Saw my results today.

Yes, i've deteriorated.
de-proved.

felt really lousy.
besides that, dunno what i should feel. should i feel angry? sad? disappointed? mad? depressed? moody? any other feelings? em..happy?

've been falling and falling for almost three sems continuously.

from 3.2 to 3 to 2.9.

nth to say.

thought my gpa had improved but in reality, it has indeed dropped.
mistook my sem gpa for my cumulative gpa, or is it the other way round?
anyway, both dropped/ decreased by almost 0.2

felt that i'm really a failure, not only in r***********s, but also academically (not to mention i've failed in communication skills as well)

anyone may feel that i'm all talk and no action, but..ok i admit.and that's another reason why i feel like a failure.

yes..all along i may be being negative about myself, but that's because my confidence has been depleted a long time ago. Its in deficit now.

and that's one of the reasons why i may be a hypocrite..tend to hide my feelings and show two diferent sides when with my friends and when alone, but i dun deny i try to cover up my own feelings by not smiling or being quiet sometimes...which led to even more misunderstandings which i shall not elaborate here............................

duno what to type le.

that's all for today then :)

(haz dun worry, i'll be ok.)
~really.

ITP: Special Edition

Its been 2 weeks and 2 days since my ITP started!

whoa..been counting down the days..and guess which day i like most?

normally people would think its Friday.BUT.
.
They may be -- right this time.

Anyway my job scope, even though there's not much variety, is tough k.

Filing, data entry, checking names...

Sometimes it even required me to take up to five days to finish just ONE task.

I dun deny i MAY be a s.l.o.w workr, but...actually i m.
But i'm not slacking! [ > < ]

Anyway, today i spent the whole day (9 to 6.30pm) doing just one task. and all the things required for the task (eg.files, documents, staplers, copysafe pockets, and Scissors(really))covered around four tables.
yes.4.

it was really .. not really tiring, but really cold..til the point where you just can't think.
your brain kana freezed up to the point before it is certified "frozen".

very low rate of metabolism.

just find it hard to move( but nid to clarify, i'm NOT a lazy person.)

well
overall find that its..comfortable working in NIM.
The staff there are helpful, approachable,...nice...ya.

At least its a five-day work week.[Had frens workin from 8 to 5, for six days :( ]

Anyway we're supposed to be enjoying our holidays now lor ..

Results tomorrow!
hope to get more than 2.8 this time round.
dropped from 3.2 to 2.7 last time round.
(...Maybe i'll check at 12am later..?...)
just joking.

Signing off,
JL.