Two more days til enlistment.

This blog will be officially temporarily closed for the next two years, starting from either tomorrow or this thursday.

Please refer to http://www.mylifeinns.blogspot.com/ for future posts.

Given the opportunity and time, i'll be posting in this new blog,some of what i will be experiencing in National Service, of course, Excluding any confidential or private issues.

Its been more than two years since i've started this blog, and i remembered my first post was on the 30th of January.

a lot have happened during this two years, and some of them are being "saved" in this blog... writing down events in my life are such a benefit to me.

left one more day...haven finish Slam Dunk, may need to use the whole day tml to watch finish the anime..such a long anime...

received a nike voucher due to particiption in SP Poly 50... just in time cos i need a duffel bag so as to put all my ns things into it... went to suntec with William today , to the "Nike By B.I.R.D" store to buy one... in the end only need to top up round $20.

then went to the book convention in exhibition hall 4. as its a weekday, not many people. but the books there are mostly chinese books.

then went to another exhibition in the ground floor in dunno which tower... and saw many interesting books there, but can only buy one...in the end chose.....Iron man. (...)

saw "Resident Evil: Extinction", and Brisingr was sold at only $8!! My fren was so... cos he bought the book at $30+ when it was first released...

see you soon, two years from now or you could visit my new blog at http://www.mylifeinns.blogspot.com/

signing out,
JL
(dun miss me ;P)

Countdown:
10 days to enlistment.

today, after work, went to nearby shop to buy shampoo. Bought Clear at $2

prepared most of the things needed to bring to tekong, eg. medical necessities, hangers, alarm clock, AA bateries, etc.

Just finished Nodame Cantabile episode 22, one more episode to end.

tomorrow start work at 7am...

wtached Underdog just now at 7.30pm , channel 5...not a good movie,.. same old plot.. but the Beagle is cute.

some grad. photos hav been uploaded on FB..

had specially home-made pizza just now too...delicious..mushroom, green chilli, red chilli.. and other ingredients..

yesterday play RA 3 with another friend against two easy AI..felt more and more comfortable using Allies..

recently started to learn the most basic information about playing the piano, eg. how to read notes...basic music theory...now still on grade one...

but knw how to read the "Number" notes( dunno what is the actual name) like for eg. "1" equals "C" , "1 with a dot under it" equals low "c", etc etc.

Might like/ hope to experience the "Individual Marksmanship Training" in NS soon..

BMT standard is like the sky to me - - too high to achieve..i cant even do one chin-up..

ok, gt sleep soon..waking up at 5.50am tml...

Signing off,
JL

I'm officially a graudate of Singapore polytechnic from tomorrow onwards:)

Graduation ceremony starts at 2pm..

but i will need to wear dark coloured shoes ...and the only pair i have is a pair of worn-out, old and.. tattered(?) shoes.. or shld i wear my NPCC shoes/ boots..lol

anyway, i wil have to finish watching all episodes of Nodame Cantabile by 26 May, cos i'm enlistng soon...been neglecting the anime for a long time..

from 3 June onwards, i'll be posting on a new blog, "Life in NS", the link of which is on the left, below the chatbox and my pet, Jazz.


though i doubt i will have any free time or opportunity to blog..

so, til next time.

Signing off,
JL

** COUNTDOWN **
-> 6 days until Graduation
-> 20 days until NS enlistment

work at Yes has been normal.. the atmosphere there is not stresfull..
people there mostly helpful and OK..

received my pay on 6th May, but dunno why, can't find anything to buy at all..dunno hoiw to spend it..dun feel like spedning it..
.. and started to wonder why do i need money at tis time?
what shld i do with my money?
what shld i spend it on?

just thought of something to buy- - maybe a duffle bag..

recently started to re-play red alert 2: Yuri's revenge..almost forgot how to play, how to build units, control them, etc..got crushed by an easy enemy...

but soon found back my bearings...

quite fun anyway..

tinking of creating a few maps using the map editor..


animes...
still stuck on Nodame Cantabile...can't find the commitment to finish it, esp. it only have round 24 episodes i tink..hav to finish it quickly before enlistment..

received rejection letterfrom a certain uni a few days back...well shld hav known better, with these kind of results..its common sense..

maybe i would hav to resort to SMU / NU /SIm or PSB academy after NS, depends..


was following 學警狙擊 on TV. every night , 9pm...finishing soon..last few episodes..

i do not trust horoscopes completely, but am interested in them, thus i found myself turing to the horoscope page in My Paper every time i got hold of it, and reading what's in my horoscope..

graduating in six days' time..how do i feel?

"well, i felt that, time flies.. and its been thre years in the blink of an eye.
a lot of things have hapened during these three years, but i found that my memories in Singapore Polytechnic are not the most memorable one, per se.."

My current work?

"..Working at Yes brings back some memories of the time i worked as a .. for ego , i think,, when we had to go all over singapore to .. arrange the goods in NTUC, Fariprice, Cold storage, etc.. , and the people i met there, the people i worked with, as well as some ..incidents, i shld say, or .. "interactions" with my then supervisor(s), haz...its quite fun, but really tiring...but .. the .. experience was.. good?.. haz.."

"however, working at Yes shld be , in my own view, more...flexible and less stressful, the amosphee there is quite relaxed, half-day,.. people there also kind and helpful.."

NS?
" I feel.. both nervous and excited while awaiting enlistment. Nervous because this is (of course) my first time going to NS... excited because i finally have a real part to play in protecting my country, or learning to protect it.."

"I do hope that all goes well in Tekong..i can meet some friends there whom i can "connect" with.. learn some new things.. esp. maybe shoting skills? .. just a silly dream.. hope that i might bea marksman or sometihng like tt..lol haz...know it'll never happen.."

til next time then
sin=gning out,
JL

" I'm the type who needs clear indication"

Went to GV@Tampines today with a friend to watch Ip Man 2.

forgot that the hall we're goin to has only one entrance at the right. and bump my head into a wall on my left.

of course it hurts.

anyway, the movie is good. Donnie Yen and his signature smile in the movie, both in the first and second instalment... and this time, with Sammo Hung as the martial arts director and also as one of the main characters, its a good pair-up between the two martial arts actors.

then went to Sewensons to eat banana split. my friend had a coupn which entitles us to a free sundae among six choices. we ordered a banana split and a fried mushroom or sumthing like tt. the tartar sauce was as delicious as the ice cream.

its been a tiring day.

enlisting on first week of next month.

signing off,
JL

Today went to Tampines GV to watch "How to train your dragon" in 3D
Its quite nice.
Graphics, animations, story plot..interesting.

Its close to 1 hr 45 mins..and the price like droped from $13 to $11, or that i did not know it had dropped.

and it talks about a child of a Viking who met a "Night-Fury" Dragon whom he shot down using his gadget during a night raid by the dragons. He befriends the dragon and uncovered a secret between the dragons and the Vikings.. to know more, watch the movie.

In my own view, its quite nice,comprising of fantasy, family and love.

btw went to white sands to drink double chocolate frappe..quite expensive though..and went to Challenger. saw that "Medal of Honour: Airbourne" dropped to a mere $19.90!

its like a very huge difference of price from when i last saw it eons ago.

battlefield 2 complete collection also droped from $59+ to a mere $29.90.....

and also Need for Speed : Prostreet and need for speed: Undercover....

and there are also other types of packages where they lump three of four games together and sell at a special price..its like they wanted to clear away all past stocks...to make way for new ones

tomorow new show on channel U 10pm..though its quite a very old one..but shld be nice to watch, and i tink its on Todou too.

til next time then

signing off,
JL

Got back my results a few weeks back.

Cumulative GPA: 3.004, just reached the 3-point mark..
but forgot if i need to submit my latest results to NUS and NtU, and how...its been ages since i submitted my application..

19/5/10--> Graduation

found a job at YES Supermart , very near my house, walking distance.

actually went for some job interviews and called up some guys before this, but to conclude, its not successful at all..thus, found this job while buying tomato ketchup a few weeks ago..had been at work since one week ago. at least, its near my house, and the atmosphere there is not really stressful.

Its part-time (dunno when i will be enlisted)

finally able to watch 学警狙击 on channel 55, 9pm.

i've watched the previous two "instalments" (學警雄心 and 學警出更)and have been waiting for this ...

thinking back, i've learnt that..all these while, what happened to me or around me, as well as how i've been dealing wth things around me, has let me realised that..i've been very naive to think of trying to start a relationship and thinking that i could be a good partner, but now i know..i do not even have the basic requisites to be a good partner..

its still too early.

let nature take its course then,

as for me, i always knew it has ended even before it started / could even start

signing off,
JL

I really feel that i am not at all photogenic( aka do not look good at all in photos)..that's why i rarely put any photo with my face in it into my blog.. but i'll try to put some nice ones haz...

thus, most of my stored phots are those of other people / scenery / things, except myself...so quite hard to fins any photos of myself..

i'll be adding in more photos in parts in different entries of my blog :)

well here goes:

(note: some random photos that i could find in my gallery)

Here's some picture i took of the Central Busines District..

(Note: these pictures may be blur due to my not-so-good skills)

These are some of the pictures taken during my younger days..ahem..i not saying i veri old now. but just looking back the carefree days...with my friends..playing catching, hide and seek, .. running around... its definitely much more happier than secondary and poly life. dun't you agree?

(Note: i'm feeling kinda lazy to scan in these picts, so i just took a photo of them)

Its been some time since i last posted..

Poly life is officially over! except maybe haven get my cert yet..

As always, hope to get above 3.1...:)

3.192->3.243->2.717->2.646->3.278-> ?

Now looking for job, or trying to..

Last thurs actually went for an interview, the person say will contact me on Mon, then Mon came, and i was told they are looking thru the applicants, and told me to wait until Friday, and now no news yet..

my friend offered me a job, but when the person heard i dunno when i would be enlisted, she said will call again, and disappeared.

so now...still looking..

anyway, a friend asked me to put pictures on my blog, and i forgot all about it..sry..i'll put pictures on asap.

Watched Nodame Cantabile in GV Tampines last week, it was really good, and worth watching again.. if i have the money and the company..now waiting for Part 2.

the plot was nice, the orchestral performance was good, the characters are funny and realistic at the same time...etc etc..


watched "Ten promises to my dog" this morning..

really nice too.

sometimes, i really hope to experience love too, but i know, its not the time yet..i hope to meet my other half soon :)

moving on,
i also hope to get a job soon..its been a week...
i heard that results mght be out on 24th March if i'm not wrong..

hope to grad soon.

hope to go NUS

tonite just went for my swimming lesson, gained more insights into breaststroke and free-style, but still fail at both.

smsed to CMPB, and they say my enlistment date is not finalised yet..

ok, time to end this entry, i'll upload some picts asap...

Signing off,
JL

Today went to East Coast Park and had pinic with Maggie, Celine, Hanisah, Nina, Syakir and Hanisah's friend..

I alighted at the wrong stop and arived at Area dunno wat, but was at the "Ski 360 degeees" there, near the food village..... and had to walk for 50 mins just to reach area C where we suposed to meet at the Macs there..its like veri tiring and i finaly know why there are quite a lot of bike rental shops along the way..
: "In East Coast Park, don't ever try to walk; the road will never end"

Lucky i was still one of the earliest haz...was watching live football at Mac's when i didn't even notice Celine and Maggie arriving...


Celine brought koniyaku(dunno how to spell, sry...), Hanisah brought vegetable friters, Syakir brought seafood fried rice, Nina bought fried maggie mee, Maggie bought drinks,and i bought snacks, fork and spoons and disposable plates

I spent like almost all of my available money on snacks , fork and disposable plates that i did not have enough to ent a bike, lucky Celne lent me money haz thanks Celine ..

we cycled all the wy to Bedok Jetty, took pictures and cycled back.It was round $7 for 1 hour plus 1 hour free for the rental

Then we went to Mac and ate snacks and talked til 7-plus...

and that concludes my day today

Signing off,
JL

Well. It happened again.

Firstly, i thought i heard the teacher said need CD for the project, and nid to put in all phrases into the CD, then now i found out no nid CD, only nid two copies of the report.

Then one of my friends actually msged her and asked for the finance and final report, but no news from her.

Then suddenly she msged us and say the the total cost of printing and binding is
'100'.....

So much ?

and she did not even inform us in advance that she wil be printing the reports.

No news at all from a so-called "leader"

I maintained my right to doubt whether its the real cost but i do not want to cause any troubles. Yes, a receipt will tell the truth but that will separate us into two groups, not that we are not aready so-called "separated"

The exams are already over and i do not want to create more stress for myself.

well, no need to guess that she had agian, using her own "imagination" and maybe "delusion" thought that we had not done anything again .

pls. dun do until like only u are doing your part and we are slackers or free-riders.

thus i had specifically told her in an offline msge that we had actually done our part by putting everything into a CD(Thanks to Celine who put them into the CD), only that i just knew the CD is not needed.

maybe my prepaid went bankrupt at the right moment.

i have half-a-mind to pay the twenty dollars now.

signing off,
JL

The weather has been quite hot these few days, perspiring quite a lot

Left one paper to go on next thurs

Saw Shawn(the winner of the second season the Campus superstar, i think) in Simei a few days ago...my sis says just need to walk around in Simei and will see him one..

Oh ya, my sis also applied for SP...i forgot all about the procedures like the payment methods....its been three years, how to remember?

any more updates, will post it online wif(whenever i'm free)

signing off,
JL

On Friday, 19 of February 2010, something happened which will definitely leave a blank space and an empty mark in my life.

I totaly forgot and missed my RC test which comprised of 20% of the total grades.

I was writing notes for my BTBM when suddenly i received an sms, and upon reading it, got the shock of my life.

I rememebered with a jolt that i was supposed to have a Test at 1pm, and its then 1.30pm.

I hastily changed clothes and rushed down in a taxi and ran all the way to the venue. But it was already too late.

From this incident, i realised that, i finally found a large obstacle in my life that is sufficient to change me, my ways of thinking, my life as a whole...not that other incidents do not, but this is the first time i totally forgot and missed a test. Heard from the lecturer that there is no way i can have a retest.

The only good thing is that i have always been early, if not punctual, for my classes, and that the lecturer had looked thru my other asessments and predicted that i might just fall from an "A" to a "B"..

but this is not the point.

I've been wondering after this incident..that must we really have to experience something significant before we can really change what we know that is wrong, but which we are still doing? Must we realy have to lose something before we will miss it?

I can't blame it on my short-term memory; either can i blame it on any other person or things except myself.


In the past, i've always have these wierd thoughts of "what if this happens to me? what if that hapens to me? how will i handle it?..."

Now that these thoughts became a reality...i find it hard to accept it..

however, life has to move on...and i know that if i just stand that, blaming myself, feeling depressed, or even hating what has happened...without the thought of moving on..i cannot survive in this world..

Sure, all of us had heard of peple who have experienced worse but bcame successful in the end, and i found myself asking this question:

" Why is being a human so diffecult and complicated and stressful?"

"Is education really the most important thing in this world"

"Are we really so dependent on education that we cannot survive without it?"

I know that i've only missed one test and should not exaggerate thing, but.. do we need to really make ourselves so stressful and make our lives so dificult just to get a good education so that we can survive in this world?

I know that stress does not come naturally but is what we create ourselves but this does not help in answering my questions.

I just want to make it clear that i am one who takes each test seriously,

and not one who thinks " chey, just 20%, nevermind la..miss miss lor!!"

or "Ha! just need MC rite? buy one la!! then can retest lalala"

Thus comes my next question:

" do we need to really use all kinds of unethical methods like lying or using fake smiles or whatever just to survive in this world, as long as we do not break any law??"

I know to survive in this world, the most important thing is that we should first care for our own selves because if there's really anytihng that happen to you, NO ONE will care for you if they cannot even care for themselves. YOU WILL JUST HAVE TO USE ALL KINDS OF MEANS JUST TO SURVIVE AND FIGHT ON.

In this world, if you do not even care for yourself in the first place, no one will help you.

I've seen how some people work in some places..i've seen how selfish and realistic this world can be...

but i just cannot come to terms with it...!

I hope one day, i do not need to use any underhand means or even outright means or whatever just to survive...But i know.

That the chance of this day coming. Is not even close to zero.

Signing off,
JL

Happy Lunar New Year to all!

Its been quite a hectic week..

didn't even sleep much last night...was copying notes, then slp for like 20 mins then repeat....until 3 plus then slp until 6 then repeat the procedure until
7.45am......

today got CSB meeting role-play and MMIT "open book" test (more like closed book than open book)

totally forgot to read the case study which was given to us like eons ago...and only managed to borrow from a friend and photocopy 5mins before the test....

and not enough time too - - can't finish 2 whole qns...veri emo....

role-play was better, the teacher said it was "veri good"..

then managed to submit my applications for NUS and NTU and paid application fee, all in one day. With help from Wiliam Swee. Feel that must give credit or else duno what will happen to me...lol jk.

NUS application already submitted a few days ago.


so now just need to study for two exams can le

dun like the word "study", prefer " take notes and read and memorise"..more friendly that way.


Signing off,
JL

I have really failed as a friend when i did not even know my friends are suffering until they told me themselves.

I take this opportunity to offer my most sincere apologies and deepest regrets.

Why had i not noticed earlier?

I mean
Why is this world so practical?

Being drprived of our responsibilities and then using that as a weapon to attack us..

yes, the results are important, but f**king wrong are you to think that you can just dun like us do what we can and then say we did not do at all..

I agree sometimes we are not really good at doin some things, but you do not have to put everything on yourself and prevent us from doin what we should be
doing, then turn around and shoot us.

You think you are right, but you are not at all.

What is the meaning of a "team" when only a few persons are doing and the rest are deprived the means to help, and when they tried to, they received negative comments, when in the first place, you isolate them n did not tell them what you are doin...

Why must the world become like this?

Is this how things work in this world?

Why is the world so crooked and practical?

Why is the world changing , or deteriorating?

Why must some people think or act this way just because they are better?

Academic qualifications are useless and trash if you do not have the right mindset or consideration for others.

If you are being plain selfish and only think of getting good results, you FAIL. as a person. as a friend. as a human.

I wil not be getting into the specifics about what happened due to a promise and confidentiality.

Pls do not even try to guess what happened. or spread anything around.

It can happen a few years ago, or even just some kind of recollection during my primary or secondary school years or even as a kind of general thinking about this damn place we call earth.

I sincerely hope tat this thing will only be discussed within the boundaries of this blog.

Earth is ok. Good even. But the people who lives in it..that's another thing.

Ok. I shall focus on my exams first and not be distracted by other things of the past.

I WILL BECOME A BETTER PERSON, A BETTER FRIEND!


Signing off,
JL

I just realised i did not sign out from my blog since the last time i signed in.
.

AAAhghgghghghghghghggghggghhhhhhh...!!!

ok.

so.

Finished CSB Minutes test and RC Role-play yesterday.

BD final report submission is after Exams

BMG report submission tml, but only need two pages and my leader is doin it cos i tink she dun nid much help tt's why she did not ask for any.

MMIT report by this friday but i did my part for the report plus appendices and references and emailed them le.

CSB Meeting Role-play is not until next Tuesday, and haven receive any news from my group yet.

so now...

just downloaded past years papers for my two modules (I only has two modules for exams)

and cleaned up my desktop icons so only a few remain to be seen on the desktop.

basically just waiting now..

and maybe find some info for the CSB role-play.

decided to just let my workers in my Restaurant in Resaurant city work to death. then giv them some items to recover work time everytime i log in.

found a new application called "Crazy Planets" quite nice to play.

Still on Castle Age and Yakuza Lords.

Started a new blog.

address can be found in my Facebook profile.

Til then

Signing off,
JL

Finally! I'm 99.9% away from RC CA completion

Just need to:
- Buy 2 folders
- Buy 1 empty CD
- Design CD cover
- Put everything into the CD
- Fold Brochure

I practicaly "ate" off a whole lot of ink (and colored one at that) in the Retail Studio....

Printed ad printed and printed like there's no tomorrow...so much for the environment-conscious side of me..

anyway now have some free time bfore i do all those things at the top

today had MMIT phase 2 presentation...we exceeded our time limit by round 5+ minutes

but we did our best, with one member less (as she had some personal problems)than the other groups

till next post then

Signing off,
JL

These few days too manyt things to do le.... too many tests le.....

And now doin some press release thing which i seriously have no idea how to do...

MMIT, RC, LERM, CSB, BD.....

How i wish i could use Kage bunshin no jutsu....

anyway, i'm currently onto Naruto manga, but had only passed episode 100+...

next week is gonna be like hell for me...

But i will not be beaten, at most only to a pulp..

till next time then

Signing off,
Jl

Its been a long time since i blogged.

busy with projects and classes..

Finally finished watching Gundam 00 Season one..25 episodes...but it got season two..

Having been thinking and reflecting, and found that that i've been a coward..especially in BD..

Should have opposed to the idea of 5-7-10(those who are my group members you will know wat i'm talking about.)

i'm sorry...

even if you had contributed much, but you had indeed put in your best efforts, and these should not be compromised.

If only i had the courage to stand up and voice my real opinion to the idea which to me now sems absurd..

but what i said now is useless..

anyway, now i am doing (or about to do, or thinking of doing) the corrections of my MMIT phase one report..


finished the editig of MMIT pahse one ppt slides at round 2am this morning..

submited new dieas to BD this yeaterday night

now left mmit report and RC design of promotions and media schedule andnpublic relations stuff..

i'm already over the 19-mark but why am i still not mature enough...

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Hello!

Today no school at all

but still go school

initially wanted to do tutorial and project
Instead facebook and do tutorial only , until 12-plus.

then need to wait for my friend. ask him to look after my seat at the second floor of our newly renovated and relocated Hilltop Library, while i go to the gents and eat(i eat after i go to the gents, must clarify..)

The atmosphere there is good, air con not too cold, and there's more seats and tables, not to mention plugs.

played one round of dota, but very LAGGGG

then try to do tutorial, at least managed to do some of it.

then Bollowed Cloverfield and watched it.

almost vomitted due to motion sickness, as the whole damn film was literally filmed using a video camera............which was forever shaking and the view is like..ugh..

plot was really,.. everyone died.
and the man holding the video camera filmed how the monster ate him. and the video was stil kicking when i saw his head on the ground (probably with the rest of his body)

...

and the miraculuous thing is that after all the main characters died, the only thing stil alive is the video camera..its like it got unlmited batteries..

anyway after watching it went home.

completed the part on latest trends for BTBM project.

can say complete everything le except some areas which i emailed to my groupmate cos got some questions to ask.

initially wanted to watch "Sky captain and the World of Tomorrow" but the disc can only be watched in region one and my laptop's dvd player is region three.

tried to use my crazy dcd player at home but instead it "ate up" the disc..scared me(not to hell)
its like i put the dic in, then it says "No disc" then when i pressed open, the disc is not in the "mouth" of the dvd player.

almost died in shock, but my mind took over.and i lived.
Opened up the damn cover of the dvd player( literally unscrewed everything) and took out the disc manually)

then think its too man fan to watch, so returned it.

may want to watch 听说, heard its nice i think..

so...
(speed typing rocks)
dunno why i like to type one finger at a time, but its cool huh?
and i trained myself to type with a finger at a time, but at a good speed.


signing off,
JL.

A happy near year to everyone :)

For the new year, here are some new year resolutions for myself:

- Get 3.5 gpa for my final exam
- Best of health for everyone i know
- Find a gf (simply someone i like who likes me)
- For Graduation Day to come more quickly
- Survive (alive) NS until ORD, then live on
- Pass Napfa (or fail but must have done my best)
- And others...

"in terms of any relationship, be it work, family, or love, you don't judge a person by his appearance or money, but by his character, personality and heart"

" Character can be nurtured or influenced, but personality stays on throughout your life"

" Of course, all these depends on your own perceptions of that particular person"

" Most of the time your perceptions would be willingly or unwillingly biased ,and not objective which perceptions rarely are, so this becomes a complex matter."

"However, there are solutions to problems,depending on how you handle them..."

today managed to swim the whole length of the swimming pool :) (Imagine a rectangle with length and breadth; i swam the length without stoppng)-- using breaststroke --
(my style, not the national standard la)

just now doing project...got two main projects currently..BTBM and RC..

but only found some info for BTBM only..

slping soon ...bye:)

Signing off,
JL