To whoever's reading this now, thanks for taking the time to read through my posts:)

Anyway, its one more day to 2009.

Merry belated Christmas and Happy 2009 :)

Many thing have happened in 2008..

but let's have a frsh start in 2009.

Not that i must put everything behind,
~but that i would need to have my life reorganised.

Best wishes, and hope that the next year..would be better.

Believe in destiny,
absolutely guaranteed.

Signing off,
JL, 2008

Finally
MSTs ended like so long ago...
i think i screwed up two papers but its ok(really?)

Three weeks of holidays now left two, or should i say , one?.
but there's also three projects waiting for me.

anyway, i'll put them aside first
just completed five survey questions for my Consumer behaviour project..
typed it out in Ms word and sent thru emal, cos we're spposed to have a meeting this thurs, but due to some unforseen circumstances, i could not go for it.

My friend's went to Fukuoka for a exchange trip which started last Saturday
So good lor, and its partly sponsored by the School.

i did nt go cos even with the sponsor, still did nt have enough money..
but
i tink i'l go for the next exchange trip if i can afford it :)

thus marks the end of this post.

oh ya..last sun my friends were talking about that if you failed you fm mst, you'll get a msge/sms that reads sumthing like this: ".......(blah).... You are eligible for the FM retest...."
its like....lol, but lucky i did not get this msge.

anyway, this afternoon my friend and i went to TM Glden vilage to watch " Ip Man" or "葉問".
its quite a nice show, the main actor being Donnie Yen.
So tt's all for today.

Signed,
JL
...........................................

Lying and telling the truth are about the same; they both hurt on circumstances.
Its either you get hurt or the other pary gets it.
but its better i get it than others :)

There's a test on Quality Management tomorrow morning at dunno wat time(8, i tink)
AND i haven even read anything yet.
even if i read now(its around 11.41pm currently), i'll surely forget almost everything tomorrow, and there's 15 whole pages of words to read.....!
ther's not even enough time to write notes, unless i typed them out and print them, but this would waste a lot of ink.....

plus there's another test on Fundamentals of electronic business at 4.30pm tomorrow..
mind is in a blank rite now, dunno what to write...
very fed-up...
tired...
i've been , like slping at 1/2 plus am every night, and waking up at 6/7 am the next morning...
tomorrow have to wake up at 5.30am
..................................

Its 1.39am.
just finish copying definitions and notes for Financial Management mst, which is today, or tomorrow(1/12/08)
very tired, haven even read the notes, though i did read through the textbook..
but the info in the textbook is totally different from how it was arranged in our notes...everything was messed up....dun even know how to read.

woke up at 6.30am today, then wrote notes until about 11am.
then it became really messy, cos i was supposed to meet my friends at 1.30pm to go to the iT expo thingy at expo.Yup, it was poor and lousy time management on my part, cos i could go out at 12, but i played a little Dota, and can't stop myself...in the end, i ended up bathing and eating lunch before i called my friend while another called me at the same time, so i was like using my house phone and handphone at the same time...
onli managed to go out at around 12.50pm...but luckily i'm not really late.
its like this: I live at Tampines; one of my friend live at Simei, while the other lives at Pasir Ris, so we were like:
1) meet my simei friend at simei mrt
2) Sit back to pasir Ris
3) wait for my pasir Ris friend at Pasir Ris platform.

at first we did not know where the IT expo thing was
we guessed it was at expo.
when we reached tanah Merah, the huge crowd there confirmed our guess.

at least there's still some space in the mrt to expo...

then went to the IT thing....talk crap here and there, went to John Little expo mega sale, but there's nth there, just a lot of snacks and what-have-you, like clothes, toys(for little children onli-we're expecting CD-roms),etc..

then my friend told us he won a psp in a lucky draw, with games included.
well, that's a piece of good news for the whople afternoon.
cant wait for tuesday so i can borrow it, if onli for a short while..

signing off,
JL

Eversince the first time i met you in Pasir Ris station.
If there's a reason, then its not real.
cos if you like someone because of a reason, then you do not truly like her.
and no; its not an infatuation
you do not need to be special; its not what tt counts.
i was really afraid this would happen, and it did..
...i'm sorry you had to take the trouble to post these to make me understand
i'd be a damn fool or total moron if i carry on daydreaming.
its time to put this down.
sorry this happened, and sorry if it impacted your life/studies in some way or another.
i'm grateful and relieved that we're still friends, that i did not scare you off..haz
yup, i admit i did not understand you enough, and it may be an impulse...but the feeling is true, though i may be selfish cos i did not put a thought on how you would feel, so pls accept my apology

Thanks for your well-wishes.
I get it, but you may be right, these things...you can only really understand it when you meet your "one"..

...haz, enough apologies, wish you luck in your studies.
and best of wishes in finding you "One".
I mean it. Good luck and yup, friends forever :)

Signing off,
J

Well.
i admit:
i'm really not good-looking at all, some sort of a loner, quiet most of the time, and some even think i'm..emo?
and i've no communication skills watsoever, plus i'm not good at any relationshipional things...
but if being total opposites is the real and only reason, i can change, and i'm changing, only that it would take time.
and i think i knw changing is not a solution and maybe not even the issue here...
Sometimes, I really feel like a multi-personality hypocrite, bt only in the way i present myself and express my feelings..but not my real feelings.
I just wan to know if its possible in the future..
if you think it will not be possible at all
its perfectly all right for us to be friends again, maybe good friends?
I'm really sorry for causing all thse mess/guilt/Awkwardness
, but i wan to know of the posibility only.nothing else.
I dun mind anything, i can accept, but i do not knw if others can accept me. that's why i know i need to change.but i do not knw when i could fully discard my present character/personalities.
so..off to depression! and three days of crying....
Just kidding.

Its ok.
If you change your mind, just call me.
Available 12/7.
Friends for life.

Signing off,
J.

I think i know, but i dun want to know.
I think i understand, but i dun want to understand.
And i dun even want to think about it.
I know its hopeless, and there's no results, but it look like i'm being childish this time round.
From the start, i knew it would end.
I'm just not ready for anything, nor suitable at all.
But at least let me know it straight.

There's no point holding on, but why am i so tenacous?
words just flow into my mind as i write;
It may be a totally lame misunderstanding, but i dun mind.

I'l forget everything about why/who/what/when//where/how i wrote this post the moment i press the "PUBLISH POST" button, but it'll stil stay in my heart, and no, i'm not avoidin responsibility.
and yes, maybe i'm writing this post cos i gt nth better to write or i'm just bored.
Dun worry; its has nth to do with anything/one in SP, but it also does not imply that someone/thing else must/surely had a part in it.
Imagination runs deep, but dun let it run wild.

Not giving up yet.
Crapping off,
J.

Wednesday...
another day that i like
only one hour lecture.(9am- 10am)

just completed my FEB presentation on Monday.
As usual i talk like a machine gun or a train.
My teacher once told me about this problem of mine before, but i just could not "delete" it.
Whenever i'm in a state of anxiousnes or anxiety, i would either stammer or talk like i'm rushing a train.
But its over, so let's not talk about it anyore.

Back to today.
After Consumer Behaviour leson,went to the printing station to bind my FM tes.Its too thick le, cannot ataple, always fall off, or its quite untidy, so just bind it.
Costs $1.40....

Then go lunch, do sum( and really just some) writing o notes for consumer behaviour, then play doata with friend( was killed 8 times, while my friend as "beyond Godlike..." lolz..it was fortunate tt we are playing against AI, not each other)

Then my friend go lesson while i go to the washroom.
After which i came back and as usual there was not a single plac with a usuable plug(some f the plugs in the foodcourt are "de-elecrified" which means if you plug your charger into these plugs, your laptop wil not receive any electricity, but luaky for me, i found some tables with usuable plugs at the far en of mthe foodcourt, whee you wil be facing the windows, not against it. Its quie uncomforatble (lack of privacy as everyone can see everything on your desktop, BUT my desktop is clean, really!)

Anyway, after like an hour, i tried moving back to other end of the foodcourt, where there might be more tables where your back is facing the windows and you would get more privacy, but to no avail...until i found a corner seat.
had no choice but to take it.

then i started reading thru some of my friends' blogs until i saw there is a an empty four-seater table. So i moved over and......so i shall stop crapping about my boring life..haz.

btw,
msts are nearing....in week 7 and 8, and this week is week 6.
until next post then.
Signed,
J

TGIF
We had our "Pre-ITP Seminar" on Wed.
It basically talks about some stuff related to our ITP (Industrial training Program, i think), which we'll be having in March to April 2009.
Its in MLT 9, at around 3pm.
What was the talk about?
i forgot, but i know that we were each given a logbook.
oh ya, there was a lecturer there talking about what to write in the logbook, what to expect for the ITP, etc etc etc, and also about things such as how to prevent sexual harassment at the workplac, and what to do if it happens(...)
Anyway, it went on for an hour, and that is before we were told that we had to move to another mlt for another one hour's talk.
we were like, ........, but attendence will taken, failing which one grade would be dropped from our total marks...
I forgot what this talk is about also, but i remember we had to pass some online tests in order to be able to do our ITP.
and i think it also touched more on what is in the logbook..

back to projects, which regrettably, i had not touched on for a while.
we were supposed to have a meeting thru msn, but the group members were either "appearing offline", or they were offline literally.
Dunno what to do.
Was told need to do report, but nobody there.Case dropped.

came across a website called http;//www.howthemoneyworks.com, or sumthing like tt.
its an interesting website where you can buy and sell shares, virtually.
Everything else is according to real-life data, except tt the money isn't real.
so you can buy and sell shares, earn profits or lose them all in a day.
its quite fun, but it depends on personal taste.
If you're bored, its a good way to "waste" away your time, i think.
and its free.
just sign up, and you can start trading now.

until next post then.

Its been a while since i last touched this blog.
Its been about three weeks since sch restarted with the introduction of sem three and all new modules like Business Law, Fundamentals of Electronic Businesses, Financial Management, Human Resource Management, and Principles of Supply Chain Management.
Already we had projects for PSCM, HRM and FEB, i think.
Yesterday was doin FEB project, and now also doin it.
Have to look for websites and write down information of the site such as site navigation, product features, customer assistance, customer services and company information.
What a whole lot of ----
just write what i can think of lor, cos the website will not giv u ans; u hav to think of them yourselves.
heard that Red alert 3 Premier edition has already hit town, but at a costly price(literally~)
so i wouldn't even dream of buying it...

or maybe i should say i can only dream of buying it.


haz...anyway today is friday, have been waiting for this day every day of every week week.
But not because today is halloween. (happy halloween btw~)
but because tomorrow is saturday and the day after that is sunday.

Then i shall end my post today with this fullstop .

Just found out that i'm really having serious short term memory span.
1) A friend was asking me bout the name of MY FM tutor for this sem, and i do not
knw what is her name, though we had FM tutorial yesterday.
2) I was asked what grade i had for my MR last sem; i dun remember, though i just
checked my results less than a month ago;
3) I was asked who my QA lecturer was last sem, and i do not knw his/her name.

Though this may imply that i could be an ignorant fool who couldn't be bothered about names and grades, but i knw i'm not, and i would rather refer to this as a problem regarding my short term memory span.
which means if i did not realy force myself to remember anything, like during revisions for exms, then there's a high chanc i might forget something and if asked suddenly about anything , i can only answer with a "i dunno" or "i'm not sure".

Am i really that useless?
What has been in my mind all along, filling up so much memory space?
I dun really mind about what my friend might think when i answered " i dunno/not sure" to almost all his/her questions, but it cannot go on like this..
It not just a mental block, but it can't be as bad as a permanent case of Amnesia or Alzheimer's disease, right?

But i dun think there's much to worry, as from what experts say, mild memory loss is quite normal, especially as we progres with time.

So...oh ya
signing off, bye.

Hello!
This few days, i've been "chasing" a Hong Kong Serial on Channel U ("学警雄心")
Tonight last episode..
And i've also been playing a MMORPG called Bounty Bay Online.
And doing house work like sweeping the floor and mopping the flooor.

I just applied for my GEMS (General Elective ModuleS) this morning.and surprising, it took only less than five mins!
Its quite a smooth ride, cos usually it would be quite lagging due to the huge number of students applying at the same time
Within a few steps, i suceeded in applying for " Quality Management".
Normally, when i applied for a Gem, i would look at what we need to do for it, such as any tests, quizes, or projects.
For Quality Management, it onli has tests, quizes and assignments.

We started applying for GEMS during our second semester of our 1st year.
We need to go for at least one of each of the three clusters of GEMS, namely Business and Management, Arts and Humanities, and Science and Technology.
I went for two of the clusters, Arts and Humanities and Science and Tech le, so left Biz and Management.
and Quality Management is under Biz and Management, so naturally i'll need to go for it.
Of course there are other GEMS under Biz and Management, but they are either clashing with my time-table, or i have not much interest in them.

I believe that exam results are a little like riding a roller coaster.
At first u may rise to the top, like when ur results are improving, and u might feel quite excited and anticipating, but when the roller coaster hits a standstill for maybe a split sec(before it falls), it seems like u have no progress at all, and u may feel like u may feel that this is ur standard of exam results, but when suddenly it falls,( which means ur results falls), u may feel a sudden lurch and the word "fear" comes into ur mind, and u really want to shout out loud. Sometimes the roller coaster falls at a very fast speed, and u dun even have the time to breathe nor do anything to stop it... but then after some time, it would slow down and come to a slow stop; no more falling, just rumbling on at a horizontal platform, and then it stops.
Some would climb out and vomit, while some would say " no more roller coaster rides for me"

In linking to results terms,
The first type of people may vomit after the ide, but after some time, they would feel better and may think that they are ready to brave this type of ride again.

the second type of people may feel that they do not like the ups and downs of their results, and just want to remain a norm, horizontal flow of their results, like sort of maintaining it at some level.

Of course , there are many other types of riders..
all these are just some thoughts that come to my mind as i write, though i dunno wat i'm actually writing about...

More posts coming soon.
Bye.

Well, today, we gt our results.
My GPA dropped by almost 0.5(yes, a whole 0.5) from 3.2 last sem to 2.7 for the first sem of 2008.

i only got 1A, 2Bs and, ...4 CS
This time round, i really dropped, like a roller coaster cruising down the tracks
....all the way down....
2.7!
not even a 3..
i was hopping to get 3.3, but nw i only get 2.7....
but well, its better than failing rite?
and yes, i should be grateful for what i get (No sarcasm really)
its just desserts for me.
but i promise my next goal would be to get at least 4Bs and 2As.
that's the least i can hope for.

Thus ends my post.

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!

The moon is quite round and bright today, but i heard its gonna be more round tomorrow.
Anyway, this morning went with my mom to watch "Money Not Enough 2"
I feel that this movie is equally funny and sad at the same time.
The director might be trying to input humour into sadness, and the other way round too.
But its quite a good movie overall.
Only one thing is not good(at all):
This movie costs a bomb, and exploded in our pockets, causing a major burn.
$10 each, and we're so smart to watch movie at a Sun.

Cos in my history of watching movie, i had never,ever watched movie on a Sun, let alone a Sat.
Sat i dunno if i have, but definitle not on a Sun.
...i initially though its $7.50, but was utterly shocked when i knw it is $10.
let this be a painful lesson for me...:(

This few days, i've been quite bored to the extent that i managed to rewatch finish all twenty episodes of " Under the canopy of love", and memorised the lyrics of a song, beside other things.

at least i did not waste my time away(or did i?)

so, this ends my post, gdnite.

Hi
these few days, i'm quite free cos i have not found a job yet, and its now exactly one month left til sch reopens..
anyway, because i'm a little bored, i shot some photos using my handphone..
the following are some of them , taken before the exams and after them.
some of these picts were taken from SP, while others are taken in Tampines and near Expo.
as these picts are taken directly from a handphone, pls forgive me if the quality are a bit....not good, haz.
But i hope that if anyone is feelng stressed or wat, u could be able to find some "inner peace" by looking at these picts, not that they would definitely help or what..(lol)
but before that, a little disclaimer: i'm just an amateur photographer, and i'm just taking these picts using a not-so-good hp..haz
anyway here are them..enjoy.
(note: you ar able to find thses picts in their original "versions" and other picts at http://s260.photobucket.com/albums/ii37/Jayzican/)











..thus ends my post.goodnite.

Hi

Yes, that's the end (for now) for my exams...
My aim for GPA is around... 3.3? Hope i'm not asking for too much..?
anyway, the exams are ok, i think...except for the ones which requires maths, like FMA (lost bout 40 marks on that)

MR was my last paper, lasted for two hours...seems like a long time....but overall, should be able to pass everything, and maybe get at least GPA of 3.0 (slim possibility, but its still a possibility)

so...Sat, which is today...went for a two-hour meeting in school for the upcoming monopoly challenge organised by SPSE. I'm in the tabulation unit, which means i'll be typing in scores for the individual players.

Finally uninstalled Cabal, given up hope on it..
and revived my interest on other games like..em...Age of Empires, Battlefield 2, and DOTA.

tomorrow goin to RSAF open house, then to Suntec for ....i forgot the name of the event, i think its called "Comex 08" or sumthing like that.

next week not so free, got stuff relating to the monopoly challenge on Mon and Tues.

so maybe will find a part time job after next week, dunno if anyone's hiring sumone who can only work for, like, four weeks??

.........................................................................................

Many things have happened since the start of the exams...or even before the exams.
when one finally ended, its just the start of sumthing else.
no, it will not end, but will last, though i know i'm not ready for it, yet, but i have to build a foundation fast before its too late.

Thus ends my post.

Signed,
Jz

Two hours of torture..

It was FMA day (Financial Management Accounting)..
cool---42 marks gone like that...or am i exaggerating?or do i have a high uncertainty avoidance?

well...
-Cash budget(12marks)
-Statement of changes in Equity( 6 marks)
- Production budget, DM budget, etcetc...
almost flunked me la!
...Its maths!!
and its from 6pm to 8pm!
the worst time ever....to have an exam.
and guess where i live?
You know it. And now you know why.
And in case you dun know, i live in a very far away land call Tampines.
so why did i choose SP in the first place???
because the name is good?
because it has a good reputation?
because it is in another far away land call Dover?
because my one of best friend also go there to study while another goes to a JC and i dun have enough points to go JC?
because............?
there are too many reasons (or am i just making up them as i type?)...
anyway, i reached home at round 10+ *pm*
but the good thing is tt i have a free rest period cos my next exam only starts on 22.8.08!
and rest assured there's no more "night exams" for these two modules.

Then comes QANL and MR..
the last two.


But they are on 22 and 29 Aug, quite far (or is it veri near?) from now.. :)
today is 19...still got three more days... one day for me to procastinate, and two days for me to feel veri stressed and freak out, and the last day also to rush thru my notes.

So thus ends my post for today...
Good luck for those who pass thru here, who are having exams too.
All the best! And have a nice day/ night.

Jz out.

Good evening

two cAs gone, bye to UCCD and SSM.

But I still got three exams, FMA, QANl and MR.
FMA can go fly kite le, and while i may have sum hopes on QANL, it may just be RIP for MR( and that's if everything goes smoothly)

Anyway, just finished reading thru ( and i realy mean only READing thru) four chapters of FMA, which took me close to four hours..

and i haven touched on the tutorials , yet.
but the important thing is i took the first step by fighting my procastination to read the lecture notes in the first place...

anyway, FMA's on 19.8.08, still got em...bout 4 more days...

I really do not like anything associated with maths, it really sucks...
and FMA is related to maths..
One of my worst night(and day)mare!

Wish me luck, hope i survive, and pls let me pass all.

Thus ends my pathetic post.

Jz out.

Good evening.

Its 09.08.08 today.
Happy National Day!
Yesterday, its 08.08.08, which some of my lecturers said is an auspicious date which means getting rich in Chinese, i tink...and its the opening day for the China Olympics.
anyway, we would not experience this date ever again, until the year 2108, but there's a slight possibility that some of us might be able to see it.:)

Finally wrote finish my notes for SSM, which i refer to my lecture notes. I dunno y, but i feel that writing notes from lecture notes is a better way to study( at least its not as boring as reading)
It about 10 pages long, and i took about two days to finish.
But i haven even read yet.and still gt UCCD.
Our next CA for SSM is on 13.08.08, and UCCD is on 12.08.08
Four more days, but actually only three days left.

Tomorrw need to read UCCD , for one whole day, just read, and hope i can read finish in one day.
Or else its GG for me...
And that's a great thing right?
N.O.

So..wish me luck, and for those who is in the same boat as me, good luck and all the best too.

Jz out.

Good evening ladies and gentlemen
welcome back to my next post

Acually i just finished doing the exercises on three QANL chaptrs, namely LP-Simplex Method, Inventory Management, and Project Management.
We will be having a lab test tomorow morning about this chapters. The only good thing about this is that the teacher will be giving us formulas, so we do not need to memorise the formulas, and the bad thing is we will be tested in the form of Excel and QM for Windows.

Also coming up tomorrow is the presentation for RWPS.
later still nid to write the speech.
but lucky that's about all for tomorrow, the rest of tomorow i dun even wan to know about..

Today i went to EA.com to check out Red Alert 3. It realy revived my desire to buy Red Alert 3, which might be out in OCT 08.
New fractions, new units, new graphics, new features, upgrades for the previous units, etc etc.
BUT.BUT.BUT
i'll have to see the prices first la, haz
if its >$30 (which has a 99.99% possibility), then maybe i'll not, and can't, buy it... ):
but if i can buy it rite, then i would have red alert 2 and 3! wat a wonderful feeling...

now i'm still playing the old (and antique) red alert 2: Yuri's revenge
for the friend who lent me this, pls dun feel offended cos i'm actually praising it as the word "antique" in this case means "object of an earlier period, valued for its beauty, workmanship, ...", not the other meaning, so just give me more time, thanks!
(though i've been holding on to it for like ages..)

Wednesday got PSYC test, but its a mcq test, so not so hard.
but i just read the whole ook la(actually just 9 chapters), just in case.

thus ends my shift.
Have a great day.

Jz out.

Welcome back to my next post.

Last Friday, i went to Suntec City Convention Hall level 6 and 4 to help out as a volunteer for the Singapore Garden Festival.

The hall was separated into two main parts; Landscape garden and Fantasy garden
I did not know why i went there, maybe just to acompany my friend..?
Anyway,i was "posted" to Landscape garden o1 , i tink, if i'm not wrong (symptoms of short memory span)
Basically, my job was like a stationary guide, which means explaining to those who visit the landscape garden (yes, inside the hall) about the concepts of the garden.
i onli took one shift, frm 9am to about 4pm.
Then i went to the volunteer longue to do my fma tutorial(...)
and at the same time, wait for my friend, who took both shifts until 6pm.
actually its not until 6pm, but he wanted to leave early for some impt reasons.
i may put some picts in if i remembers and after my friend send me the picts(*they are taken from his camera)

so...on to sum impt happenings...

Tues(last week)

i woke up in the morning and scared myself close to death.

i tok i nid to print out and hand up my rwps report on that very day.

i chionged thru it that morning and when i rushed to sch, into the tutoril room, the teacher tld me that we're actually supposed to hand in next week, which in this case is today,this week.

Mon(yesterday) gt ssm presentaton

and, ... about the SA report, its actually an anti-plagiarism report which helps to analyse our rwps report and produce some kind of plagiarism percentage.
another shock for me, i gt 64%.
64%!!!

then i realised i put in the questionnaire in the report i uploaded for analysing.
wat a not-so-clever mistake.
the questionnaire was a standard thing given to all those who do the pushcart case-study for the rwps report, and i go put it in my report, of course confirm-chop plagiarism onela...
becos it has alrady been designed by someone else.

now just received more info for my psyc ppt slides, nid go chiong again le.

see u next post then.

Jz out.

What a fantastic memory i have.
We were supposed to hand in our ssm report on 18 July 2008, and yesterday, i stilll thought the deadline is on 1 Aug 2008.
In the end, it was my other group members who had to compile the report, and i really felt very sry for that.

Today we gt 3 hours of break, and i actuallly wanted to do my QANL tutorial during the break, but...well..
i used up about two hours eating and playing com, and the last hour is spent checking thru the ssm report.
thus, after sch, stayed back to do qanl tutorial(dun wan to bring hme, cos at hme harder to do)
Interestingly, i took about two hours to finish seven questions( i tink not even seven cos i dunno hw to do one qn)
then i realized we gt ssm presentation next week, and fma ca next tues too (gg)
cool.
so...
i went hme.
we were lucky there are seats available on the mrt, or else we would have to stand all the looooong way to Simei(my friend n i).

It seems hard, but during these stressful times, even the minor things in life would keep you going and reaching for your goal, and dreams. I'll wait for that day to come, after making sure i am ready for it, and am in the neccessary conditions to be able to put my committment into it.

Thus ends my post.
Jz out.

These few days....
i just dun feel like doing anything at all...
SSM,UCCD,PSYC, RWPS.........etc etc etc etc
stressed and tired...
today, during uccd presentation, i was doing a self-evaluation of myself as i presented my slides.
our group members took turns presenting our own slides.
for my first turn, it seems ok
then i totally crumbled during my second turn to present the slides...
and to make it worse, Q and A chipped in to crush me flat. I just stood there like a statue as others asked me questions. Of course i think i know how i would fare( i hope having 50% would not be over expecting).

Then there is the ssm thing.just finished six whole files of just one part of the report. think too much info le.
And not to forget the rwps report
For the past four days, have been staying up until 12am to do all these projects.
later still got SSM lecture, and stil nid to go orchard after tt to do ssm project cos my group member gt dental apointment (u can't ask him to go orchard, then back to Dover again rite?)but before that i still gt GEMS!!!
anyway, after all these crap, tomorrow sch starts only at around 2, but morning still need to do rwps report (wth)
Of course, there are other things as well, which i shall not disclose here...

it all boils down to this: I can't give up now; once i'm committed, i'll not back down until i've achieved wat i wan and nid to, even it means breaking me down to skin and bones, BUT it does not mean that i can survive till then.The mental side of me is never giving up, but the physical side is collapsing.(My endurance level is about nil, but four years of NPCC at HSC kept it from bearing being extinct in me)

AND!
Next week gt 2 tests, and 2 weeks tt, another test
Too tired to look up the dates.
or maybe my procastination attitude is acting up again (i'll keep it in check, i promise)

So tht's the end.
Til next time (if my remaining strength and will permits)
Jz out.

A new post, a new day.

The msts are over, but in two week' time, the CA3s would be here.
Up to now, i'm certain that we ould be having CA3s for SSM and FMA.
The strange thing is that for all three of my previous msts, i gt about 70-sumthing for my marks, one of the worst in class(...)

Anyway, we have bout three projects goin on now( SSM, UCCD, and PSYC)
nt so bad, but just as worst.

Finally found a song which i had not heard of in a very long time since the last time i watched the anime in veoh.(Which is veri, veri long ago indeed)

Yestrday stayed at sch until 8-plus doin project.i was supposed to find sumthing about the taboos and blunders to avoid in the workplace and also the gift giving etiquette, when doing busines in Thailand, as par of UCCD project.

caused/persuaded my friend to stay back with me as well, though he's from a different class, AND a different course. cool. Thanks!

managed to do finish my project part in less than four hours( or in more than 2.5 hours)

then took mrt hme( Still in Dover then, on course back to Simei)

we were quite surprised to find empty seats in the mrt! Yes, Empty Seats. after 6pm but before 8.30pm.

reached hme at around 9.30pm, in time to watch the second-last episode of "When Rules Turn Lose" (though it was an "old" serial, as my sis put it.)

oh ya, not to mention my RWPS individual-cum-group project.
today we discussed a bit, then i had no choice but to deicde to begin a "major revamp-cum-redo" on what i had did so far.What the-

Changed my blog adress just yesterday. just felt like it, but of course not before thinking thru la.

i cant believe i'm actually blogging at sch. finished my classes about an hour and 18 mins ago, according to my laptop clock.

Maybe i won't wait for my friend, who had a Jap class frm 5.30pm to 7.3o pm.
cos i had to rush hme... to watch the last episode of "When Rules Turn Loose" and to do other things as well*not that i'm not a loyal friend, or selfish or wat, but its due to circumstances :)*

So, gotta go, til next post...

J out.

The mid-sem tests are finally over!
After three long days of going between Tampines and Dover, we now have four free days to ourselves(counting sat and sun).
Mon we had FMA(Financial management Accounting)
Tues, QANL(Quantitative Analysis)
Wed, MR(Marketing Research).
Overall, i feel that all three tests have a not so low chances of getting a passing grade.
Mostly i focused on FMA and MR.
FMA: i tink i used bout quite some time to write out notes from the lecture notes.but did not memorise.
QANL: Read only. Did not memorise.
MR: Write out notes, twice.Read.and .Memorise, but only when taking the mrt to Dover on the very same morning of MR test.cool.lucky gt one hour, or else...well...?anyway, its all over(the tests), and then its back to projects.I have PSYC, UCCD, and SSM waiting to pounce on me anytime, waiting, watching,...like a predator..
ok.
now for my goals(a.k.a impossible desires):
i hope to get a gpa of maybe ..3.3?
its just a wild hope, but maybe can.
so that's all for today.

"If there's a chance, grab it; if there's no chance, fight for it; if all else fails, never give up."
Til next time~

"It stopped on 20/5/2008, but was revived on 8/6/2008."
"Its not the end; it haven't even began"
well, its been a week since my holidays started.
We have a total of three weeks of holidays.
And the next two weeks are most likely dedicated to revision, or simply reading the notes again( to make it less complicated)
One whole week gone in a blink...
i wasted away 120 hours without revising anything.(not counting today)
but its okay, there's still two more weeks
we onli have three modules to study for(or is it too many?)
FMA, MR, and QANL....
starting from i think 23/6/08...so near, yet so far(or should it be the opposite?
anyway,
got my "MS Office Specialist" cert (MS Word) , specially delivered from overseas in a First Class mail (Although i bearly passed the test with my poor and humble skills)
yaya its really nth to be proud of, really.
actually i managed to do sumthing related to sch in the first week of holidays-- two tutorials.
that's all.
Been reading "Romance of the three kingdoms" (Chinese version) for the past three days.
I bought it for about $5 from the Popular sale in Expo Hall 6 i tink
and managed to read half the book in three days.
Not too boring , bout the contents, if you could imagine what happened in real time by just reading the lines and oines of paragraph and forming the pictures in your head , like watching a TV serial, onli its much cheaper than buying a DVD.
There's a new TV serial cuming up on 10/6/2008, 10pm channel U, called "When Rules Turn Loose"--i think i'll be catching it till the end.Quite a nice serial..
So that's it for today.
Until next post, then.

Good evening.

the last three days is quite rush
sat, sun, and monday, rush thru UCCD and started on SSM project
its like three whole mornings-til-evenings thing
its one of the times when i totally messed up a whole report, and a team mate had to "change a lot of things"...it crushed up my confidence and all (ok, some of) my hard work, so in the end i had to "squeeze" all my info into just four pages from the previous five.

today i almost forgot to do my tutorial-- i watched tv until 10pm, then realised gt tutorial.
theni chionged until finished it bout 30 mins later.

oh ya
about the SMART results, we'll have to wait till this friday to see them.
then i'll knw if i'm in.
But to say the truth,
i'll actually be relieved if i'm not in.
This's becos i've always know that i'm not so good at communication skills, and at most is good at onli one-to-one communications, and joining SMART in the first place is just to test out how well my communication skillls actually are(although i felt really fake during the interview), and also my friends psycho me into it(in a sense).

anyway
one more week til holidays
and three more projects to go
after holidays then Mid-sem-tests le

been slping late for the past four days, including today
really found out more of my weaknesses during these days too.

however..
Hakuna Matata~
All will be clear after a period of darkness.

Signing off,
Jay.

Welcome back to the evening news
This is Jay, your commentator for tonite.

ok.Recent news.
1)
Went for the Student Mentor smthing Academic Relationship Team (SMART) this afternoon.
Actually, its not really an interview, but more like sumthing like a group discusion, which i sux most.
So you could see me sitting there like a stone, among the other people( and is it a bad or good day? cos i was grouped into a group of all girls except one boy, other than me.)
Then we were "splitted" into two groups, and so i was the onli male in that group of four.
then we nid to chose a topic from among a list to disus about, one for each person.
then blahblahblahblah...
at last it was time to talk. to the whole group of eight.
the onli consoling thing was tat we were given onli bout 1 min to talk about our topic.
and i was the second speaker.so fast.
b4 tat i told myself: must have eyecontact.must speack clearly.must have eye contact.must speak clearly.must have.....
in the end, i achieved none. and the salt to this wound is tat i tink i spoke too fast.and i kept looking down at my "script".
and the leader of the group(sumone from SMART) kept asking me to speak up often.

so say goodbye to success into SMART.welcome kickout.

2)

started "revising" for my Microsoft Office Specialist Challenge last night.

the study guide was like, the great wall of China, onli its the great wall of Microsoft Word.

(i should start rereading a book called " MS word for Dummies")

actually i took the challenge not becos of the name, but becos of the 2 cca points upon application, and the very slim possibility of obtaining a MICROSOFT office specialist certificate(if i'm not wrongabout the name of the cert)

a cert!

wow, o.o , lol

anyway i dun think i would be able to finish reading the study guide before friday, where the test is to be held.

Butbutbut

a pass might be possible

must be positive!(by ignoring my limits)

Weather news

Thse few days, the weather is not quite good.

gloomy day today

it rained yesterday and yes-yesterday(or did it?)

sunshine/rain/wind to be expected in the next few days.

so that's all for today. Have a nice evening

See you next post, same time, same blog address, different day, different news.

Stayed tuned.

For more boring news.

Signed,

Jay

Commentator, JayNews.

Good evening .
Its been about 21 days(or about 504 hours)since my last encounter with this blog.
I've been taking my GEM, psychology and councelling, for about 4 weeks, but there's still nothing in my head except for the four temperaments, emm...
Melanchloric, Sanguine, Phlematic, and one more which i had clearly forgotten, and i don't even know if these are the correct spellings.
anyway, recently i signed up for the MOS challenge with one of my friends.
I took the word challenge because i was more familiar with it.
But i'm sooo poor that i had to share registration cost with my friend.
and i thought the door gift would be some exclusive thing, but it turned out to be a --- ...
file. But not a bad one. its something like a ring file, only thinner.
might have been sponsored by CNB.
but if i passed the challenge, which is something like a test where there's lots of tasks for us to do, i would be getting a cetificate endorsed by Microsoft itself.
IF i passed.
and i haven started practising yet.
The cca drive last week, was well, ...
The tennis cca, i found out from a friend that i need a tennis racket to join, so... no more.crossed it out.
Then the table tennis side, thay say onli need expert players, so... cross it out also.
For archery, they would provide the equipments, they welcome all,...
and its on a saturday and sunday.
imagine me goin to Dover from Tampines everyday.
cross that out too.
then, for SPG, we left a whole stack of brochures at the place where the other ccas brochures were for students to take, and 200 brochures were gone in a day.
wow
but no one called.
so we're still lack of about 40 more members.
the would-be president of SPG have quite a good job in completing the
monetary formula for SPG using excel. Quite a genius, maybe.
That's him . in the chatbox.
i mean his name, or his nickname.
so that's all for now.
see u next post then
different time, same place. same web address. real boring.

Good evening .
Welcome back to this blog.
1) Today marks the third day of school reopenssss.
Of our class of about 22 students( i think), only two(besides me) are from my previous class last year (sadly).
so that means there are a whole lot of new faces this year, and we'll be together as a class for two years..

2) I heard that Red Alert 3 (RA3) would be released late this year, probably this December.
So i'll be saving as much as $1 per day for five days every day, so that i would be able to buy this popular RTS game when it is released at the end of the year..
I remembered some time ago( or was it 1 or 2 years ago) when i bought Red Alert 2 from Cash Converter for just about less than $10 dollars, and now i haven even finish the Allied missions yet! Not to mention i did not even touch the Soviet mission at all.(Maybe the missions are just a bit too hard...?)
I'll just acumulate the unfinished missions.
But i'll be looking forward to RA3 this year.=)

3) SP's CCA Drive are coming soon, about maybe two weeks later..
I might consider joning the tennis club if all of four conditions are met:
-The club would provide free rackets during training sessions;
-The training sessions does not clash with my other ccas and classes;
-The club accepts noobs and amateurs.
Which is quite impossible, so i think i might not be joining this cca after all.
About SP Gardenology, i think we'll be discussing about the flyers and/or brochers we could be giving out during the CCA Drive in one of our meetinggs with five other members before the CCA Drive.We might also ask for approval from the respective departments to put up posters on notice boards around the school to recuit more members for this ccs.
We are currently still short of about a minimum of 44 members before we could start the cca.
it would be almost a miracle if we could confirm 50 members for the cca before the cca drive, but i feelthat we could achieve this.

That's all for today.
Goodbye and goodnight.goodevening.or goodmorning if you are reading this at the other side of the globe.

Let's think about these questions:
How much is your allowance per month?
How much could you save per month?
What is your ideal salary?
Which job would you like to take in the future?
After ORD/graduation from JC/Poly, would you rather:
1)Study further;
2)Work; or
3)Slack?
..................................................................................................
Saving and spending are linked together: If you don't spend, you naturally save; if you don't save, you naturally spend.
But saving is a habit.
Its just that , would you rather spend first then save, or save first then spend?
......................................................................................................
Someone once told me that:
- A person with just a ITE cert could earn as high as $10,000 per month;
And
-A person with a Diploma cert could earn about $15,000 per month.
They achieved these results because they put in the extra effort.
To succeed, you must not be afraid to make mistakes, make mistakes and make mistakes again, then learn from the mistakes, and you will be able to improve, and then you would succeed.
To excel in the workforce, you would need to have the courage to take the initiative, do what you think you need to do, and not be afraid of being scolded.
At first, you might always be scolded as you would tend to make many mistakes, but if you do not give up, and make the extra effort to improve yourself, you would be able to succeed one day.
Perserverence is the key to success.
This applies to everything else.
Courage, perserverence ,initiative and the extra effort are just some of the key elements to success.
I could safely say that the most of the above...
i have not even applied to my life, yet.
maybe next time!
maybe later
and later...
So... that's all!
Nothing more.(at least till the next post )
...

Its been such a long time since my last post..
The gardenology cca still onli gt less than 6 persons..sigh...we'll have to wait till after the next cca drive (maybe), or we can never get this cca started.
these few days, i've been thinking..
time really passes quickly, its been a month, and i had hardly done anything except eat, sleep, and play.
i had wasted way too much time on practically nothing, and now tt i realised it, its too late.
I could never take back the times i missed.
its non-refundable.
i just have to get on with life.
the amount of finance i have plays an important part in my more-serious decisions, like not going to Perth when i have the opportunity.
Thus, i promised myself: when i've earned enough money after i went to work, then i'll really make some changes to my boring and lifeless life, and start taking the initiative.(its too late by then, but i tink its not toooooo late)
for now, i'll just learn about some communicative skills first(from whatever friends i have)
the rest can wait.
now i'll just hope and wait.
two years down the road and everything would have changed.
well, not everything. at least some things won't.
today, i heard from my mom's friend that when you go to the US, if you are at least 16 yrs old, then you can take the wheels after passing the driving test.cool rite.
then i heard the driving test in US is much easier than that in S'pore.
also, you would be driving on the left, while in singapore, the driving wheel is on the right.
also, the speed limit in US is lesser than in Singapore.i heard its like 25mph in areas around schools, libraries, etc, if i'm nt wrong.
in addition, if you are at least 21 or above, then you can own a gun, but you need to register for it, and i heard tt your bullets need to be registerd too, i tink, so the authorities know whose bullets is it when they saw a body on the streets.
the exchange rate between singapore and the US is about 1:1.3 now.
so, its much cheaper to go to US now than in the past.
but, the air fare is still quite expensive.
i tink its about $800+ for 1 trip/ person.
the above news should be correct at the time of publish, if i remembered correctly.
anyway, i'm still keeping hopes alive, for one thing or another.
that's it then
cyalaterbyz.

Hi all
A new announcement for all SP students:
There is a great chance that a new CCA about the essence of garden would be coming out in April/May/June..
..if we could have at least 47 more members for this new cca.
well...the proposal is already out, ready to be submitted, but i'm afraid that the SAC would nt be opened til start of April, so this proposal for the new cca had nt been submitted , yet.
however, if we could have 47 more members, and if the proposal is approved , then this new cca would be hitting the school's compound by, maybe between April and May.
Interested parties(exclusively for SP students) please click on the link "Blog For Gardenology " on the left panel, next to this post, for more details.
OR
you could contact the new CCA's would-be president, William Swee at his hp no, 94507888.
Any enquires, please send them to williamswee611@hotmail.com.
Please allow for some time for us to respond to your enquires.
Thank you.

Hi
Today...its my last day of a two super-ultra tiring week of work, and finally, its ending!!!Yeah!!(though i nvr heard of anyone so happy bout nt being able to earn more money...except me..well...in this case)
But..
i had quite a horrific and scary experience this morning.
i actually had a very close encounter (very,very close) with a type of species....ants.
welll...its like this...
as the story goes( and quite a boring one)...
i was , as usual, waiting for the bus to my workplace this morning...and i HAPPEN to lean against a pole...and next moment...i felt something crawling up my .......
...
...
leg.
and something bit me.
it sent a chill down my spine...
then...
i found out that!
...
...
its an ant.
and not "an"
but many , many, many, ants!
and their size...
...
well...
a bit larger than normal ants.
i can see that there are many of them on the floor..
...
and quite a few "visited" me..and left some bites there...
but onli on my leg.
then i had to "kick " every one tt i can find off onto the floor.
making a small nuisance(did i spell correctly?) of myself
wat a awkward( did i spell correctly?) scene...as i try(dunno how to replace this with other words) to shake the ants off my leg.
well in the end i managed to keep clear of the ants and avoided an ant attack, and also nearly missed my bus.
That's all.
then ...for the whole of today morning...time seems to pass by very slow as i waited ( a little impatiently)for five pm to come( BUT i did come for the whole of the five-day-week for work for both this week and last week lor, so its should be ok to feel like this, i tink...)
Then....its dissmissal time!(and end of my two-week workload!)
no nid to wake up at 5.30am!
no nid to sleep early!
no nid to get so tired!(maybe)
then afterwards...
i went to Kembangan to play lan with a friend.
we played Age of Empires III: The Asian Dynasties (i tink tt's the name)
it was quite fun, and hilarious...and many near-sarcastic remarks were exchanged among us as we play.
But overall, we had a fun time playing the real-time strategy game, one of my favourite genres.
we played until about 9pm(tink so)..haz..totally forgot bout the time!(or maybe we knw the time, but is "mesmerised" by the game.)
Thus marks the end of Friday the 7th of March 2008.
Bye.

Hi
What a special day to begin a new post!
A four-years-once-occurrence (29/2), and i'm gonna write my next post.(probaly just as boring as the previous ones, BUT today is indeed a special day!)
ok...so..
i found a job(temporary one ) and having been working for one week ( EXcluding sat and sun. ) and its near Tampines 2.
Location: Classified
so..on this special day......
....i hav nth to write.
recently started "browsing " thru sum threads in PlayPark Forums(for fun)
wrote some lame replies to the threads also.
then...maybe i'll go arcading at Tampines tomorrow, or lan gaming( c if gt money first)
That's all!
What another boring post.
But for a special day, its worth it.

Hi
Another week has passed, and chinese new year had already ended...how fast
I heard that the exam results would be out by 28/2/08...hope everything's alrite!
...haven the courage to do sumthing, but i tink i'll do it next year (nothing illegal, haz)lol.
anyway,still got about 7 weeks before sch reopens and be goin to new class(cos second year would have started then)
until then...would be finding a job.found one, went for interview(actually onli left my number then), then had to wait till maybe next mon( or tomorrow) for the results(they'll call me, i tink)
till then, slacking( and wasting) away time..not a bad idea, but definitely not a gd one either.
heard from my friend a new CCA might be cuming up during the period between April and July,or August..could be interesting, haz.
These few days are full of un-interesting happenings, so i'll be blogging not-so-often, but rest assured my next blog would be cuming soon(but dunno how soon), though it maybe be as boring as the previous blogs, haz...ok..maybe not so boring.
That's that then
Bye.

The second day of the Lunar new Year!!

Today..

Took Bus no. 168 to Woodlands....such a long way(imagine Tampines to Woodlands...)

... anyways, went to Woodlands to visit my father's brother( and to take red packets also)

(Yesterday went to my mother's mother's (which is my Grandma's)house)

So,...

so...so..so...oh ya

after that, we took mrt from marsiling( i tink correct spelling) to Jurong East, ....then to Bouna Vista(i tink correct spelling, but dunno "Bouna "spell correct or not) to visit my father's friend.

When we arrived at Bouna Vista, we still had to walk a long,long,long............way before we reached our destination.

Then..then...then...ah...oh ya

so...

after that we took bus no. 7 to bedok before taking bus no.18 back home

...

wat a "bus"sy day...

anyway, I've a friend who had "loaded" some games to his website..so feel free to take a look and play the games there(they are quite fun,haz)

then...so...oh ya

Happy holidays!!!

Hi
Today is the last day of the year of the Pig,if i'm not wrong..then we would welcome the Mouse at 12am today..
A full 12 (or 11?)years had passed so quicky since the last time the Mouse had come..
I am quite happy( and relieved) that we had our final exams before the CNY, while my sis had her common test onli after CNY..what a wet blanket for her...
Blahblahblah...
Lucky we already had completed operation "clean -amd-tidy room" ,or else we would have to drag until today to finish this thing, which is definitely not fun at all.
Anyway, Happy "Day-before-The-Year-Of-The-Mouse" to everyone!
Good luck and well wishes...for the new year tomorrow and ahead.

Today...
I commenced operation " clean-and-tidy-room" with the help of my family members.
This operatiion started on precisely 9.45am and only ended on around 2.45 pm, a period of 5 long hours.
The whole operation was quite tedious.
But it was also quite successful.
Then maybe later i'll go Eastpoint for fun.
I tink i'll wait until next Mon before i might find a job..if there's a suitable one.
That's all then..
Bye.

HI
Today is the first day after my exams...
I'm quite surprised tt the visits to my blog jumped about ten times in less than a day...
...
This is a positive result...
...
but most of the tags are not quite as positive, haz
anw...i hav nth to do now..maybe wan go find work, but not so soon..
...
oh ya
I'll be "cleaning" my blog once in a while..haz(wat with all the "imposters" and stuff)
Sry for the inconvenience caused...
A clean tag, a new beginning....
thanks for vising my blog, and hope you readers could tag often too!
haz
Bye.

Hi!
well...apparently there 's some mistakes in the last post(about when Valentine's day is on)...
...haz
...so this post is made to notify readers about the mistakes..
well...the mistakes are already taken care of (by editing the last post)
so...happy holidays to SP year ones!

Well....today...as expected.
POA exam..6 questions...i dunno 3 of 'em, and thus 50 marks gone(maybe?)
...
For POA, i need to get around 40-something marks to pass(i tink)...so...its not so bad, or is it?
Maybe i can pass overall (i onli studied one day before the exam as i kind of "sacrificed" POA for my other modules, like Econs, Stats and FOM)
...
Anyway, Maths is one of my "Top notch enemies" which never seem to "fail" me, literally...
oh ya....i ask around and around(ok..i only ask one friend) before i know Valentine's Day is around 14 Feb 2008, if its not wrong...
Happy Early Valentine's Day!
...
and the FINAL exams are FINAL-ly over...
...
and we had two months of slack-lidays (another term for holidays) after that..
...
ok then...that's all for today...
...
Bye.

This is my second post for today.
Well, there are four exams in two weeks, and i know i'm gonna flunk away POA and FOM (I hope i only fail the exams, not overall grades)
and
tomorrow is the last paper..POA
then after that...holidays..i tink
I'm just too lazy to revise..
haz...forgot to intro me..
JL;
SP;
Year 1-going-to-2;
tat's all.;
no,wait;
and I'm in Mindsports too...goin to become senior , though have little or no skills at all
maybe i'll become a "fake" senior or something like that...
that's all then.
(wat a boring blog...)
haz
Bye.

Hi