Its been a while.

A lo of things happened recently.

How do i feel?

I felt like a stranger, even to my friends for two years.

Realised that life is forever changing, and fate just passes you by without warning.

Most of the time, i dun even have a part in it.I feel so idiotic, so stupid..(its not about any of the things in my previous posts)

My self-confidence's long gone by the time i reached secondary one.

For me, its either i have very good friends, or i have none at all.

I found my first good friends in primary school, but now we have lost touch since secaondary one, maybe even forever.

My next batch of good friends are found in secondary school.

Only two this time round.But it beats nothing, and the good thing is that we are still in touch.:)One of them even went to the same poly with me, or is it the other way round? haz.

Then in poly, i found another four good friends in year one. When we were in the same class then, we got along well with each other.

Until we went to year two, when things started to change, maybe a bit at first.
cos two of them went to HR, one went to Retail, and the other, i forgot where she went to. I lost touch with her since year two.

Year three. i remain regular contact with only my friend for almost six years, who is the one from seconday school.

Old frens are the best huh? Wrong.

Where have all the happines from primary school gone to?

people change, and its true. or maybe i'm too sensitive.

anyway, completed my BD presentation last Thursday. I'm in the Q and A team.and i answered one question, which is good :)

Actually, we were supposed to have a class outing at Vivocity, at the restaurant Marche or watever i dnno how to spell..

but i can't go cos:

- Its scheduled at 7.30pm, and i can't return late( if it starts at 8 and finishes at 10, i'll only reach home at 11.30pm or later..)and only on 6.30pm that i found out at home thru email that it changed to 6.30pm. ok i did not read my email often enough.

- Vivocity is too far away from Tampines (though one of my classmate live in pasir Ris and still going for it, we are two different people; maybe he can stay out as late 12am and take a cab home,but not for me)

- My relationshp with my clasmates as a whole could only be descrbed as "neutral" ; i found that i can't associate with them , or maybe i can't find similar topics to talk to them.thus to avoid any monents where i might be regarded as an extra, i decided not to go. I know i'm avoiding my problems, but ..i really duno, and dun care?( i'm stepping on dangerous waters here..this is not a good thing to say)ok so i can't find the right words to explain myself..

enough excuses.let's continue..


Just completed what i could do for the sectoral analysis for Hungary.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is on Channel five tomorrow!! gonna watch it :)

my laptop kept popping out a message saying " a network cable is unplugged" so irritating....lolol

actually i dunno what to write le.

thus ends my post!


Signed off,

JL

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