Eversince the first time i met you in Pasir Ris station.
If there's a reason, then its not real.
cos if you like someone because of a reason, then you do not truly like her.
and no; its not an infatuation
you do not need to be special; its not what tt counts.
i was really afraid this would happen, and it did..
...i'm sorry you had to take the trouble to post these to make me understand
i'd be a damn fool or total moron if i carry on daydreaming.
its time to put this down.
sorry this happened, and sorry if it impacted your life/studies in some way or another.
i'm grateful and relieved that we're still friends, that i did not scare you off..haz
yup, i admit i did not understand you enough, and it may be an impulse...but the feeling is true, though i may be selfish cos i did not put a thought on how you would feel, so pls accept my apology

Thanks for your well-wishes.
I get it, but you may be right, these things...you can only really understand it when you meet your "one"..

...haz, enough apologies, wish you luck in your studies.
and best of wishes in finding you "One".
I mean it. Good luck and yup, friends forever :)

Signing off,
J

Well.
i admit:
i'm really not good-looking at all, some sort of a loner, quiet most of the time, and some even think i'm..emo?
and i've no communication skills watsoever, plus i'm not good at any relationshipional things...
but if being total opposites is the real and only reason, i can change, and i'm changing, only that it would take time.
and i think i knw changing is not a solution and maybe not even the issue here...
Sometimes, I really feel like a multi-personality hypocrite, bt only in the way i present myself and express my feelings..but not my real feelings.
I just wan to know if its possible in the future..
if you think it will not be possible at all
its perfectly all right for us to be friends again, maybe good friends?
I'm really sorry for causing all thse mess/guilt/Awkwardness
, but i wan to know of the posibility only.nothing else.
I dun mind anything, i can accept, but i do not knw if others can accept me. that's why i know i need to change.but i do not knw when i could fully discard my present character/personalities.
so..off to depression! and three days of crying....
Just kidding.

Its ok.
If you change your mind, just call me.
Available 12/7.
Friends for life.

Signing off,
J.

I think i know, but i dun want to know.
I think i understand, but i dun want to understand.
And i dun even want to think about it.
I know its hopeless, and there's no results, but it look like i'm being childish this time round.
From the start, i knew it would end.
I'm just not ready for anything, nor suitable at all.
But at least let me know it straight.

There's no point holding on, but why am i so tenacous?
words just flow into my mind as i write;
It may be a totally lame misunderstanding, but i dun mind.

I'l forget everything about why/who/what/when//where/how i wrote this post the moment i press the "PUBLISH POST" button, but it'll stil stay in my heart, and no, i'm not avoidin responsibility.
and yes, maybe i'm writing this post cos i gt nth better to write or i'm just bored.
Dun worry; its has nth to do with anything/one in SP, but it also does not imply that someone/thing else must/surely had a part in it.
Imagination runs deep, but dun let it run wild.

Not giving up yet.
Crapping off,
J.

Wednesday...
another day that i like
only one hour lecture.(9am- 10am)

just completed my FEB presentation on Monday.
As usual i talk like a machine gun or a train.
My teacher once told me about this problem of mine before, but i just could not "delete" it.
Whenever i'm in a state of anxiousnes or anxiety, i would either stammer or talk like i'm rushing a train.
But its over, so let's not talk about it anyore.

Back to today.
After Consumer Behaviour leson,went to the printing station to bind my FM tes.Its too thick le, cannot ataple, always fall off, or its quite untidy, so just bind it.
Costs $1.40....

Then go lunch, do sum( and really just some) writing o notes for consumer behaviour, then play doata with friend( was killed 8 times, while my friend as "beyond Godlike..." lolz..it was fortunate tt we are playing against AI, not each other)

Then my friend go lesson while i go to the washroom.
After which i came back and as usual there was not a single plac with a usuable plug(some f the plugs in the foodcourt are "de-elecrified" which means if you plug your charger into these plugs, your laptop wil not receive any electricity, but luaky for me, i found some tables with usuable plugs at the far en of mthe foodcourt, whee you wil be facing the windows, not against it. Its quie uncomforatble (lack of privacy as everyone can see everything on your desktop, BUT my desktop is clean, really!)

Anyway, after like an hour, i tried moving back to other end of the foodcourt, where there might be more tables where your back is facing the windows and you would get more privacy, but to no avail...until i found a corner seat.
had no choice but to take it.

then i started reading thru some of my friends' blogs until i saw there is a an empty four-seater table. So i moved over and......so i shall stop crapping about my boring life..haz.

btw,
msts are nearing....in week 7 and 8, and this week is week 6.
until next post then.
Signed,
J

TGIF
We had our "Pre-ITP Seminar" on Wed.
It basically talks about some stuff related to our ITP (Industrial training Program, i think), which we'll be having in March to April 2009.
Its in MLT 9, at around 3pm.
What was the talk about?
i forgot, but i know that we were each given a logbook.
oh ya, there was a lecturer there talking about what to write in the logbook, what to expect for the ITP, etc etc etc, and also about things such as how to prevent sexual harassment at the workplac, and what to do if it happens(...)
Anyway, it went on for an hour, and that is before we were told that we had to move to another mlt for another one hour's talk.
we were like, ........, but attendence will taken, failing which one grade would be dropped from our total marks...
I forgot what this talk is about also, but i remember we had to pass some online tests in order to be able to do our ITP.
and i think it also touched more on what is in the logbook..

back to projects, which regrettably, i had not touched on for a while.
we were supposed to have a meeting thru msn, but the group members were either "appearing offline", or they were offline literally.
Dunno what to do.
Was told need to do report, but nobody there.Case dropped.

came across a website called http;//www.howthemoneyworks.com, or sumthing like tt.
its an interesting website where you can buy and sell shares, virtually.
Everything else is according to real-life data, except tt the money isn't real.
so you can buy and sell shares, earn profits or lose them all in a day.
its quite fun, but it depends on personal taste.
If you're bored, its a good way to "waste" away your time, i think.
and its free.
just sign up, and you can start trading now.

until next post then.