What a surprise :)

Today Hong Ning, Celine and Qi Zhen actualy gave me a birthday cake to celebrate my birthday in advance.

Actually not really surpried as a few days ago when she smsed me and asked me if vegetarians do eat egg...i've guessed a bit about the cake,but not very sure about it


This is my first time eating my birthday cake outside my house...and with frens around me..

I admit i'm not able to show how i feel openly, and i do not know how to respond when i saw the cake..tts my weaknesss i guess
and i also admit i am not able to hide how i feel , maybe i had a bad day in school and cannot hide my feelings then become moody and most of the time even if nthing happend to me , i dun smile ofen, and suddenly you saw me and i said hi but i did not smile and looked emo to you, pls forgive me :)

and smiling...when i do smile, it would look as if i'm not..i dunno why... and i dun realy look good in photos..

oh and my birthday present ia a bid "book" with lots of pictures and meaningful sentences inside, some of them handwriten by my friends..heard they spent quite some time staying after sch to do it..

Even though i often see others celebrating their fren's birthdays in the Foodcourt or sumwhere else, and it might seem common, but inside me i feel special.

It'l always be in my heart.

i'm happy that even though we had been in diferent clases since year two, and had known each other only since year one, but the feling betwen us is like i had known them for more than three years.

I feel unrestrained when talking to them (compared to my own class), it feels good when its just the four of us (or five before one goes MIA, lol)

realy miss Year one and hope i can go back again and choose Retail or HRM...

em dunno what to write le...

I reeived my part of my motivation, strength and confidence from my friends and family.

Actually my mind is in a blank while typing this post (oops, sry!!) but i ...i do not know how to feel and express my self...communicaton has really been a problem for me since secondary school..i knw in my mind i have four special frens in school, but i can only say hi and bye when i meet them, or if there's realy some time to chat,i feel that i do not know what to say...i really hate myself on this.

They're some of the few friends i can realy interatct with in school.

I know friendship is in the heart, not through your actions, but i feel like i had not done anything to "proof" or to improve my friendship with them, while they had, once and again, provided me with the friendship i treasured.

Its good to know that you have someone to talk to even if others do not lke you.

No matter how badly i feel in class, i know there will always be 4 frens in my life.

and not forgeting some others outside too, but that will be another story...

Signing off,
JL.