十月三十日 雨

今天， 真的好不开心
连大结局都不让我看
不懂为什么， 作天也一样子，看到一半就睡着， 结果没得看完
今天更不用说了，连大结局都不让我看完
直到片尾才醒来， 什么都看不到
非常懊恼， 想发泄一下情绪， 却没人理会，而且还被骂。
好烦。

虽然知道可能永远也不能再在电视上看到这连续剧了，除非上网看，但我又不想这么做
这世界就是这么好笑， 没晚都在追，结果连大结局都看不到
这件事情，在我心中，无非是一种遗憾， 但也是一种无奈。
还能怎样呢？

The day of Reckoning

Today, through Google, i visited a classmate's blog.

Today, i found out i am really a weakling.

Today, i found out i am really ungrateful.

Today, i found out i had did so much wrong.

Today, i found out i really am anti-social, at least in the minds of other people.

Today, i went across a good quote in one of my classmate's blogs.

Today, i found out a class can be complete without me.

Today, i found out i had not stepped into my previous schools since i stepped out of them upon graduation.

Today, i found out i am worse than many others.

Today, i found out i cannot be a normal person at all.

Today, i found out i have no purpose in life.

Today, i found out i am slowly being forgotten by my friends / ex-classmates.

Today, i found out i had many secrets which i am not able to confess in this blog.

Today, i found out i am not a good friend at all.

Today is the day of reckoning for me.

After Today, i know i still am not able to change for the better.

Today, i hope i can be remembered thirty years from now --

--Not as an loner, but as a real friend.
--Not being anti-social, but being able to interact freely with others.

Today, and right now, i sign off with deepest regrets and apologies.

Well, today's the first day of school after about one month of holidays.

First day of school, and i've already suffered motion sickness on the way to school.

Had to alight at Tiong Bahru mrt...very dizzy....weak....

now having 3-hour break..

I think it started yesterday when i took bus number 72 from Tampines to Hougang..quite a long trip...

but the laksa there nice to eat...

Hougang Mall..

Then took bus back again number 72..then another bus 292 home....there and then already very dizzy le..

go home bath then sleep le...nvr got the energy to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima" (sry dunno if Iwo Jima is spelt correctly)

Very worried about BD..dunno how to do or continue...

today got BD tutorial...got even more confused and worried...

today at MM and IT practical, a disaster...if not for two new students in this particular module, dun think i can form or join a group with any of the rest of the class at all..

kept yawning and yawning as if i'm on drugs which was not la..

Today received a keychain and a small box of preserved fruits from two friends who went overseas a few days ago...

Thanks for the nice gifts!

篮球火 and 学警出更 showing on TV soon(I think)!! yay!

dunno what to write le...head spinning like a top...dizzy...zzz..zzzz.zzzzzz

zzzing off,
JL

Found out my enlistment date is around June next year.

felt that my hair is getting quite long....should cut it soon.

BD had not even start yet....quite worried for it.

NS is coming...and haven booked a date for Nafta est.

This post is getting boring and dull...

until next post then :)