, so if u're interested, u can go to http://www.photobucket.com and search for "jayzican" in the search engine,
or you can try this url: http://s260.photobucket.com/albums/ii37/Jayzican/
dunno whether it works though..
btw, my itp's in two days' time, and i'm working in Nangyang Institute of Management.
Wish me luck..haz..hope its not that difficult...
its from i tink 2 mar to 18 Apr, but y only one month? hope its longer.
Then after that shld be my third year.
Time flies huh?
but time really crawls when you're studying/ during your exam period, at least tt's what i feel.or it is really hat i feel? dunno.
Oh ya...might be taking up Basic swimming lessons during itp period..
hooooooooooope itp is five-day-week.
going off,
signing off.
JL.
but..i had gone thru three failures during these two weks of hell
1st:FEB
2nd:HRM
3rd:PSCM
My mind just blackout in the middle of the exam, leaving me with an empty mind......
emptiness in my mind.
Just hope i can pass all..dun even think of geting into Honours Roll or even getting at leat a B+ for all...
Just a few days ago, i managed to get four free tickets to the Singapore Flyer, and went there with my family.
I brought along my family's 2 mega-pixel (yup, onli 2 mega-pixel) camera and managed to get a few random shots while we were in the "cubicle" for one round.
Its at night, and there's only two mega pixels in the camera, and my photography skills're like ...dirt, so..well.
the pictures are in my Photobucket album, so if u're interested, u can go to http://www.photobucket.com and search for "jayzican" in the search engine,
or you can try this url: http://s260.photobucket.com/albums/ii37/Jayzican/
dunno whether it works though..
btw, my itp's in two days' time, and i'm working in Nangyang Institute of Management.
Wish me luck..haz..hope its not that difficult...
its from i tink 2 mar to 18 Apr, but y only one month? hope its longer.
Then after that shld be my third year.
Time flies huh?
but time really crawls when you're studying/ during your exam period, at least tt's what i feel.or it is really hat i feel? dunno.
Oh ya...might be taking up Basic swimming lessons during itp period..
hooooooooooope itp is five-day-week.
going off,
signing off.
JL.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Yup.
I know its time to let go.
We have our own destinies
We have different paths before us
We never know what the future might hold.
Its impossible between us.
This i know from the start.
Its just a one-sidedness on my part.
And we should move on.
Yup. Friends as ever.
It would only get better :)
Good luck for everything too!
let's put this behind. Live for the present. Plan for the future.
Signed off,
Jian Long
I know its time to let go.
We have our own destinies
We have different paths before us
We never know what the future might hold.
Its impossible between us.
This i know from the start.
Its just a one-sidedness on my part.
And we should move on.
Yup. Friends as ever.
It would only get better :)
Good luck for everything too!
let's put this behind. Live for the present. Plan for the future.
Signed off,
Jian Long
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Marketing Graduates' Gathering 2009!!( and etc..)
Today, we had our Marketing Graduates' Gathering at MLT 8, at around 5.30pm
The director , section head of Marketing department, as well as other very Important personel are present for the gathering.
As i had short-term memory, i'll do my best to remember what happens at this event:
firstly we had a talk on Communication Skills.
We had the honour of listening to Ms Elaine Heng for this talk.
Ms Elaine Heng is quite an educated person.This can be seen when her qualifications was being read to the audience. It took about 30 secs to finish listening to her qualifications.
And! She's Ms Singapore International World 2008...
After the talk , we had a short break following which the Director and Graduates arrived .
The director then gave a short speech
I did not know he actually has a little sense of humour..haz
Anyway then the leaturers took turns callingg out Grads to talk about their current situations, such as current occpation, as well as hat they think of SP.
After which we had another talk by Ms Elaine Heng on "Impress at first Sight"
oh ya here's her Image Consultancy Wabsite: http://www.elaineheng.com/main.htm
Then we had dinner! but not for me..haz..i only drank a hot tea, hot coffee and a fruitcake...:(
But its ok cos the talk more than made up for it :)
-------------------------------------------------------
FEB is on Monday..but i haven started yet.
After the talk, i had some inspiration
All along, i knew that taking the first step to communication is very hard, but after the first step, the subsequent steps would be lots easier..
Maybe its becos i've been thinking too much about others' feelings, thus i was quite reserved when communicating to person, especially face-to-face.
i also feel that i should express my real current feelings, thus the absence of SMILE in my face..
oh speaking of smile...i also learnt in the talk on communication skills that SMILE is very important in communication.
we should also prepare a 30s elevator speech before we introduce ourselves to people we had not met before.
Now i know that its actually not that hard to communicate with people and not let people think you are an emo loner or something..
Cos I'm not.But i do not mean ppl may feel this way.
It may just be a precautionary measure.
Yes, i shall change, but its for myself and for my own future, not for others.
All along, the problem's been with me, i'm causing all these misunderstandings from my classmates, and my friends..
I wanted to break free from being treated as ...i dunno...emo?loner?etc?
I had the sudden brainwave that i should implement the "open arms" approach when communicating with my classmates and friends.
If i can break through my fears and cowardly nature,and be less reserved, i'll be able to be just like the others, and expand my circle of friends.
All along, I've been thinking through my mind the various topics that i could initiate with my friends so as to avoid the embarrassing "silent" moment, and some inspiration have been taken from Hong Kong Drama series, BUT at the actual situation, i just could not open my mouth, and i shrinked back to my "normal" self.
People say, "Just be yourself".
The next question may be quite scary, but i sill have to ask, :
" what is the real me?"
If i do not even know the real me, how can i be myself?
am i thinking too much?
Communication is actualy quite a simple thing.
You just have to open your mouth!
But i duno why i tend to think a lot, buy no words came oout.
anyway, i learnt that we should always strive for dialogue, not monologue.
there are other things that i had thought of during the train ride home, but i forgot all about them.
But i knw that we only have one life=> we should make the most out of it!
Maximise the time given to us!Cherish everyone and every moment before they are gone!
I dun wanna die a bachelor, or even a man of few friends!
...
Above are the jumbled, messy thoughts which originated from thoughts i had during the train ride home.
But due to the shortage of brain memory space i had, i could only piece together these thoughts and typed them out before i forgot about them
these thoughts are already disappearing at light speed from my brain the moment i began to blog..
sry for the messy orientation of this post.
Change is a a necessity.
The problem's with me.
I brought this upon myself.
but its a learning process.
The turning point may start now.
Though it might need some years before i can improve for the better.
----------------------------------------------------
I've learnt to let go and forget ;
Hanging on won't get anywhere;
This may even be a release;
Or a releif;
What will be, will be;
I'll put that past behind me;
Forget the impossibe;
Focus on the feasible;
There's nothing to worry about;
Because there's nothing to start with.
Apologies for scaring anyone off.
its just a random post.
Signed off,
JL
The director , section head of Marketing department, as well as other very Important personel are present for the gathering.
As i had short-term memory, i'll do my best to remember what happens at this event:
firstly we had a talk on Communication Skills.
We had the honour of listening to Ms Elaine Heng for this talk.
Ms Elaine Heng is quite an educated person.This can be seen when her qualifications was being read to the audience. It took about 30 secs to finish listening to her qualifications.
And! She's Ms Singapore International World 2008...
After the talk , we had a short break following which the Director and Graduates arrived .
The director then gave a short speech
I did not know he actually has a little sense of humour..haz
Anyway then the leaturers took turns callingg out Grads to talk about their current situations, such as current occpation, as well as hat they think of SP.
After which we had another talk by Ms Elaine Heng on "Impress at first Sight"
oh ya here's her Image Consultancy Wabsite: http://www.elaineheng.com/main.htm
Then we had dinner! but not for me..haz..i only drank a hot tea, hot coffee and a fruitcake...:(
But its ok cos the talk more than made up for it :)
-------------------------------------------------------
FEB is on Monday..but i haven started yet.
After the talk, i had some inspiration
All along, i knew that taking the first step to communication is very hard, but after the first step, the subsequent steps would be lots easier..
Maybe its becos i've been thinking too much about others' feelings, thus i was quite reserved when communicating to person, especially face-to-face.
i also feel that i should express my real current feelings, thus the absence of SMILE in my face..
oh speaking of smile...i also learnt in the talk on communication skills that SMILE is very important in communication.
we should also prepare a 30s elevator speech before we introduce ourselves to people we had not met before.
Now i know that its actually not that hard to communicate with people and not let people think you are an emo loner or something..
Cos I'm not.But i do not mean ppl may feel this way.
It may just be a precautionary measure.
Yes, i shall change, but its for myself and for my own future, not for others.
All along, the problem's been with me, i'm causing all these misunderstandings from my classmates, and my friends..
I wanted to break free from being treated as ...i dunno...emo?loner?etc?
I had the sudden brainwave that i should implement the "open arms" approach when communicating with my classmates and friends.
If i can break through my fears and cowardly nature,and be less reserved, i'll be able to be just like the others, and expand my circle of friends.
All along, I've been thinking through my mind the various topics that i could initiate with my friends so as to avoid the embarrassing "silent" moment, and some inspiration have been taken from Hong Kong Drama series, BUT at the actual situation, i just could not open my mouth, and i shrinked back to my "normal" self.
People say, "Just be yourself".
The next question may be quite scary, but i sill have to ask, :
" what is the real me?"
If i do not even know the real me, how can i be myself?
am i thinking too much?
Communication is actualy quite a simple thing.
You just have to open your mouth!
But i duno why i tend to think a lot, buy no words came oout.
anyway, i learnt that we should always strive for dialogue, not monologue.
there are other things that i had thought of during the train ride home, but i forgot all about them.
But i knw that we only have one life=> we should make the most out of it!
Maximise the time given to us!Cherish everyone and every moment before they are gone!
I dun wanna die a bachelor, or even a man of few friends!
...
Above are the jumbled, messy thoughts which originated from thoughts i had during the train ride home.
But due to the shortage of brain memory space i had, i could only piece together these thoughts and typed them out before i forgot about them
these thoughts are already disappearing at light speed from my brain the moment i began to blog..
sry for the messy orientation of this post.
Change is a a necessity.
The problem's with me.
I brought this upon myself.
but its a learning process.
The turning point may start now.
Though it might need some years before i can improve for the better.
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I've learnt to let go and forget ;
Hanging on won't get anywhere;
This may even be a release;
Or a releif;
What will be, will be;
I'll put that past behind me;
Forget the impossibe;
Focus on the feasible;
There's nothing to worry about;
Because there's nothing to start with.
Apologies for scaring anyone off.
its just a random post.
Signed off,
JL
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
How did i lived through these three days of mortal hell; i have no idea.
Today got FEB presentation, HRM presentation, and com b report submission.
Yesterday and the day before yesterday(which are my weekends), stayed up til at least 12.30am to do my project and Blackboard stuff.
luckily today's presentation not so bad..:)
but today have to finish FM tutorial T2W5 and T2W6, and we also got Business Law project cuming up to be done on next Monday.
PLus Com B presentation on Thurs, i tink..
To sum up:
these few days very tired/busy/irriated/distressed/emo/etc.
but with the finishing of three things today,
and the starting of three more things, PLUS exams with a week to go, well..
Good Day To All.
Signing off,
JL.
Today got FEB presentation, HRM presentation, and com b report submission.
Yesterday and the day before yesterday(which are my weekends), stayed up til at least 12.30am to do my project and Blackboard stuff.
luckily today's presentation not so bad..:)
but today have to finish FM tutorial T2W5 and T2W6, and we also got Business Law project cuming up to be done on next Monday.
PLus Com B presentation on Thurs, i tink..
To sum up:
these few days very tired/busy/irriated/distressed/emo/etc.
but with the finishing of three things today,
and the starting of three more things, PLUS exams with a week to go, well..
Good Day To All.
Signing off,
JL.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Chinese new Year Wish/ Dream list
Hello!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Here's my list of dreams and wishes for 2009 and beyond~
Dreams/ Wishes for 2009 and Beyond:
(排名不分先后, includes both long- and short-term , as well as feasible and far-fetched dreams and wishes)
(Subject to changes and additions)
- Buy my own camera
- Find a job that I like, that has a fixed base salary
- Get 3.5 for my next GPA
- Continue to listen to Jay Chou's songs
- Learn to play the piano
- Learn swimming
- Get into the sniper devision in NS
- Improve my chess skills(for both Wei Qi and Chinese Chess)
- To be prepared and ready for a relationship within six years
- End of the economic crisis
- Sucessful, fast and effective results for measures taken by Governments to tackle the economic crisis.
And that's the end of today's post!
Wish all readers and their loved ones a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Here's my list of dreams and wishes for 2009 and beyond~
Dreams/ Wishes for 2009 and Beyond:
(排名不分先后, includes both long- and short-term , as well as feasible and far-fetched dreams and wishes)
(Subject to changes and additions)
- Buy my own camera
- Find a job that I like, that has a fixed base salary
- Get 3.5 for my next GPA
- Continue to listen to Jay Chou's songs
- Learn to play the piano
- Learn swimming
- Get into the sniper devision in NS
- Improve my chess skills(for both Wei Qi and Chinese Chess)
- To be prepared and ready for a relationship within six years
- End of the economic crisis
- Sucessful, fast and effective results for measures taken by Governments to tackle the economic crisis.
And that's the end of today's post!
Wish all readers and their loved ones a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year!!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Hello~
Its been quite a few days since i last blogged.
Tuesday's FM test was not so bad, except for some stupid careless mistakes, like i mistook "L" as "I", thus adding "LP" instead of "IP" in my calculaions..
Then came PSCM presentation, which is a total turn-off.
Veri hard to explain in the post, and also veri tired to explain, kept typing wrong words, and having to play with the "backspace" button to and fro.
anyway, jut finished my part on "Banner advertising" for my FEB project report.
:)
in the process of starting a new blog in collaoration with another friend of 5/6 years, not even in closed beta stage, but open beta estimated to be out in not around mid 2009 - 2010..
Recently found an onlinemanga of "Hikaru No Go".
It has i tink all episodes, to episode 100+..wow
I really hate Thursady cos we had four lectures and one tutorial, not counting my General elective Module..it stretches the whole day from 8 am to 5pm..what a long and sleepy day, with one whole day of aircon.
but tomorro lectures atarts at 10am!
yes:)...and ends at 5pm....:(
But the good news is e have four days of non-school days(Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues)
Oh ya, today evening, my father's sister's family, aka my small aunt's family, came to visit us at our house.
And i gt to know a little more about NS from my uncle.
and i gt to knw abou the importance of learning to swim before NS.
It's not a secret, but i dunno how to swim(so pathetic), i only learnt how to swim using a swimming board..and that was like 5 years ago..
heard from my uncle that if you dunno how to swim, it would be veri hard to cope after Poly.
look at the time!! (12 am 10+mins)
got to go sleep le.
Good bye:)
Signed,
JL
Its been quite a few days since i last blogged.
Tuesday's FM test was not so bad, except for some stupid careless mistakes, like i mistook "L" as "I", thus adding "LP" instead of "IP" in my calculaions..
Then came PSCM presentation, which is a total turn-off.
Veri hard to explain in the post, and also veri tired to explain, kept typing wrong words, and having to play with the "backspace" button to and fro.
anyway, jut finished my part on "Banner advertising" for my FEB project report.
:)
in the process of starting a new blog in collaoration with another friend of 5/6 years, not even in closed beta stage, but open beta estimated to be out in not around mid 2009 - 2010..
Recently found an onlinemanga of "Hikaru No Go".
It has i tink all episodes, to episode 100+..wow
I really hate Thursady cos we had four lectures and one tutorial, not counting my General elective Module..it stretches the whole day from 8 am to 5pm..what a long and sleepy day, with one whole day of aircon.
but tomorro lectures atarts at 10am!
yes:)...and ends at 5pm....:(
But the good news is e have four days of non-school days(Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues)
Oh ya, today evening, my father's sister's family, aka my small aunt's family, came to visit us at our house.
And i gt to know a little more about NS from my uncle.
and i gt to knw abou the importance of learning to swim before NS.
It's not a secret, but i dunno how to swim(so pathetic), i only learnt how to swim using a swimming board..and that was like 5 years ago..
heard from my uncle that if you dunno how to swim, it would be veri hard to cope after Poly.
look at the time!! (12 am 10+mins)
got to go sleep le.
Good bye:)
Signed,
JL
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Well~
Three full No-resting-at-all days for me..
Sat:
- Went to school at 9 for open house until 3-sumthing, reached Simei at 4-sumthing
-then wanted to go KM play lan , in the end, cannot go(scolded by mom)
-went home slept.
Sun:
One whole day doin the bloody Con B questionnaire..coming to this, it really gets me mad.
Its sumthing like this:
-We were finishing part one of our con b project, which is designing a questionaire.
-Had a not-so-easy time looking for respondents ( But thanks to some good friends found 12 in the end)
-Had a mighty difficult time spending three whole fr**king hours trying to collate all responses into one excel file, and the file i really spent a lot of effort doin it..
-Then comes the fr**king news that we were supposed to go out and use our teachers' questionnaires to ask 12 fr**king people to help us do our survey, and not only that, we were supposed to be following some st***d age quota or sumthing....so the bottom line is....all our responses are wasted!!!all time spent at collating the previous valuable responses are wasted!!!
In the end we had to ask and beg some strangers outside to help us do the surveys which are not ours in the first place....
and it was on this beautiful Suday that our group spent more than 6 hours in the sun in Bedok, and well, to be optimistic, i had one helpful respondent.
reached home at around 5 or 6..another whole day gone.wasted.finished.
Then comes Monday, which is today.
-Whole day at school.
-Reached home do PSCM project
-Then do the st***d collation-of-survey-findings thing, which, ironically, had to be done in an excel file.
-Then have to look for sum st***d advertising rates about an online directory...cannot find any at all except one at a , to me, wuru wuru website..
-I dun even know if its the corect info..
-When all these is finished, well~ its 12.37am!!congrats for another whole day gone!! finished!!
let us celebrate three whole days of unrest, stress and mayhem!!Cheers!
Signed off,
A very tired and neck-pained JL
Three full No-resting-at-all days for me..
Sat:
- Went to school at 9 for open house until 3-sumthing, reached Simei at 4-sumthing
-then wanted to go KM play lan , in the end, cannot go(scolded by mom)
-went home slept.
Sun:
One whole day doin the bloody Con B questionnaire..coming to this, it really gets me mad.
Its sumthing like this:
-We were finishing part one of our con b project, which is designing a questionaire.
-Had a not-so-easy time looking for respondents ( But thanks to some good friends found 12 in the end)
-Had a mighty difficult time spending three whole fr**king hours trying to collate all responses into one excel file, and the file i really spent a lot of effort doin it..
-Then comes the fr**king news that we were supposed to go out and use our teachers' questionnaires to ask 12 fr**king people to help us do our survey, and not only that, we were supposed to be following some st***d age quota or sumthing....so the bottom line is....all our responses are wasted!!!all time spent at collating the previous valuable responses are wasted!!!
In the end we had to ask and beg some strangers outside to help us do the surveys which are not ours in the first place....
and it was on this beautiful Suday that our group spent more than 6 hours in the sun in Bedok, and well, to be optimistic, i had one helpful respondent.
reached home at around 5 or 6..another whole day gone.wasted.finished.
Then comes Monday, which is today.
-Whole day at school.
-Reached home do PSCM project
-Then do the st***d collation-of-survey-findings thing, which, ironically, had to be done in an excel file.
-Then have to look for sum st***d advertising rates about an online directory...cannot find any at all except one at a , to me, wuru wuru website..
-I dun even know if its the corect info..
-When all these is finished, well~ its 12.37am!!congrats for another whole day gone!! finished!!
let us celebrate three whole days of unrest, stress and mayhem!!Cheers!
Signed off,
A very tired and neck-pained JL
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