You must know that a person's personality or character will stay with him like his own shadow, throughout his life.

You cannot change it, nor can the person himself.

But if others cannot tolerate or come to terms with it, its their own problem.

People who knows me will know that i am not a loner, and though i do not speak much, its because i cannot interact well with others, not because i am an ARROGANT BASTERD.

No one says i am so, but some things you do not have to say it out to let people know how you feel about them

Yes, i am not able to interact well with other.

Yes, my actions make poeple feel that i am a loner.

Yes, i cannnot commit to interacting with people for long period of time ( and in my case 30 mins is quite long) unless the person initiates the talk .

But this does not mean i cannot do well in group work!!

If you bloody hell feel that my lack of interaction skills or communication skills will afect the group as a whole ( and i can say that whatever i was told to do (eg. research or parts of report), i will do my best to finish it within the time limit), then FINE!

worst come to worst i can accept any group that is willing to accept me as a group member

I dun need friends just because i have few.

I dun need those that look down on me.

I dun need those that cannot accept me as me.

I dun need people who use streotypes to look at others. (and i know i am doing the same thing in this post but i dun care)

I dun need friends just to increase my current number of friends.

I need only those that are worthy of my friendship.

I am not a loner by nature, i am forced by circumstances

i know no one forced me, and this is all my wrongdoing.

but i know the meaning of fairness and separating personal feuds with official work.

If you dun like me, say it out.

Dun use other excuses like you dun want more than 5 people in your group.

okokokokok i know this may seem very biasd and i am limiting this situation to my own thinking and not based on objectivity.

In the first place i should not have post this post and affect my readers, but i feel the need to just vent the pent-up feeligs within myself.

This may look as if its full of slander but i dun care.

I am not aiming at anyone, just the situation i am in now.

or am i lying to myself?

BTBM or not, this is the last semester.

Just get the hell over with it and survive NS.

Tekong or not it does not really matter

What matters is at least i gt a few friends who kows what the hell i am babbling about.

I'll show them i can do it even with this psychological problem of mine.

No one can be denied any fairness and right in achieving success just because they have any communication or interaction problems.

I am starting to wonder if SP DBA is the right choice for me, except the fact that i've made some good friends here.

Needless to say, this is the extreme side of me.

Poeple ask, why i am different when outside and at home?

I might or might not provide an answer in this blog, but its for another time.

but i know that whatever happens in SP, its just a tweeny weeny part of my life.

I have far more important matters to do, to achieve, to enjoy, than to stay here and suffer or cry just because people dun welcome me.

Even if SP dun welcome me, there are people outside who will accept me.

To an extreme, for me, SP is just a place to get a diploma and cca points and to make a few real friends.

tt's all.

besides this, it does not matter if the whole class doe not wish to interact with me, or in a sadder case, fear to.

People change but not their character or personality, but if they do change these two things, then it means they have achieved something great, provided they change for the better.

To conclude,

(1)
In life, you will experience failures more than success.
This is because there will never be success without failure.
The main thing is to accept the failure, learn from it and to apply what you have learnt.
In this way you will not have failed for nothing.

(2)
In life, one of the most important things to do, and also the thing that you must learn to do, is to

LET GO.

remember the phrase: "Live and let live"?

if we forever remember hatred and force ourselves to carry this hatred with us throughout our lives, isn't it more easy to just let go and live a more less stresful and peaceful life?

Only when we can put down truly all our hatred will there be peace in our mind and soul.

but sadly, its not the case in this world.

even i am not able to achieve these things

After writing this post,i feel a little better.

I dun care what will happen for BTBM, lets worry when the time comes.

for now, just do my MMIT and enjoy the holidays (if i can)

Stay Positive!!!
If you ever find youself lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of the people you love.

Their love will get you home :)

This morning, when i was throwing some hoops in the basketball court just opposite my HDB flat, i met Mr Kelvin Koh, my geography teacher in HSCS.

He was returing home from breakfast at the nearby coffee shop.


we chatted.

I do not remember everything but here are some excepts:

- Mr Koh asked me about my recent GPA.

- He said 3.0 is still ok cos its just a matter of 0.5 to go Uni.

- He said that some unis got exempted courses depending on the relevance of the particular course to that which you are taking currently in poly.

- If i wanted to take up any part-time courses during my NS vocation, it is cautioned that i choose those private intitutions that are recognised in Singapore.

- Safe bets would be national univerities of foreign countries such as ANU (Australia National University)

- I must have discipline in myself as its already tiring having to cope with NS.

- By taking part in part-time courses, after NS just need to finish remaining years eg. one or two years of uni then can obtain degree le, provided the institution that you took part-time courses in is recognisied in Singapore and by the particular university u want to finish your degree in.

- It is better to apply for admission to your chosen university as soon as possible after you graduated, as if you are admitted, the course fees that you need to pay will be based on the course fee for the particular year you applied for admission.

- eg. you applied for admission in 2010, and after NS in 2012, you gt admitted, you only need to pay the amount of course fees stated in 2010, not 2012.

- Advantage is the course fees will always be increasing year after year. It may be more expensive in 2012 compared to 2010, maybe by even a thousand dollars.

- so the earlier you apply, the lesser you need to pay.

- If your aplication failed in this year, you can always apply in next year.

- priority will be based on those who have the highest GPA, and if there are any vacanies left, then the second-highest will be considered.

Thats about all i can remember for our conversation (some info i might have remembered wrongly sry if tts the case ><)

Good luck!

MSTs officially ended today

back to BD and Dota and Sleep and TV.

Just completed my MMIT target market analysis

first need to draw tables and graphs based on the tabulazted spss results downloaded from BB

then "analyse" them (which in my case i just put the tables and graphs into words)

took more than three hours (from 8pm to 6-something to 8-something, then from 11pm to 2am)

yesterday's interview was ok i guess.

100% eye cotact, or should i say staring blankly in front?

The interviewer asked around 6 or 7 or 8 or dunno how many questions, but lucky i got prepare beforehand but i got nervious and answered a little too fast without thinking (no time to think)but the good thing is i managed to answer all quesions with only some pauses in between.and i tried not to say "er", 'em" and "ar" . lol.

the way i prepare is ,to others, scary or strange or wierd haz

i was reading my script and speaking out to no one in particular,then suddnely a person came to me ask me if i m alright cos i was, like , mumbling to myself...

a crazy guy talking to himself...but in reality i was reading from my script.

lol.

anyway now just need to do BTBM tutorial then can sleep le..

completed my part for my MMIT project le yeah!!

still got BD which is in... a mess??how many times have i said my BD is in a mess?? cos its has always been a mess...

CSB has notihng le for the time being...

hope i can get back my results and portfolio by next week.

the portfolio veri ex u know, $10 lol.

wat else do i have??

BTBM?? RC??

oh ya RC we doin the window display for a shop in Tampines Mall called "Uptown Kids" the people there veri good cos they actually got heir own designers le, but becos we need this client-based project for our marks so they let us do..thanks!

Today veru suay lor cos we took one whole bag of things there to show the supervisor our ideas, then it al finihsed i had to take this whole bag (think of santa clause red bag and u know how it looks like) cos of a stupid but not practical reason: i live the closest to Tampines mall.

i do not want to drag the whole thing home, so while my other groupmates were busy in the shop, i took out everytihing and rearrange all the small and big bags..

I found that i have a gift for organising things..;)

after what seems like forever, what is left is a small bag dnad a large bag and my laotop and my backpack...

still alot la but much better the=an the santa clause bag..

i scared if i cary the santa claue bag i might be mugged or surrounded by kids asking for presents.

lol

wth i haven do my tut yet

signing off
JL.

List of Suggested Questions for CSB Job Interview

Hi All

CSB job interview is tomorrow

I've compiled a list of questions that might or might not be asked during the interview.

These questions are taken from some youtube videos and my CSB notes.

Here are them:

1) Tell me about yourself

2) Why did you choose to go to the Polytechnic?

3) Did you participate in any special projects while in polytechnic?

4) What is your biggest weakness?

5) Why should we hire you?

6) Why do you want the job?

7) What would be your preferred salary for this position?

8) Where do you see yourself in five years’ time?

I've done my answers to these questions, hope i can remember at least half of them tomorrow

Good luck for your interviews tomorrow :)

<20/11/09>
Today went to Tampines Mall to do my Retail Communications Project.

We went straight there after school at round 5.15pm.

I feel sorry for my groupmates who mostly lived in the west.

One of them even lived in Boon Lay..

Our client is the shop "Uptown Kids"

we're supposed to help them decorate their window displays in the theme of Christmas.

We visited the shop, asked some questions then had an individual meeting within our group.

This dragged on until around 8.15pm...

when i reached home, it was already 9 pm i think.

This weekend, i had to do two main things :
- MMIT full company analysis
- BD Financial excel template

Did you realise that i have added two new blogs?

They are "J Secrets Within" and "NS Memory Lane"

I've been working for "J Secrets Within" for quite some time , but my "NS Memory Lane" will only be officially started after June 2010.

However, "J Secrets Within" will not be available for public view except for some close friends. So far, i had not sent out any invites as i feel that its not time yet to release this blog to anyone.

Pls look forward to it.

Check you email some time in the future and you might just get the chance to visit "J Secrets Within".

GPA 3.4, here i come.
I do not want to think about not getting this.

Signing off,
JL

What a surprise :)

Today Hong Ning, Celine and Qi Zhen actualy gave me a birthday cake to celebrate my birthday in advance.

Actually not really surpried as a few days ago when she smsed me and asked me if vegetarians do eat egg...i've guessed a bit about the cake,but not very sure about it


This is my first time eating my birthday cake outside my house...and with frens around me..

I admit i'm not able to show how i feel openly, and i do not know how to respond when i saw the cake..tts my weaknesss i guess
and i also admit i am not able to hide how i feel , maybe i had a bad day in school and cannot hide my feelings then become moody and most of the time even if nthing happend to me , i dun smile ofen, and suddenly you saw me and i said hi but i did not smile and looked emo to you, pls forgive me :)

and smiling...when i do smile, it would look as if i'm not..i dunno why... and i dun realy look good in photos..

oh and my birthday present ia a bid "book" with lots of pictures and meaningful sentences inside, some of them handwriten by my friends..heard they spent quite some time staying after sch to do it..

Even though i often see others celebrating their fren's birthdays in the Foodcourt or sumwhere else, and it might seem common, but inside me i feel special.

It'l always be in my heart.

i'm happy that even though we had been in diferent clases since year two, and had known each other only since year one, but the feling betwen us is like i had known them for more than three years.

I feel unrestrained when talking to them (compared to my own class), it feels good when its just the four of us (or five before one goes MIA, lol)

realy miss Year one and hope i can go back again and choose Retail or HRM...

em dunno what to write le...

I reeived my part of my motivation, strength and confidence from my friends and family.

Actually my mind is in a blank while typing this post (oops, sry!!) but i ...i do not know how to feel and express my self...communicaton has really been a problem for me since secondary school..i knw in my mind i have four special frens in school, but i can only say hi and bye when i meet them, or if there's realy some time to chat,i feel that i do not know what to say...i really hate myself on this.

They're some of the few friends i can realy interatct with in school.

I know friendship is in the heart, not through your actions, but i feel like i had not done anything to "proof" or to improve my friendship with them, while they had, once and again, provided me with the friendship i treasured.

Its good to know that you have someone to talk to even if others do not lke you.

No matter how badly i feel in class, i know there will always be 4 frens in my life.

and not forgeting some others outside too, but that will be another story...

Signing off,
JL.