Saw my results today.

Yes, i've deteriorated.
de-proved.

felt really lousy.
besides that, dunno what i should feel. should i feel angry? sad? disappointed? mad? depressed? moody? any other feelings? em..happy?

've been falling and falling for almost three sems continuously.

from 3.2 to 3 to 2.9.

nth to say.

thought my gpa had improved but in reality, it has indeed dropped.
mistook my sem gpa for my cumulative gpa, or is it the other way round?
anyway, both dropped/ decreased by almost 0.2

felt that i'm really a failure, not only in r***********s, but also academically (not to mention i've failed in communication skills as well)

anyone may feel that i'm all talk and no action, but..ok i admit.and that's another reason why i feel like a failure.

yes..all along i may be being negative about myself, but that's because my confidence has been depleted a long time ago. Its in deficit now.

and that's one of the reasons why i may be a hypocrite..tend to hide my feelings and show two diferent sides when with my friends and when alone, but i dun deny i try to cover up my own feelings by not smiling or being quiet sometimes...which led to even more misunderstandings which i shall not elaborate here............................

duno what to type le.

that's all for today then :)

(haz dun worry, i'll be ok.)
~really.