Turning Point

2010-06-01T21:51:00.003+08:00

Two more days til enlistment.

This blog will be officially temporarily closed for the next two years, starting from either tomorrow or this thursday.

Please refer to http://www.mylifeinns.blogspot.com/ for future posts.

Given the opportunity and time, i'll be posting in this new blog,some of what i will be experiencing in National Service, of course, Excluding any confidential or private issues.

Its been more than two years since i've started this blog, and i remembered my first post was on the 30th of January.

a lot have happened during this two years, and some of them are being "saved" in this blog... writing down events in my life are such a benefit to me.

left one more day...haven finish Slam Dunk, may need to use the whole day tml to watch finish the anime..such a long anime...

received a nike voucher due to particiption in SP Poly 50... just in time cos i need a duffel bag so as to put all my ns things into it... went to suntec with William today , to the "Nike By B.I.R.D" store to buy one... in the end only need to top up round $20.

then went to the book convention in exhibition hall 4. as its a weekday, not many people. but the books there are mostly chinese books.

then went to another exhibition in the ground floor in dunno which tower... and saw many interesting books there, but can only buy one...in the end chose.....Iron man. (...)

saw "Resident Evil: Extinction", and Brisingr was sold at only $8!! My fren was so... cos he bought the book at $30+ when it was first released...

see you soon, two years from now or you could visit my new blog at http://www.mylifeinns.blogspot.com/

signing out,
JL
(dun miss me ;P)

2010-05-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

Countdown:
10 days to enlistment.

today, after work, went to nearby shop to buy shampoo. Bought Clear at $2

prepared most of the things needed to bring to tekong, eg. medical necessities, hangers, alarm clock, AA bateries, etc.

Just finished Nodame Cantabile episode 22, one more episode to end.

tomorrow start work at 7am...

wtached Underdog just now at 7.30pm , channel 5...not a good movie,.. same old plot.. but the Beagle is cute.

some grad. photos hav been uploaded on FB..

had specially home-made pizza just now too...delicious..mushroom, green chilli, red chilli.. and other ingredients..

yesterday play RA 3 with another friend against two easy AI..felt more and more comfortable using Allies..

recently started to learn the most basic information about playing the piano, eg. how to read notes...basic music theory...now still on grade one...

but knw how to read the "Number" notes( dunno what is the actual name) like for eg. "1" equals "C" , "1 with a dot under it" equals low "c", etc etc.

Might like/ hope to experience the "Individual Marksmanship Training" in NS soon..

BMT standard is like the sky to me - - too high to achieve..i cant even do one chin-up..

ok, gt sleep soon..waking up at 5.50am tml...

Signing off,
JL

2010-05-18T14:19:00.004+08:00

I'm officially a graudate of Singapore polytechnic from tomorrow onwards:)

Graduation ceremony starts at 2pm..

but i will need to wear dark coloured shoes ...and the only pair i have is a pair of worn-out, old and.. tattered(?) shoes.. or shld i wear my NPCC shoes/ boots..lol

anyway, i wil have to finish watching all episodes of Nodame Cantabile by 26 May, cos i'm enlistng soon...been neglecting the anime for a long time..

from 3 June onwards, i'll be posting on a new blog, "Life in NS", the link of which is on the left, below the chatbox and my pet, Jazz.

though i doubt i will have any free time or opportunity to blog..

so, til next time.

Signing off,
JL

2010-05-13T21:49:00.003+08:00

** COUNTDOWN **
-> 6 days until Graduation
-> 20 days until NS enlistment

work at Yes has been normal.. the atmosphere there is not stresfull..
people there mostly helpful and OK..

received my pay on 6th May, but dunno why, can't find anything to buy at all..dunno hoiw to spend it..dun feel like spedning it..
.. and started to wonder why do i need money at tis time?
what shld i do with my money?
what shld i spend it on?

just thought of something to buy- - maybe a duffle bag..

recently started to re-play red alert 2: Yuri's revenge..almost forgot how to play, how to build units, control them, etc..got crushed by an easy enemy...

but soon found back my bearings...

quite fun anyway..

tinking of creating a few maps using the map editor..

animes...
still stuck on Nodame Cantabile...can't find the commitment to finish it, esp. it only have round 24 episodes i tink..hav to finish it quickly before enlistment..

received rejection letterfrom a certain uni a few days back...well shld hav known better, with these kind of results..its common sense..

maybe i would hav to resort to SMU / NU /SIm or PSB academy after NS, depends..

was following 學警狙擊 on TV. every night , 9pm...finishing soon..last few episodes..

i do not trust horoscopes completely, but am interested in them, thus i found myself turing to the horoscope page in My Paper every time i got hold of it, and reading what's in my horoscope..

graduating in six days' time..how do i feel?

"well, i felt that, time flies.. and its been thre years in the blink of an eye.
a lot of things have hapened during these three years, but i found that my memories in Singapore Polytechnic are not the most memorable one, per se.."

My current work?

"..Working at Yes brings back some memories of the time i worked as a .. for ego , i think,, when we had to go all over singapore to .. arrange the goods in NTUC, Fariprice, Cold storage, etc.. , and the people i met there, the people i worked with, as well as some ..incidents, i shld say, or .. "interactions" with my then supervisor(s), haz...its quite fun, but really tiring...but .. the .. experience was.. good?.. haz.."

"however, working at Yes shld be , in my own view, more...flexible and less stressful, the amosphee there is quite relaxed, half-day,.. people there also kind and helpful.."

NS?
" I feel.. both nervous and excited while awaiting enlistment. Nervous because this is (of course) my first time going to NS... excited because i finally have a real part to play in protecting my country, or learning to protect it.."

"I do hope that all goes well in Tekong..i can meet some friends there whom i can "connect" with.. learn some new things.. esp. maybe shoting skills? .. just a silly dream.. hope that i might bea marksman or sometihng like tt..lol haz...know it'll never happen.."

til next time then
sin=gning out,
JL

" I'm the type who needs clear indication"

2010-04-29T23:34:00.003+08:00

Went to GV@Tampines today with a friend to watch Ip Man 2.

forgot that the hall we're goin to has only one entrance at the right. and bump my head into a wall on my left.

of course it hurts.

anyway, the movie is good. Donnie Yen and his signature smile in the movie, both in the first and second instalment... and this time, with Sammo Hung as the martial arts director and also as one of the main characters, its a good pair-up between the two martial arts actors.

then went to Sewensons to eat banana split. my friend had a coupn which entitles us to a free sundae among six choices. we ordered a banana split and a fried mushroom or sumthing like tt. the tartar sauce was as delicious as the ice cream.

its been a tiring day.

enlisting on first week of next month.

signing off,
JL

2010-04-14T19:47:00.003+08:00

Today went to Tampines GV to watch "How to train your dragon" in 3D
Its quite nice.
Graphics, animations, story plot..interesting.

Its close to 1 hr 45 mins..and the price like droped from $13 to $11, or that i did not know it had dropped.

and it talks about a child of a Viking who met a "Night-Fury" Dragon whom he shot down using his gadget during a night raid by the dragons. He befriends the dragon and uncovered a secret between the dragons and the Vikings.. to know more, watch the movie.

In my own view, its quite nice,comprising of fantasy, family and love.

btw went to white sands to drink double chocolate frappe..quite expensive though..and went to Challenger. saw that "Medal of Honour: Airbourne" dropped to a mere $19.90!

its like a very huge difference of price from when i last saw it eons ago.

battlefield 2 complete collection also droped from $59+ to a mere $29.90.....

and also Need for Speed : Prostreet and need for speed: Undercover....

and there are also other types of packages where they lump three of four games together and sell at a special price..its like they wanted to clear away all past stocks...to make way for new ones

tomorow new show on channel U 10pm..though its quite a very old one..but shld be nice to watch, and i tink its on Todou too.

til next time then

signing off,
JL

2010-04-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

Got back my results a few weeks back.

Cumulative GPA: 3.004, just reached the 3-point mark..
but forgot if i need to submit my latest results to NUS and NtU, and how...its been ages since i submitted my application..

19/5/10--> Graduation

found a job at YES Supermart , very near my house, walking distance.

actually went for some job interviews and called up some guys before this, but to conclude, its not successful at all..thus, found this job while buying tomato ketchup a few weeks ago..had been at work since one week ago. at least, its near my house, and the atmosphere there is not really stressful.

Its part-time (dunno when i will be enlisted)

finally able to watch 学警狙击 on channel 55, 9pm.

i've watched the previous two "instalments" (學警雄心 and 學警出更)and have been waiting for this ...

thinking back, i've learnt that..all these while, what happened to me or around me, as well as how i've been dealing wth things around me, has let me realised that..i've been very naive to think of trying to start a relationship and thinking that i could be a good partner, but now i know..i do not even have the basic requisites to be a good partner..

its still too early.

let nature take its course then,

as for me, i always knew it has ended even before it started / could even start

signing off,
JL

2010-03-17T23:55:00.004+08:00

I really feel that i am not at all photogenic( aka do not look good at all in photos)..that's why i rarely put any photo with my face in it into my blog.. but i'll try to put some nice ones haz...

thus, most of my stored phots are those of other people / scenery / things, except myself...so quite hard to fins any photos of myself..

i'll be adding in more photos in parts in different entries of my blog :)

well here goes:

(note: some random photos that i could find in my gallery)

2010-03-17T23:48:00.003+08:00

Here's some picture i took of the Central Busines District..

(Note: these pictures may be blur due to my not-so-good skills)

2010-03-17T23:42:00.005+08:00

These are some of the pictures taken during my younger days..ahem..i not saying i veri old now. but just looking back the carefree days...with my friends..playing catching, hide and seek, .. running around... its definitely much more happier than secondary and poly life. dun't you agree?

(Note: i'm feeling kinda lazy to scan in these picts, so i just took a photo of them)

2010-03-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Its been some time since i last posted..

Poly life is officially over! except maybe haven get my cert yet..

As always, hope to get above 3.1...:)

3.192->3.243->2.717->2.646->3.278-> ?

Now looking for job, or trying to..

Last thurs actually went for an interview, the person say will contact me on Mon, then Mon came, and i was told they are looking thru the applicants, and told me to wait until Friday, and now no news yet..

my friend offered me a job, but when the person heard i dunno when i would be enlisted, she said will call again, and disappeared.

so now...still looking..

anyway, a friend asked me to put pictures on my blog, and i forgot all about it..sry..i'll put pictures on asap.

Watched Nodame Cantabile in GV Tampines last week, it was really good, and worth watching again.. if i have the money and the company..now waiting for Part 2.

the plot was nice, the orchestral performance was good, the characters are funny and realistic at the same time...etc etc..

watched "Ten promises to my dog" this morning..

really nice too.

sometimes, i really hope to experience love too, but i know, its not the time yet..i hope to meet my other half soon :)

moving on,
i also hope to get a job soon..its been a week...
i heard that results mght be out on 24th March if i'm not wrong..

hope to grad soon.

hope to go NUS

tonite just went for my swimming lesson, gained more insights into breaststroke and free-style, but still fail at both.

smsed to CMPB, and they say my enlistment date is not finalised yet..

ok, time to end this entry, i'll upload some picts asap...

Signing off,
JL

2010-03-09T23:08:00.003+08:00

Today went to East Coast Park and had pinic with Maggie, Celine, Hanisah, Nina, Syakir and Hanisah's friend..

I alighted at the wrong stop and arived at Area dunno wat, but was at the "Ski 360 degeees" there, near the food village..... and had to walk for 50 mins just to reach area C where we suposed to meet at the Macs there..its like veri tiring and i finaly know why there are quite a lot of bike rental shops along the way..
: "In East Coast Park, don't ever try to walk; the road will never end"

Lucky i was still one of the earliest haz...was watching live football at Mac's when i didn't even notice Celine and Maggie arriving...

Celine brought koniyaku(dunno how to spell, sry...), Hanisah brought vegetable friters, Syakir brought seafood fried rice, Nina bought fried maggie mee, Maggie bought drinks,and i bought snacks, fork and spoons and disposable plates

I spent like almost all of my available money on snacks , fork and disposable plates that i did not have enough to ent a bike, lucky Celne lent me money haz thanks Celine ..

we cycled all the wy to Bedok Jetty, took pictures and cycled back.It was round $7 for 1 hour plus 1 hour free for the rental

Then we went to Mac and ate snacks and talked til 7-plus...

and that concludes my day today

Signing off,
JL

2010-03-04T21:40:00.004+08:00

Well. It happened again.

Firstly, i thought i heard the teacher said need CD for the project, and nid to put in all phrases into the CD, then now i found out no nid CD, only nid two copies of the report.

Then one of my friends actually msged her and asked for the finance and final report, but no news from her.

Then suddenly she msged us and say the the total cost of printing and binding is
'100'.....

So much ?

and she did not even inform us in advance that she wil be printing the reports.

No news at all from a so-called "leader"

I maintained my right to doubt whether its the real cost but i do not want to cause any troubles. Yes, a receipt will tell the truth but that will separate us into two groups, not that we are not aready so-called "separated"

The exams are already over and i do not want to create more stress for myself.

well, no need to guess that she had agian, using her own "imagination" and maybe "delusion" thought that we had not done anything again .

pls. dun do until like only u are doing your part and we are slackers or free-riders.

thus i had specifically told her in an offline msge that we had actually done our part by putting everything into a CD(Thanks to Celine who put them into the CD), only that i just knew the CD is not needed.

maybe my prepaid went bankrupt at the right moment.

i have half-a-mind to pay the twenty dollars now.

signing off,
JL

2010-02-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

The weather has been quite hot these few days, perspiring quite a lot

Left one paper to go on next thurs

Saw Shawn(the winner of the second season the Campus superstar, i think) in Simei a few days ago...my sis says just need to walk around in Simei and will see him one..

Oh ya, my sis also applied for SP...i forgot all about the procedures like the payment methods....its been three years, how to remember?

any more updates, will post it online wif(whenever i'm free)

signing off,
JL

2010-02-21T00:26:00.003+08:00

On Friday, 19 of February 2010, something happened which will definitely leave a blank space and an empty mark in my life.

I totaly forgot and missed my RC test which comprised of 20% of the total grades.

I was writing notes for my BTBM when suddenly i received an sms, and upon reading it, got the shock of my life.

I rememebered with a jolt that i was supposed to have a Test at 1pm, and its then 1.30pm.

I hastily changed clothes and rushed down in a taxi and ran all the way to the venue. But it was already too late.

From this incident, i realised that, i finally found a large obstacle in my life that is sufficient to change me, my ways of thinking, my life as a whole...not that other incidents do not, but this is the first time i totally forgot and missed a test. Heard from the lecturer that there is no way i can have a retest.

The only good thing is that i have always been early, if not punctual, for my classes, and that the lecturer had looked thru my other asessments and predicted that i might just fall from an "A" to a "B"..

but this is not the point.

I've been wondering after this incident..that must we really have to experience something significant before we can really change what we know that is wrong, but which we are still doing? Must we realy have to lose something before we will miss it?

I can't blame it on my short-term memory; either can i blame it on any other person or things except myself.

In the past, i've always have these wierd thoughts of "what if this happens to me? what if that hapens to me? how will i handle it?..."

Now that these thoughts became a reality...i find it hard to accept it..

however, life has to move on...and i know that if i just stand that, blaming myself, feeling depressed, or even hating what has happened...without the thought of moving on..i cannot survive in this world..

Sure, all of us had heard of peple who have experienced worse but bcame successful in the end, and i found myself asking this question:

" Why is being a human so diffecult and complicated and stressful?"

"Is education really the most important thing in this world"

"Are we really so dependent on education that we cannot survive without it?"

I know that i've only missed one test and should not exaggerate thing, but.. do we need to really make ourselves so stressful and make our lives so dificult just to get a good education so that we can survive in this world?

I know that stress does not come naturally but is what we create ourselves but this does not help in answering my questions.

I just want to make it clear that i am one who takes each test seriously,

and not one who thinks " chey, just 20%, nevermind la..miss miss lor!!"

or "Ha! just need MC rite? buy one la!! then can retest lalala"

Thus comes my next question:

" do we need to really use all kinds of unethical methods like lying or using fake smiles or whatever just to survive in this world, as long as we do not break any law??"

I know to survive in this world, the most important thing is that we should first care for our own selves because if there's really anytihng that happen to you, NO ONE will care for you if they cannot even care for themselves. YOU WILL JUST HAVE TO USE ALL KINDS OF MEANS JUST TO SURVIVE AND FIGHT ON.

In this world, if you do not even care for yourself in the first place, no one will help you.

I've seen how some people work in some places..i've seen how selfish and realistic this world can be...

but i just cannot come to terms with it...!

I hope one day, i do not need to use any underhand means or even outright means or whatever just to survive...But i know.

That the chance of this day coming. Is not even close to zero.

Signing off,
JL

2010-02-18T23:07:00.004+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year to all!

Its been quite a hectic week..

didn't even sleep much last night...was copying notes, then slp for like 20 mins then repeat....until 3 plus then slp until 6 then repeat the procedure until
7.45am......

today got CSB meeting role-play and MMIT "open book" test (more like closed book than open book)

totally forgot to read the case study which was given to us like eons ago...and only managed to borrow from a friend and photocopy 5mins before the test....

and not enough time too - - can't finish 2 whole qns...veri emo....

role-play was better, the teacher said it was "veri good"..

then managed to submit my applications for NUS and NTU and paid application fee, all in one day. With help from Wiliam Swee. Feel that must give credit or else duno what will happen to me...lol jk.

NUS application already submitted a few days ago.

so now just need to study for two exams can le

dun like the word "study", prefer " take notes and read and memorise"..more friendly that way.

Signing off,
JL

2010-02-12T08:57:00.006+08:00

I have really failed as a friend when i did not even know my friends are suffering until they told me themselves.

I take this opportunity to offer my most sincere apologies and deepest regrets.

Why had i not noticed earlier?

I mean
Why is this world so practical?

Being drprived of our responsibilities and then using that as a weapon to attack us..

yes, the results are important, but f**king wrong are you to think that you can just dun like us do what we can and then say we did not do at all..

I agree sometimes we are not really good at doin some things, but you do not have to put everything on yourself and prevent us from doin what we should be
doing, then turn around and shoot us.

You think you are right, but you are not at all.

What is the meaning of a "team" when only a few persons are doing and the rest are deprived the means to help, and when they tried to, they received negative comments, when in the first place, you isolate them n did not tell them what you are doin...

Why must the world become like this?

Is this how things work in this world?

Why is the world so crooked and practical?

Why is the world changing , or deteriorating?

Why must some people think or act this way just because they are better?

Academic qualifications are useless and trash if you do not have the right mindset or consideration for others.

If you are being plain selfish and only think of getting good results, you FAIL. as a person. as a friend. as a human.

I wil not be getting into the specifics about what happened due to a promise and confidentiality.

Pls do not even try to guess what happened. or spread anything around.

It can happen a few years ago, or even just some kind of recollection during my primary or secondary school years or even as a kind of general thinking about this damn place we call earth.

I sincerely hope tat this thing will only be discussed within the boundaries of this blog.

Earth is ok. Good even. But the people who lives in it..that's another thing.

Ok. I shall focus on my exams first and not be distracted by other things of the past.

I WILL BECOME A BETTER PERSON, A BETTER FRIEND!

Signing off,
JL

2010-02-10T15:29:00.005+08:00

I just realised i did not sign out from my blog since the last time i signed in.
.

AAAhghgghghghghghghggghggghhhhhhh...!!!

ok.

so.

Finished CSB Minutes test and RC Role-play yesterday.

BD final report submission is after Exams

BMG report submission tml, but only need two pages and my leader is doin it cos i tink she dun nid much help tt's why she did not ask for any.

MMIT report by this friday but i did my part for the report plus appendices and references and emailed them le.

CSB Meeting Role-play is not until next Tuesday, and haven receive any news from my group yet.

so now...

just downloaded past years papers for my two modules (I only has two modules for exams)

and cleaned up my desktop icons so only a few remain to be seen on the desktop.

basically just waiting now..

and maybe find some info for the CSB role-play.

decided to just let my workers in my Restaurant in Resaurant city work to death. then giv them some items to recover work time everytime i log in.

found a new application called "Crazy Planets" quite nice to play.

Still on Castle Age and Yakuza Lords.

Started a new blog.

address can be found in my Facebook profile.

Til then

Signing off,
JL

2010-02-04T14:19:00.004+08:00

Finally! I'm 99.9% away from RC CA completion

Just need to:
- Buy 2 folders
- Buy 1 empty CD
- Design CD cover
- Put everything into the CD
- Fold Brochure

I practicaly "ate" off a whole lot of ink (and colored one at that) in the Retail Studio....

Printed ad printed and printed like there's no tomorrow...so much for the environment-conscious side of me..

anyway now have some free time bfore i do all those things at the top

today had MMIT phase 2 presentation...we exceeded our time limit by round 5+ minutes

but we did our best, with one member less (as she had some personal problems)than the other groups

till next post then

Signing off,
JL

2010-02-02T23:06:00.003+08:00

These few days too manyt things to do le.... too many tests le.....

And now doin some press release thing which i seriously have no idea how to do...

MMIT, RC, LERM, CSB, BD.....

How i wish i could use Kage bunshin no jutsu....

anyway, i'm currently onto Naruto manga, but had only passed episode 100+...

next week is gonna be like hell for me...

But i will not be beaten, at most only to a pulp..

till next time then

Signing off,
Jl

2010-01-29T12:22:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged.

busy with projects and classes..

Finally finished watching Gundam 00 Season one..25 episodes...but it got season two..

Having been thinking and reflecting, and found that that i've been a coward..especially in BD..

Should have opposed to the idea of 5-7-10(those who are my group members you will know wat i'm talking about.)

i'm sorry...

even if you had contributed much, but you had indeed put in your best efforts, and these should not be compromised.

If only i had the courage to stand up and voice my real opinion to the idea which to me now sems absurd..

but what i said now is useless..

anyway, now i am doing (or about to do, or thinking of doing) the corrections of my MMIT phase one report..

finished the editig of MMIT pahse one ppt slides at round 2am this morning..

submited new dieas to BD this yeaterday night

now left mmit report and RC design of promotions and media schedule andnpublic relations stuff..

i'm already over the 19-mark but why am i still not mature enough...

2010-01-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	High
Dysthymia:	High-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:	Slight-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Very Slight
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

2010-01-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Today no school at all

but still go school

initially wanted to do tutorial and project
Instead facebook and do tutorial only , until 12-plus.

then need to wait for my friend. ask him to look after my seat at the second floor of our newly renovated and relocated Hilltop Library, while i go to the gents and eat(i eat after i go to the gents, must clarify..)

The atmosphere there is good, air con not too cold, and there's more seats and tables, not to mention plugs.

played one round of dota, but very LAGGGG

then try to do tutorial, at least managed to do some of it.

then Bollowed Cloverfield and watched it.

almost vomitted due to motion sickness, as the whole damn film was literally filmed using a video camera............which was forever shaking and the view is like..ugh..

plot was really,.. everyone died.
and the man holding the video camera filmed how the monster ate him. and the video was stil kicking when i saw his head on the ground (probably with the rest of his body)

...

and the miraculuous thing is that after all the main characters died, the only thing stil alive is the video camera..its like it got unlmited batteries..

anyway after watching it went home.

completed the part on latest trends for BTBM project.

can say complete everything le except some areas which i emailed to my groupmate cos got some questions to ask.

initially wanted to watch "Sky captain and the World of Tomorrow" but the disc can only be watched in region one and my laptop's dvd player is region three.

tried to use my crazy dcd player at home but instead it "ate up" the disc..scared me(not to hell)
its like i put the dic in, then it says "No disc" then when i pressed open, the disc is not in the "mouth" of the dvd player.

almost died in shock, but my mind took over.and i lived.
Opened up the damn cover of the dvd player( literally unscrewed everything) and took out the disc manually)

then think its too man fan to watch, so returned it.

may want to watch 听说, heard its nice i think..

so...
(speed typing rocks)
dunno why i like to type one finger at a time, but its cool huh?
and i trained myself to type with a finger at a time, but at a good speed.

signing off,
JL.

2010-01-07T00:22:00.004+08:00

A happy near year to everyone :)

For the new year, here are some new year resolutions for myself:

- Get 3.5 gpa for my final exam
- Best of health for everyone i know
- Find a gf (simply someone i like who likes me)
- For Graduation Day to come more quickly
- Survive (alive) NS until ORD, then live on
- Pass Napfa (or fail but must have done my best)
- And others...

"in terms of any relationship, be it work, family, or love, you don't judge a person by his appearance or money, but by his character, personality and heart"

" Character can be nurtured or influenced, but personality stays on throughout your life"

" Of course, all these depends on your own perceptions of that particular person"

" Most of the time your perceptions would be willingly or unwillingly biased ,and not objective which perceptions rarely are, so this becomes a complex matter."

"However, there are solutions to problems,depending on how you handle them..."

today managed to swim the whole length of the swimming pool :) (Imagine a rectangle with length and breadth; i swam the length without stoppng)-- using breaststroke --
(my style, not the national standard la)

just now doing project...got two main projects currently..BTBM and RC..

but only found some info for BTBM only..

slping soon ...bye:)

Signing off,
JL

2009-12-19T08:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, went to Newton to attend a talk, "1-Day Business Apprentrepreneurship Program" organised by the Maximas Training Academy and presented by Mr. Thomas Mathew, Financial Services Director of Prudential, and Coach, Trainer and Consultant of Maximas Group Pte Ltd.

This talk is about the process of identification and Evaluation of business opportunities, and leasts about 5 hours.

Of course there is time given for lunch.

The flow of the presentation is smooth and you will not be wanting to look at your watch often to see the time remaining, though there is insufficient time to complete everything.

But overall its a good presentation in the sense that the presenter keeps you awake and focused, not dozing off.

After the talk ends at around 4pm, went to TM GV to watch Avatar : 3D.

I paid only $6 while my friend offered to pay the rest, in the form of a long-overdue birthday present. (lol)

but i helped to pay for drinks and part of the lunch.

(we ate vegetarian bee hoon at the cafe in the Prudential Building)

anyway

the movie is ..nice..not like any common movie you see in the cinema which after watching you will regret paying the money for it.

Its 15 years in the making, and the CG, actors, special effects, plot....worth your money i feel.

The movie lasts thre hours...but there is very few boring scenes, which means you wil not feel bored just becasue its three hours.

Overall flow of the movie is good, and the action scenes are , in 3D, not perfect but can be counted as magnificent.

One of the few flaws is that of the 3-D glasses which does not seem to be the right size for my eyes, kept dropping off, had to use one finger to hold it in place...

Next Movie (s) :

- Bodyguards and Assassins

- The Treasure Hunter

Must-watch, or if your wallet / time allows.

2009-12-13T16:11:00.004+08:00

You must know that a person's personality or character will stay with him like his own shadow, throughout his life.

You cannot change it, nor can the person himself.

But if others cannot tolerate or come to terms with it, its their own problem.

People who knows me will know that i am not a loner, and though i do not speak much, its because i cannot interact well with others, not because i am an ARROGANT BASTERD.

No one says i am so, but some things you do not have to say it out to let people know how you feel about them

Yes, i am not able to interact well with other.

Yes, my actions make poeple feel that i am a loner.

Yes, i cannnot commit to interacting with people for long period of time ( and in my case 30 mins is quite long) unless the person initiates the talk .

But this does not mean i cannot do well in group work!!

If you bloody hell feel that my lack of interaction skills or communication skills will afect the group as a whole ( and i can say that whatever i was told to do (eg. research or parts of report), i will do my best to finish it within the time limit), then FINE!

worst come to worst i can accept any group that is willing to accept me as a group member

I dun need friends just because i have few.

I dun need those that look down on me.

I dun need those that cannot accept me as me.

I dun need people who use streotypes to look at others. (and i know i am doing the same thing in this post but i dun care)

I dun need friends just to increase my current number of friends.

I need only those that are worthy of my friendship.

I am not a loner by nature, i am forced by circumstances

i know no one forced me, and this is all my wrongdoing.

but i know the meaning of fairness and separating personal feuds with official work.

If you dun like me, say it out.

Dun use other excuses like you dun want more than 5 people in your group.

okokokokok i know this may seem very biasd and i am limiting this situation to my own thinking and not based on objectivity.

In the first place i should not have post this post and affect my readers, but i feel the need to just vent the pent-up feeligs within myself.

This may look as if its full of slander but i dun care.

I am not aiming at anyone, just the situation i am in now.

or am i lying to myself?

BTBM or not, this is the last semester.

Just get the hell over with it and survive NS.

Tekong or not it does not really matter

What matters is at least i gt a few friends who kows what the hell i am babbling about.

I'll show them i can do it even with this psychological problem of mine.

No one can be denied any fairness and right in achieving success just because they have any communication or interaction problems.

I am starting to wonder if SP DBA is the right choice for me, except the fact that i've made some good friends here.

Needless to say, this is the extreme side of me.

Poeple ask, why i am different when outside and at home?

I might or might not provide an answer in this blog, but its for another time.

but i know that whatever happens in SP, its just a tweeny weeny part of my life.

I have far more important matters to do, to achieve, to enjoy, than to stay here and suffer or cry just because people dun welcome me.

Even if SP dun welcome me, there are people outside who will accept me.

To an extreme, for me, SP is just a place to get a diploma and cca points and to make a few real friends.

tt's all.

besides this, it does not matter if the whole class doe not wish to interact with me, or in a sadder case, fear to.

People change but not their character or personality, but if they do change these two things, then it means they have achieved something great, provided they change for the better.

To conclude,

(1)
In life, you will experience failures more than success.
This is because there will never be success without failure.
The main thing is to accept the failure, learn from it and to apply what you have learnt.
In this way you will not have failed for nothing.

(2)
In life, one of the most important things to do, and also the thing that you must learn to do, is to

LET GO.

remember the phrase: "Live and let live"?

if we forever remember hatred and force ourselves to carry this hatred with us throughout our lives, isn't it more easy to just let go and live a more less stresful and peaceful life?

Only when we can put down truly all our hatred will there be peace in our mind and soul.

but sadly, its not the case in this world.

even i am not able to achieve these things

After writing this post,i feel a little better.

I dun care what will happen for BTBM, lets worry when the time comes.

for now, just do my MMIT and enjoy the holidays (if i can)

Stay Positive!!!
If you ever find youself lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of the people you love.

Their love will get you home :)

2009-12-13T11:12:00.005+08:00

This morning, when i was throwing some hoops in the basketball court just opposite my HDB flat, i met Mr Kelvin Koh, my geography teacher in HSCS.

He was returing home from breakfast at the nearby coffee shop.

we chatted.

I do not remember everything but here are some excepts:

- Mr Koh asked me about my recent GPA.

- He said 3.0 is still ok cos its just a matter of 0.5 to go Uni.

- He said that some unis got exempted courses depending on the relevance of the particular course to that which you are taking currently in poly.

- If i wanted to take up any part-time courses during my NS vocation, it is cautioned that i choose those private intitutions that are recognised in Singapore.

- Safe bets would be national univerities of foreign countries such as ANU (Australia National University)

- I must have discipline in myself as its already tiring having to cope with NS.

- By taking part in part-time courses, after NS just need to finish remaining years eg. one or two years of uni then can obtain degree le, provided the institution that you took part-time courses in is recognisied in Singapore and by the particular university u want to finish your degree in.

- It is better to apply for admission to your chosen university as soon as possible after you graduated, as if you are admitted, the course fees that you need to pay will be based on the course fee for the particular year you applied for admission.

- eg. you applied for admission in 2010, and after NS in 2012, you gt admitted, you only need to pay the amount of course fees stated in 2010, not 2012.

- Advantage is the course fees will always be increasing year after year. It may be more expensive in 2012 compared to 2010, maybe by even a thousand dollars.

- so the earlier you apply, the lesser you need to pay.

- If your aplication failed in this year, you can always apply in next year.

- priority will be based on those who have the highest GPA, and if there are any vacanies left, then the second-highest will be considered.

Thats about all i can remember for our conversation (some info i might have remembered wrongly sry if tts the case ><)

Good luck!

2009-12-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

MSTs officially ended today

back to BD and Dota and Sleep and TV.

2009-11-26T01:56:00.004+08:00

Just completed my MMIT target market analysis

first need to draw tables and graphs based on the tabulazted spss results downloaded from BB

then "analyse" them (which in my case i just put the tables and graphs into words)

took more than three hours (from 8pm to 6-something to 8-something, then from 11pm to 2am)

yesterday's interview was ok i guess.

100% eye cotact, or should i say staring blankly in front?

The interviewer asked around 6 or 7 or 8 or dunno how many questions, but lucky i got prepare beforehand but i got nervious and answered a little too fast without thinking (no time to think)but the good thing is i managed to answer all quesions with only some pauses in between.and i tried not to say "er", 'em" and "ar" . lol.

the way i prepare is ,to others, scary or strange or wierd haz

i was reading my script and speaking out to no one in particular,then suddnely a person came to me ask me if i m alright cos i was, like , mumbling to myself...

a crazy guy talking to himself...but in reality i was reading from my script.

lol.

anyway now just need to do BTBM tutorial then can sleep le..

completed my part for my MMIT project le yeah!!

still got BD which is in... a mess??how many times have i said my BD is in a mess?? cos its has always been a mess...

CSB has notihng le for the time being...

hope i can get back my results and portfolio by next week.

the portfolio veri ex u know, $10 lol.

wat else do i have??

BTBM?? RC??

oh ya RC we doin the window display for a shop in Tampines Mall called "Uptown Kids" the people there veri good cos they actually got heir own designers le, but becos we need this client-based project for our marks so they let us do..thanks!

Today veru suay lor cos we took one whole bag of things there to show the supervisor our ideas, then it al finihsed i had to take this whole bag (think of santa clause red bag and u know how it looks like) cos of a stupid but not practical reason: i live the closest to Tampines mall.

i do not want to drag the whole thing home, so while my other groupmates were busy in the shop, i took out everytihing and rearrange all the small and big bags..

I found that i have a gift for organising things..;)

after what seems like forever, what is left is a small bag dnad a large bag and my laotop and my backpack...

still alot la but much better the=an the santa clause bag..

i scared if i cary the santa claue bag i might be mugged or surrounded by kids asking for presents.

lol

wth i haven do my tut yet

signing off
JL.

List of Suggested Questions for CSB Job Interview

2009-11-24T01:45:00.003+08:00

Hi All

CSB job interview is tomorrow

I've compiled a list of questions that might or might not be asked during the interview.

These questions are taken from some youtube videos and my CSB notes.

Here are them:

1) Tell me about yourself

2) Why did you choose to go to the Polytechnic?

3) Did you participate in any special projects while in polytechnic?

4) What is your biggest weakness?

5) Why should we hire you?

6) Why do you want the job?

7) What would be your preferred salary for this position?

8) Where do you see yourself in five years’ time?

I've done my answers to these questions, hope i can remember at least half of them tomorrow

Good luck for your interviews tomorrow :)

2009-11-20T00:00:00.008+08:00

<20/11/09>
Today went to Tampines Mall to do my Retail Communications Project.

We went straight there after school at round 5.15pm.

I feel sorry for my groupmates who mostly lived in the west.

One of them even lived in Boon Lay..

Our client is the shop "Uptown Kids"

we're supposed to help them decorate their window displays in the theme of Christmas.

We visited the shop, asked some questions then had an individual meeting within our group.

This dragged on until around 8.15pm...

when i reached home, it was already 9 pm i think.

This weekend, i had to do two main things :
- MMIT full company analysis
- BD Financial excel template

Did you realise that i have added two new blogs?

They are "J Secrets Within" and "NS Memory Lane"

I've been working for "J Secrets Within" for quite some time , but my "NS Memory Lane" will only be officially started after June 2010.

However, "J Secrets Within" will not be available for public view except for some close friends. So far, i had not sent out any invites as i feel that its not time yet to release this blog to anyone.

Pls look forward to it.

Check you email some time in the future and you might just get the chance to visit "J Secrets Within".

GPA 3.4, here i come.
I do not want to think about not getting this.

Signing off,
JL

2009-11-12T13:59:00.004+08:00

What a surprise :)

Today Hong Ning, Celine and Qi Zhen actualy gave me a birthday cake to celebrate my birthday in advance.

Actually not really surpried as a few days ago when she smsed me and asked me if vegetarians do eat egg...i've guessed a bit about the cake,but not very sure about it

This is my first time eating my birthday cake outside my house...and with frens around me..

I admit i'm not able to show how i feel openly, and i do not know how to respond when i saw the cake..tts my weaknesss i guess
and i also admit i am not able to hide how i feel , maybe i had a bad day in school and cannot hide my feelings then become moody and most of the time even if nthing happend to me , i dun smile ofen, and suddenly you saw me and i said hi but i did not smile and looked emo to you, pls forgive me :)

and smiling...when i do smile, it would look as if i'm not..i dunno why... and i dun realy look good in photos..

oh and my birthday present ia a bid "book" with lots of pictures and meaningful sentences inside, some of them handwriten by my friends..heard they spent quite some time staying after sch to do it..

Even though i often see others celebrating their fren's birthdays in the Foodcourt or sumwhere else, and it might seem common, but inside me i feel special.

It'l always be in my heart.

i'm happy that even though we had been in diferent clases since year two, and had known each other only since year one, but the feling betwen us is like i had known them for more than three years.

I feel unrestrained when talking to them (compared to my own class), it feels good when its just the four of us (or five before one goes MIA, lol)

realy miss Year one and hope i can go back again and choose Retail or HRM...

em dunno what to write le...

I reeived my part of my motivation, strength and confidence from my friends and family.

Actually my mind is in a blank while typing this post (oops, sry!!) but i ...i do not know how to feel and express my self...communicaton has really been a problem for me since secondary school..i knw in my mind i have four special frens in school, but i can only say hi and bye when i meet them, or if there's realy some time to chat,i feel that i do not know what to say...i really hate myself on this.

They're some of the few friends i can realy interatct with in school.

I know friendship is in the heart, not through your actions, but i feel like i had not done anything to "proof" or to improve my friendship with them, while they had, once and again, provided me with the friendship i treasured.

Its good to know that you have someone to talk to even if others do not lke you.

No matter how badly i feel in class, i know there will always be 4 frens in my life.

and not forgeting some others outside too, but that will be another story...

Signing off,
JL.

2009-11-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

BD presentationis tml

really, i really hate BD

emotionally and psychologically tired

a lot of headaches and frustrations and stress....

done my speech

haven even complete report

hope tml the teacher allow by 5pm or next day or gg.

its 12am...

did Bd from 8 to 10am and then from 1 to 6pm toay.

tml i just present then let them shoot dun care what they say

if it just concerns me i dun give a damn...

just present , get shot then go home !!

yeah!!

Finally i'm free!! (but only for a limitd period and only for BD)

Anyone watching the Channel U 10pm show??

It really nice but i dun like the girl with short hair(Li Wen's aunite's daughter i tink)

and i tink its really sad that Bo Qiao's gf died too early in the show

and they did not put in across seriously , its like she got shot, died and the scene goes to a few months later..lol

anyway the whole damn presentation is finally done..

but now there goes the round of "whu's taking which section to present" thing..haiz

but my team's really doing their job..sometimes i even tok if i had done too little, but i know i'm weak and cant endure for long...tire easily...

i feel more relaxed with them than with my class..more often than not.

signing off,
JL

2009-11-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

Hello

Was watching Secret just now!

My fourth or fifth time watching it...

I remembered watching it for the first time in the cinema...

I remembered it was already showing for quite sometime le...

I went to the cinema and pray that it had not stopped showing....

I was like sitting in the centre of a empty row...lol

the movie was quite nice...Jay Chou's first movie(I think) directed by himself ..

The story plot i need to watch it a second time on DVD before i get the idea..

anyway was still doing BD report...change here and there and here again...

Thrusday like got presentation...

finish editing what my groupmate had edited what i edited..

so..good night everyone.

Signing off,
JL

十月三十日雨

2009-10-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

今天，真的好不开心
连大结局都不让我看
不懂为什么，作天也一样子，看到一半就睡着，结果没得看完
今天更不用说了，连大结局都不让我看完
直到片尾才醒来，什么都看不到
非常懊恼，想发泄一下情绪，却没人理会，而且还被骂。
好烦。

虽然知道可能永远也不能再在电视上看到这连续剧了，除非上网看，但我又不想这么做
这世界就是这么好笑，没晚都在追，结果连大结局都看不到
这件事情，在我心中，无非是一种遗憾，但也是一种无奈。
还能怎样呢？

The day of Reckoning

2009-10-19T20:59:00.004+08:00

Today, through Google, i visited a classmate's blog.

Today, i found out i am really a weakling.

Today, i found out i am really ungrateful.

Today, i found out i had did so much wrong.

Today, i found out i really am anti-social, at least in the minds of other people.

Today, i went across a good quote in one of my classmate's blogs.

Today, i found out a class can be complete without me.

Today, i found out i had not stepped into my previous schools since i stepped out of them upon graduation.

Today, i found out i am worse than many others.

Today, i found out i cannot be a normal person at all.

Today, i found out i have no purpose in life.

Today, i found out i am slowly being forgotten by my friends / ex-classmates.

Today, i found out i had many secrets which i am not able to confess in this blog.

Today, i found out i am not a good friend at all.

Today is the day of reckoning for me.

After Today, i know i still am not able to change for the better.

Today, i hope i can be remembered thirty years from now --

--Not as an loner, but as a real friend.
--Not being anti-social, but being able to interact freely with others.

Today, and right now, i sign off with deepest regrets and apologies.

2009-10-19T14:17:00.004+08:00

Well, today's the first day of school after about one month of holidays.

First day of school, and i've already suffered motion sickness on the way to school.

Had to alight at Tiong Bahru mrt...very dizzy....weak....

now having 3-hour break..

I think it started yesterday when i took bus number 72 from Tampines to Hougang..quite a long trip...

but the laksa there nice to eat...

Hougang Mall..

Then took bus back again number 72..then another bus 292 home....there and then already very dizzy le..

go home bath then sleep le...nvr got the energy to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima" (sry dunno if Iwo Jima is spelt correctly)

Very worried about BD..dunno how to do or continue...

today got BD tutorial...got even more confused and worried...

today at MM and IT practical, a disaster...if not for two new students in this particular module, dun think i can form or join a group with any of the rest of the class at all..

kept yawning and yawning as if i'm on drugs which was not la..

Today received a keychain and a small box of preserved fruits from two friends who went overseas a few days ago...

Thanks for the nice gifts!

篮球火 and 学警出更 showing on TV soon(I think)!! yay!

dunno what to write le...head spinning like a top...dizzy...zzz..zzzz.zzzzzz

zzzing off,
JL

2009-10-02T11:27:00.004+08:00

Found out my enlistment date is around June next year.

felt that my hair is getting quite long....should cut it soon.

BD had not even start yet....quite worried for it.

NS is coming...and haven booked a date for Nafta est.

This post is getting boring and dull...

until next post then :)

2009-09-23T22:10:00.005+08:00

Finally, my exam results are out!!!!

Good news:
I finally got a 3.278 for my semester GPA..:)

My wish came true...

I raised from 2.646 to 3.278... its like a miracle, but lets hope its not a roller coaster.

Its a real relief for me.

The first time my GPA raised above 3 !!( the last time was 3.192 in 2007/ 2008 S1)

I really could not believed it at first..i was really depressed after each of my papers....i never knew i got all "B"s for my exams!! even my GBE (Global Business Environment) got a Distinction~

Now i really believed that i had studied for my exams after all...

Recently found two songs on youtube:

1.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6kjlqhjWzU&feature=related)

2.(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIFLDx-ZtSc&featu)

Just to share with my readers.
Enjoy.

Confidence level + 1

** Was onto "Heart of Greed" these few weeks (Channel 8 9pm)
Next Monday (28 September)there will be a new Hong Kong serial coming up at 10pm.
gonna catch it too. **

:)

Will be posting again soon~

Signing off.
JL

2009-09-13T15:59:00.002+08:00

Found a part-time job at Popular warehouse near Expo.

Involves putting price tags on books.

5-day week, 9.30am til 6pm.

About 15 mins walk from Expo MRT.

Thanks Hong Ning and her friend for giving me this lobang.

Will be working til next Friday.

Went to Army Open House a few weeks ago.

Went to Gundam Fiesta 09 last Tuesday.

Photos will be uploaded on Facebook soon.

C ya.

Signed off,
JL.

Something about me ~

2009-09-07T22:32:00.001+08:00

Found this website from a friend's blog:

Some of it, i found them to be quite true (especially my Soul Urge number)

" You entered: Lim Jian Long
There are 11 letters in your name.
Those 11 letters total to 53
There are 4 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 8

The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.

The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.

The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.

As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.

The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.

Your Soul Urge number is: 7

A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself. "

Taken from : http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp

2009-09-02T22:31:00.004+08:00

Finally

Finished my Semester one Exams on Monday.

Four modules in total.

Now holidays until dunno when.

em

overall, its ...ok i guess except for IA & F.

I became very emo after the paper and waited till everyone went off before i left the classroom...

Though i really hope to get at least 3 this time, i know its impossible again..

nevermind, whatever i get is up to fate and heaven, and also as a result of how much i studied.

Been watching the Channel 8 9pm show.
its quite nice, provides a few new insights into our daily lives.
what i really wanted to see in Hong Kong series would include how the characters manage love, friendship and family.

Sometimes it makes me really envious of them, but of course, its all "just for show"..makes me wonder what it feels like if its for real??

I've always felt that the Hong Kong actors and actresses are 100% more natural and professional than those in Singapore.

It can never be compared.

If i got money, i would be watching VV Drama on Channel 55 by now..

anyway

sometimes, i realy felt that...

i've done so many bad thigs throughout my life that..

loneliness is my punishment, and those precious and few frendships that i am honoured to receive, are my consolations.

it could be seen through the fact that throughout my two weeks of exams, none of my classmates spoke to me before or after the exams.

i know very well that its my fault cos i also did not speak to them in the first place, and this is just a cycle:

i do not know how to speak to them -> they treat me as anti-social and loner then dun speak to me-> they dun speak to me, so i dun speak to them -> etc etc etc.

okok i had to confess again...i dun really treat my class as a class but just as a medium to study and do projects and get a diploma.. but it is not without a reason.
as what i wrote before in my previous posts....i just cannot find the right way to interact with them.

tt's just one reason.

sometimes i realy feel that one or two of them are really against me...but i dun care and dun want to care..

sometimes i really find that some of the people in my class realy treat me as an ani-social loner, but i dun care and dun want to even thnk about it...

i'm really sorry, i have to repeat again and again, but this may be the only medium where i can get my thoughts out in sentences, cos i cannot really tell tis to anyone who is willing to listen OR whom i can recount by just speaking.

like what i have been doing for my other posts, i'm writing what comes to my mind.
i feel that its much more easier to type it out rather than to say it out.

more effective as it tends to stay longer in people's minds and it could be read again and again.
dun have to rmb what i need to say, or what i've said.

you can say i'm a bit lazy (ya, really just a bit :p)

but sometimes...i did try to "merge" into them, in vain, and a very big vain at that.

take for example during my GEMs. I tried to interact by laughing with them and responding verbally to what they are doing, but guess what??

yup, you might have guessed it.

I'M TREATED AS AN INVISIBLE.

wow, so now besides being an anti-social loner, i became the Invisible man. You can call me mr. Invisible.

Does it mean that if someone is not good at the issue of interactivity, you can just anyhow clasify him and based on your own "perceptions" amd "definitions", do whatever you think is right??

sometimes, the Golden Rule does not apply here necessaily
(i.e. do what you want others to do to you, or do what others had did to you)

I'm really blessed to have friends who know i'm not just any anti-social you find on the streets. Nor am i a loner.

and i know what's the point of writing what i feel here?

y not just trash it out with them?
no.

yup, it may seem that i'm also using my own perceptions and definitions when i am writing these, cos i also dnno what they are thinking..

but i'm writng based on how i am treated outside schoolwork.
(which means if there is no projects/ schoolwork/any other things which needs necessary interaction, i'm being treated as non-living or invisible)

ok
i shall stop writing about these..these...these negative issues.

should be happy that exams are over

thanks Hong Ning for giving me the lobang for the popular IT fair !! :)

Wonder when we can get our exam results back??

long time nvr blog le....haz nvr know got so much to write.

btw.....

it feel so good to be throwing some loops (aka. throwing the basketball into the basket)especially when the basketball court is just below my flat..
but it does seem a little bored by myself but its ok..and sometimes i even feel lazy to even go down!! lol but dun worry this won't last long..i will not stay lazy for long..i just went down this morning. yay!

oh no..september need to book NAFTA test le...have nvr passed it before..

need to go NS soon...will i survive?

i have been doing nth for the past two days except playing dota and Freesky and going to the basketball court.

** i know i must be responsible for what i wrote in my blog, and should not just slam eveything into my posts. I'll reflect on this..but sometimes..its really hard.

to be continued.

Signing off,
JL.

2009-08-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Arghhhh

This Blogger thing has really gone Defective and Defunct and Deranged...i cant even add any page elements!!!

what the...

anyway i did very little for today, only managed to highlight eight chapters of one textbook according to the lecture notes..

blogging now..

its alomost 12 am.

but dun feel like sleeping...

a little scared..? stressed?actually i feel like sleeping but my exams are bugging me...

i feel like talking nonsense to anyone in msn now...

previously thought i cannot use my com, but now i can..lol

exam in a week's time.

i will pass all. or its over for me..

anyone out there pls tag me...!

Thanks.

Signing off,

JL.

I want to work hard for my exams!!

Pass all!!

Get a 3.0 for GPA!!

Pass NAFTA???

Essier said than done, but at least i said it out :P >_<

2009-08-13T13:39:00.005+08:00

Hello

waiting for BD tutorial to start..

These few weeks, its like there is a misunderstanding between one of my friends and I...

pls tell me what i did wrong. I need to know what caused this misunderstanding between us. But if it is not a misunderstanding, and is indeed my fault, then let me say : "Sorry, forgive me"

I really hope not to lose another friend..

its a very sad feeling to be ignored..

especially by a good friend of mine..

i know i'm a failure in expressing frendship to my friends, and maybe i sometimes dun feel the need to really show them how much friendship we have between us..

even towards my best friend, i also did not express out how much he means to me.This sentence is very gross and disturbing, but pls do not misunderstand me.(i'm straight)

or maybe sometimes i just like to let my mind wonder to duno where such that i became oblivious to almost evrything around me...

back to other issues:

BD is like ****

I dun even know how to do the report!

yesterday, from around 1pm to 7pm, i sat in FC 5 and just..type whatever comes to my mind..

it does not mean that my course is marketing, then i know a lot about it....this is a very wrong perception..!

but i'm the only one in my group who is studying marketing, so what can i do?

although i must admit the feeling of being productive (managed to at least write something for each of my part) and achievement (stayed in school fom 1 to 7 pm) is satisfying, but so what if i did so much and the teacher just take a look and say this is all crap and rubbish?

i dun care.
i did what i could, and even if its all crap, i did my best.
dun care how others think about our report.

exams are coming...
first exam on 24/8/09.

this is my final year..

pls at least let me get a 3.0 for my GPA..

it seems like when we are chionging for our projects, TV is a luxury. Dota is a luxury. Even sleeping for more than 5 hours is a luxury.

But when we finally sort of stabilised our project and have some free time, we might feel that we had not done enough for our projects, or that what we did for our project might not be up to standards...
this is wat i feel.
Its just my own opinion..

Even if a million bad things happen to you or worse than that, having someone next to you who would share your pain, emphasize your situation and whom you could speak and interact freely and without reservations to, is like a small column of light in a dark and limitless tunnel.

Friendships that truly give you happiness, courage and a sense of companionshp, are rare and few in this world.
Cherish it.
Don't break it like what i did.

Have a nice day.

Signing off,
JL.

2009-07-31T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hello I'm back :)

Phew
Just submitted my GBE report at 5 pm today!!!!!
finally~!

my group and i stayed to 3am last night to do it lor.....

actually, two of them "disappeared" at around 2.40pm, and i so silly wait for them to reply...lol

2.45 pm pack up and flopped down on bed, then less than 4 hours later force myself to wake up...
lesson starts at 8am, but who cares?? especially when our report is , relatively, more important..anyway everyweek for GBE lecture, the MLT is almost empty one...

anyway, thought finally fnish le after the 11-to-3am chiong of references, butbutbut!!!

was told on round 1pm that....have to copy and paste websites of references for dunno what shit...and its not as easy as it sounds.

took 3-plus hours la...so stressed that i almost shouted at my friend who called.(he's like so innocent)

5 pm nid hand in lor!!

wth

the last few minutes to deadtime, the atmosphere is quite fiery...so stressed when doing the last remaining referenes, which is mine....almost harm our group...but lucky we managed to hand in the report on time...when the teacher said (what i heard)..actually we can hand in at 5.30pm.

the printing shop is fully packed to the brim...and though i did not really went down there as i've to help with the references, i can see two of our groupmates rushing to and fo just to print the report...

quite scary, like our lives depend on it..lol

anyway, finally finish le!! yay...still got MC and SM.

so,

Goodnight.

Signed off,
JL.

2009-07-18T21:57:00.005+08:00

Its been a while.

A lo of things happened recently.

How do i feel?

I felt like a stranger, even to my friends for two years.

Realised that life is forever changing, and fate just passes you by without warning.

Most of the time, i dun even have a part in it.I feel so idiotic, so stupid..(its not about any of the things in my previous posts)

My self-confidence's long gone by the time i reached secondary one.

For me, its either i have very good friends, or i have none at all.

I found my first good friends in primary school, but now we have lost touch since secaondary one, maybe even forever.

My next batch of good friends are found in secondary school.

Only two this time round.But it beats nothing, and the good thing is that we are still in touch.:)One of them even went to the same poly with me, or is it the other way round? haz.

Then in poly, i found another four good friends in year one. When we were in the same class then, we got along well with each other.

Until we went to year two, when things started to change, maybe a bit at first.
cos two of them went to HR, one went to Retail, and the other, i forgot where she went to. I lost touch with her since year two.

Year three. i remain regular contact with only my friend for almost six years, who is the one from seconday school.

Old frens are the best huh? Wrong.

Where have all the happines from primary school gone to?

people change, and its true. or maybe i'm too sensitive.

anyway, completed my BD presentation last Thursday. I'm in the Q and A team.and i answered one question, which is good :)

Actually, we were supposed to have a class outing at Vivocity, at the restaurant Marche or watever i dnno how to spell..

but i can't go cos:

- Its scheduled at 7.30pm, and i can't return late( if it starts at 8 and finishes at 10, i'll only reach home at 11.30pm or later..)and only on 6.30pm that i found out at home thru email that it changed to 6.30pm. ok i did not read my email often enough.

- Vivocity is too far away from Tampines (though one of my classmate live in pasir Ris and still going for it, we are two different people; maybe he can stay out as late 12am and take a cab home,but not for me)

- My relationshp with my clasmates as a whole could only be descrbed as "neutral" ; i found that i can't associate with them , or maybe i can't find similar topics to talk to them.thus to avoid any monents where i might be regarded as an extra, i decided not to go. I know i'm avoiding my problems, but ..i really duno, and dun care?( i'm stepping on dangerous waters here..this is not a good thing to say)ok so i can't find the right words to explain myself..

enough excuses.let's continue..

Just completed what i could do for the sectoral analysis for Hungary.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is on Channel five tomorrow!! gonna watch it :)

my laptop kept popping out a message saying " a network cable is unplugged" so irritating....lolol

actually i dunno what to write le.

thus ends my post!

Signed off,

JL

[if you've been reading my posts, pls leave a tag...!!thanks:):)]

2009-07-08T01:18:00.006+08:00

Hi
its me again
time: 1.22am

ok dun complain since i chose this myself....
anyway today stayed back after school at around 4pm to do proj until around 7.15pm then walked to Dover MRT then take train home.
reached home at around 8.30pm....

then bathe, eat,..then on laptop, then slog until now [and leaving Restaurant City on all the way...=) ]
was doing my Services Marketing proj, the one that i said is due on Thurs...
now finished!!yay!

was staying in school to help out for another proj..the one i said presentation this thurs and report next tues...report almost done!! presentation only left editing!!!
yay!!

ok..

so...

left the proj meeting tml..and my part for this proj .

currently saving money to watch Transformers,and to buy present for my sis.

ok.
slping time~

Signed off,
The person who likes to push himself , sometimes too much, but not over the cliff ,yet.

2009-07-07T01:03:00.006+08:00

I HAD ENOUGH.
i DUN KNOW AND I DUN CARE HOW MANY MILLIONS OF TIMES I HAD SAID THIS BEFORE,
BUT I'M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN. i HAD ENOUGH.
ACTUALLY TONIGHT I CAN SLEEP AT 10 PM.
BUT DUE TO SOME **** ******* CIRCUMSTANCES, ITS 1 AM NOW. 1 **** AM.

YUP I PRESSED CAPSLOCK ACCIDENTALLy, BUT I WILL NOT RETYPE WHAT I HAD TYPED.

ok.no capslock.

had to finish my part for a project due Thurs.NOT done yet.
got another proj not due, but meeting on wed.
another proj, PRESENTATION ON THURS, NOT A **** DONE YET.
yup, it may just be three things only, and you may have experiened much more worse than i'm currently in, but in my point of view, no one can save me.
the most you can do is look at this post and laugh if you want, or leave some encouragement, or do nothing at all.
pls give me some EMPATHY, Not SYMPATHY.

If there's anything i wrote that affected you in any other way, accept my apologies, though i feel that what i wrote in this post will affect only me,if not worse.

In case anyone don't know, its Tues NOW.

I'm really disappointed at how things turned out.
at how SLOW i am.
at how FAST time goes.
AT HOW TIRED and **** ** i am.

I'm really disappointed in myself.

If i m able to survive thorugh this, i thank you for reading this post.

Have a nice day,
while for me, BAD.BAD.BAD.

Signed,
Yours Truly.

2009-06-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

I'm back :)

For a start, let's start with a short random post - -

Just a quick random post before goin to watch "Brink of Law" on Channel U

This week's a bit of a hell.
projects, surveys and a bit of study.
2 days of surveys, two days of projects, and i haven even finish even half of my surveys.

em...what should i write today?

its quite hot these few days....round 34 degrees rite? round there, what the newspaper said.

good weather huh?

having my three-week holiday now.

left two weeks.

any updates?? well...i already did, haz.

haz, here's a funny thing: i borrowed a book during the month of May, and now i haven even finish reading through half of it.

opps, hope its not overdue, or must renew again...

but cannot be too selfish la..kope the book for one whole month...

anyway lucky its an old book..The Bourne Identity.em..its old already rite? haz.

shall blog again soon.

- How childish / foolish am i -

Good night :)

2009-05-23T23:56:00.003+08:00

I really hope its about me.

But i know nth is ever about me.

I'm dreaming is it is.

But who has no dreams??

What i need is to face,is reality.

I should stop saying bad things about me.

I should stop affecting readers with my posts (if i did)

Just what have i done?

I didn't even know what i've done...

I didn't even know if i had affected anyone(even in the slightest way) with my posts.

I need someone to tell me straight in the chatbox or email or msn etc etc...but i also know i should stop bothering people anymore.

Yup, maybe its time i stop blogging for a while. Stop posting rubbish or trash or whatever.

I'm not refering to anything, but only my post on 19 May 2009.

I felt like i've taken advantage of blogging to write whatever is in my mind, without any thoughts for my readers.

I'm selfish, I'm thoughtless, I'm sorry.

I can't recall how many "sorry"s i've typed using my keyboard, but as the saying goes :" sorry no cure"

But all i can say is Sorry. and i know i should stop saying that because its meaningless. Is it?

alrite i shall stop writing grandmother stories.

Changes? Nth will ever change even if i change.

We'll see.

*This will be my last post until further notice.

Signing off,

Lim Jian Long

12:18am

2009-05-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

Yup, its me again,though i will be surprised if its not me posting here....

Yesterday, watched a movie on Channel U, 11.30pm
dun think anyone i know will know about this movie, but its ok. :)

decided to push everything regarding sch to tomorrow
i gt one project presentation and two tutorials and one lab exercise.

what else? em...
well i got along well with my BD group, haz...We had a new male member about two weeks ago.

Now goin to Garena to see if gt any available room to play.

Signing off,
JL

2009-05-19T23:43:00.004+08:00

I dunno whatever happens to me
i felt like a failure(once more)

i felt tired even though my projs are not in rough waters.
I just want to be noticed.

but i failed as a friend when i can't even say something useful/measningful to a friend about what she is going through now...

What right do i have in people's lives when i dun even give a damn about how they are doing?

Though everyone is my friend, not everyone treats it so.

Maybe i'm too sensitive, but ....what happens in sch is .... nvm i shall not elaborate.

If a mute can have many friends, why can't a normal person ? unless i'm adnormal?

is communication the only factor here?

I know whatever happens to me, i can only blame myself...as its all due to me .

Different people have different personalities, but why all these people can communicate well together, but not with me?

just tell me where i went wrong!!

yayayaya communications, solo guy, quiet, anti-social......i had already talked abou this in my previous posts!
...looks like i'm just cirlcing round and round....with no destination or goal.

ppl talk to me only about sch work and proj, but nth else.except some rare times.

if i say all r my friends, i can say only a few are real.

what is the meaning of real friends?

are friends just a term for "a person tt i know by the name and who i talked to only about sch work"?

what am i babbling about?

am i being randm today?

is it becos i gt nth better to blog about?

why am i secong-guessing your thoughts? or am i?

i'm just writing whatever comes to my mind?

do i ever think b4 i write?

i really envy others...but what's the point of envying?

i'm in my third year now...but i feel like a immature person, a selfish one at tt.

so what if i admit my mistakes? i said i'll change. where is it?

none at all!

all i can do is daydream!

My good friend has a clique of over 20! but i have nth...yes its my fault, no one else's...

I'm not trying to argue, grumble or complain here...

its my weakness..i can only communicate freely in msn!

am i being over-dependant on it?

am i just a coward shifting around in my tiny four-corner space?

i'm not fit to be anyone's .....i can only be a good friend, nth more than that
becos its after 19/11/2008 that i really start to think...and reflect...and lie to myself before dragging myself back to reality again..i had to face the fact!

i long for company, but what can i give in return? no one wants a loner for company...no one most certainly wants an emo anti-socialist in a clique.Actually i'm netiher! but my actions may have perceived ppl to think tt i am!

Change is not the thing here!
the thing is HOW? do i follow a certain number of steps?
or do i need to act indefinitely in front of them?

actually i do not know what exactly am i trying to convey in this post..

i just wanted to fall onto my bed and sleep.

how will i survive in NS?

why am i wacking my brain so i can continue this post?

can i just stop here?

do i need to continue?
i finally realised another important weakness about me.

i am not decisive at all!!

am i trying to show off or to catch attention by writing all this? if so, why? am i really desperate for company? Am i trying to get noticed? Yes? If no, does it contradict with my 4th sentence?

why am i typing so fast?

my neck hurts!

my head hurts...

my heart...ok stop being emo pls.but no, its not emo..its something else, something more complex, but which actually is quite simple and cruel, maybe?

i found out another thing...i'm talking to myself in this post!
am i?

stop....!

sorry did i scare you...hahaz.
I'm a hypocrite. but it depends on how ppl define it.How i define it. How you deine it.

relax, there's nth wrong with me.

This is a very random post. i'm just confused.or perplexed. or just being silly, wrong in the brain., etcetc, crazy even...

better end this post now.

Sighing off,
JL

2009-05-14T00:02:00.003+08:00

I'm afraid (very afraid) that i'm slipping into the dangerous but tempting habit of procastinating and laziness, again...

i'm supposed to do some research on my Global Business Environment project, but even though i returned home at round 7.30pm, i felt really tired, and enjoyed lying on my bed for 3 hours..the feeling is great..i just wanted to close my eyes and sleep...
so now i'm suffering the consequences for not doing my work early, and its nw 12am...

i just found some websites for what i'm supposed to find, and i guessed tt's it then.

then need to do GBE tutorial, and i'll let IA and F tut alone till tomorrow....
....
my procastination habit is getting worse...pls help me..

when even did i find the time to blog? but its a break for me, and it helped me to stay focus...lol

luckily for me, before my procastination and laziness habit kicks in, i've completed my assignments for my Business Development module..Market evaluation, Features of the industry and Demographic factors...
(i dun deny for some parts of these assignments...i did crap a bit .....)

anyway i forgot i sill need to do some appendix parts for my GBE project....
.....
....
...
..
.
wth

signing off,
J

2009-05-04T13:17:00.002+08:00

I'm back!

Recent Updates (Not in order of date or importance):

- Went to Istana last Friday(Labour day) to help out at Istana Open House

- Starting on Team Contract for my Buiness Development Module

- I'm in a no-man's-group(literally), cos all of my other group members are females..haz

- i'm appointed Secretary..men can be secretary ok ~ em..aka asst. team leader

- We finished our team contract today.

- I actually forgot to bring my Handphone today, and had to buy a new chip phonecard from 7-11 (lol)>> 5 damn dollars..anyway my old chip phone dunno why went out on me then the payphone say invalid chip phonecard, wth

- Chiong "Slam Dunk" on Saturday night(i knw its an ancient anime, but i'm rewatching it.)*bought the dvd at Giants.

i knw can dl on youtube, but the graphics on youtube not nice, and nid internet connection, and hard to search for the episodes, and..................etc etc
and also i bought with my pay, so its ok.

- may be going for swimming lessons on Tuesdays at Tampines Swimming Complex..round $50 fee per mth, and only once each week.is it too ex?

- to be continued.

Signed off,
J

2009-04-11T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Been a while since ive blogged.

This week's ...not veri good.

though fri's off day.

Something happened at home, and i've taken two whole days and two half days..i have to.

so its like...i onli went to work for a day this week.

but its not good..i'd rather work for four days.

its been a blow to my parents and also to members of my paternal family..

however, to look on the bright side, finally i'm able to go to the same GEMS as my friend! and the same class and same time too :)

and its on a fri :)

and one more week left(tink so) til end of ITP :)

and our timetable's....nice should be the word, or cool?

but not as cool as my frend, who gt NO class on Wednesday.
i think it would be better if he gt no class on fri, until i rmb we gt GEMS on fri...hahaz

............................................

Many things happened recently..
and i knw i'm not as good as you think.
Everyone has his or her own probs.
His or her own weaknesses.
His or her own... secrets

I think its better this way.

At least you're happy. And that's great.

At least you found your happiness. That's the point, isn't it?

I dunno any words of support/encouragement/ etc.
but i knw as long as you feel at ease, comfortable, happy, and the sorts, i'll have no regrets.

No sadness, no nth.

And i'll carry on the path of life too.

Signing off,
JL.

2009-03-18T21:02:00.003+08:00

Saw my results today.

Yes, i've deteriorated.
de-proved.

felt really lousy.
besides that, dunno what i should feel. should i feel angry? sad? disappointed? mad? depressed? moody? any other feelings? em..happy?

've been falling and falling for almost three sems continuously.

from 3.2 to 3 to 2.9.

nth to say.

thought my gpa had improved but in reality, it has indeed dropped.
mistook my sem gpa for my cumulative gpa, or is it the other way round?
anyway, both dropped/ decreased by almost 0.2

felt that i'm really a failure, not only in r***********s, but also academically (not to mention i've failed in communication skills as well)

anyone may feel that i'm all talk and no action, but..ok i admit.and that's another reason why i feel like a failure.

yes..all along i may be being negative about myself, but that's because my confidence has been depleted a long time ago. Its in deficit now.

and that's one of the reasons why i may be a hypocrite..tend to hide my feelings and show two diferent sides when with my friends and when alone, but i dun deny i try to cover up my own feelings by not smiling or being quiet sometimes...which led to even more misunderstandings which i shall not elaborate here............................

duno what to type le.

that's all for today then :)

(haz dun worry, i'll be ok.)
~really.

ITP: Special Edition

2009-03-17T21:33:00.004+08:00

Its been 2 weeks and 2 days since my ITP started!

whoa..been counting down the days..and guess which day i like most?

normally people would think its Friday.BUT.
.
They may be -- right this time.

Anyway my job scope, even though there's not much variety, is tough k.

Filing, data entry, checking names...

Sometimes it even required me to take up to five days to finish just ONE task.

I dun deny i MAY be a s.l.o.w workr, but...actually i m.
But i'm not slacking! [ > < ]

Anyway, today i spent the whole day (9 to 6.30pm) doing just one task. and all the things required for the task (eg.files, documents, staplers, copysafe pockets, and Scissors(really))covered around four tables.
yes.4.

it was really .. not really tiring, but really cold..til the point where you just can't think.
your brain kana freezed up to the point before it is certified "frozen".

very low rate of metabolism.

just find it hard to move( but nid to clarify, i'm NOT a lazy person.)

well
overall find that its..comfortable working in NIM.
The staff there are helpful, approachable,...nice...ya.

At least its a five-day work week.[Had frens workin from 8 to 5, for six days :( ]

Anyway we're supposed to be enjoying our holidays now lor ..

Results tomorrow!
hope to get more than 2.8 this time round.
dropped from 3.2 to 2.7 last time round.
(...Maybe i'll check at 12am later..?...)
just joking.

Signing off,
JL.

2009-02-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally Over!
but..i had gone thru three failures during these two weks of hell
1st:FEB
2nd:HRM
3rd:PSCM

My mind just blackout in the middle of the exam, leaving me with an empty mind......
emptiness in my mind.

Just hope i can pass all..dun even think of geting into Honours Roll or even getting at leat a B+ for all...

Just a few days ago, i managed to get four free tickets to the Singapore Flyer, and went there with my family.

I brought along my family's 2 mega-pixel (yup, onli 2 mega-pixel) camera and managed to get a few random shots while we were in the "cubicle" for one round.
Its at night, and there's only two mega pixels in the camera, and my photography skills're like ...dirt, so..well.
the pictures are in my Photobucket album, so if u're interested, u can go to http://www.photobucket.com and search for "jayzican" in the search engine,
or you can try this url: http://s260.photobucket.com/albums/ii37/Jayzican/
dunno whether it works though..

btw, my itp's in two days' time, and i'm working in Nangyang Institute of Management.
Wish me luck..haz..hope its not that difficult...
its from i tink 2 mar to 18 Apr, but y only one month? hope its longer.

Then after that shld be my third year.

Time flies huh?
but time really crawls when you're studying/ during your exam period, at least tt's what i feel.or it is really hat i feel? dunno.

Oh ya...might be taking up Basic swimming lessons during itp period..
hooooooooooope itp is five-day-week.

going off,
signing off.

JL.

2009-02-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

Yup.
I know its time to let go.
We have our own destinies
We have different paths before us
We never know what the future might hold.
Its impossible between us.
This i know from the start.
Its just a one-sidedness on my part.

And we should move on.

Yup. Friends as ever.
It would only get better :)
Good luck for everything too!
let's put this behind. Live for the present. Plan for the future.

Signed off,
Jian Long

Marketing Graduates' Gathering 2009!!( and etc..)

2009-02-07T01:38:00.006+08:00

Today, we had our Marketing Graduates' Gathering at MLT 8, at around 5.30pm

The director , section head of Marketing department, as well as other very Important personel are present for the gathering.

As i had short-term memory, i'll do my best to remember what happens at this event:
firstly we had a talk on Communication Skills.

We had the honour of listening to Ms Elaine Heng for this talk.
Ms Elaine Heng is quite an educated person.This can be seen when her qualifications was being read to the audience. It took about 30 secs to finish listening to her qualifications.
And! She's Ms Singapore International World 2008...
After the talk , we had a short break following which the Director and Graduates arrived .
The director then gave a short speech
I did not know he actually has a little sense of humour..haz

Anyway then the leaturers took turns callingg out Grads to talk about their current situations, such as current occpation, as well as hat they think of SP.

After which we had another talk by Ms Elaine Heng on "Impress at first Sight"
oh ya here's her Image Consultancy Wabsite: http://www.elaineheng.com/main.htm

Then we had dinner! but not for me..haz..i only drank a hot tea, hot coffee and a fruitcake...:(
But its ok cos the talk more than made up for it :)

-------------------------------------------------------

FEB is on Monday..but i haven started yet.

After the talk, i had some inspiration
All along, i knew that taking the first step to communication is very hard, but after the first step, the subsequent steps would be lots easier..

Maybe its becos i've been thinking too much about others' feelings, thus i was quite reserved when communicating to person, especially face-to-face.
i also feel that i should express my real current feelings, thus the absence of SMILE in my face..
oh speaking of smile...i also learnt in the talk on communication skills that SMILE is very important in communication.
we should also prepare a 30s elevator speech before we introduce ourselves to people we had not met before.

Now i know that its actually not that hard to communicate with people and not let people think you are an emo loner or something..
Cos I'm not.But i do not mean ppl may feel this way.
It may just be a precautionary measure.

Yes, i shall change, but its for myself and for my own future, not for others.
All along, the problem's been with me, i'm causing all these misunderstandings from my classmates, and my friends..

I wanted to break free from being treated as ...i dunno...emo?loner?etc?

I had the sudden brainwave that i should implement the "open arms" approach when communicating with my classmates and friends.

If i can break through my fears and cowardly nature,and be less reserved, i'll be able to be just like the others, and expand my circle of friends.

All along, I've been thinking through my mind the various topics that i could initiate with my friends so as to avoid the embarrassing "silent" moment, and some inspiration have been taken from Hong Kong Drama series, BUT at the actual situation, i just could not open my mouth, and i shrinked back to my "normal" self.

People say, "Just be yourself".
The next question may be quite scary, but i sill have to ask, :
" what is the real me?"
If i do not even know the real me, how can i be myself?
am i thinking too much?
Communication is actualy quite a simple thing.
You just have to open your mouth!

But i duno why i tend to think a lot, buy no words came oout.

anyway, i learnt that we should always strive for dialogue, not monologue.

there are other things that i had thought of during the train ride home, but i forgot all about them.

But i knw that we only have one life=> we should make the most out of it!
Maximise the time given to us!Cherish everyone and every moment before they are gone!
I dun wanna die a bachelor, or even a man of few friends!

...

Above are the jumbled, messy thoughts which originated from thoughts i had during the train ride home.
But due to the shortage of brain memory space i had, i could only piece together these thoughts and typed them out before i forgot about them
these thoughts are already disappearing at light speed from my brain the moment i began to blog..
sry for the messy orientation of this post.

Change is a a necessity.
The problem's with me.
I brought this upon myself.
but its a learning process.
The turning point may start now.
Though it might need some years before i can improve for the better.

----------------------------------------------------

I've learnt to let go and forget ;
Hanging on won't get anywhere;
This may even be a release;
Or a releif;
What will be, will be;
I'll put that past behind me;
Forget the impossibe;
Focus on the feasible;
There's nothing to worry about;
Because there's nothing to start with.

Apologies for scaring anyone off.
its just a random post.

Signed off,
JL

2009-02-03T00:14:00.004+08:00

How did i lived through these three days of mortal hell; i have no idea.

Today got FEB presentation, HRM presentation, and com b report submission.

Yesterday and the day before yesterday(which are my weekends), stayed up til at least 12.30am to do my project and Blackboard stuff.

luckily today's presentation not so bad..:)

but today have to finish FM tutorial T2W5 and T2W6, and we also got Business Law project cuming up to be done on next Monday.
PLus Com B presentation on Thurs, i tink..

To sum up:
these few days very tired/busy/irriated/distressed/emo/etc.

but with the finishing of three things today,
and the starting of three more things, PLUS exams with a week to go, well..

Good Day To All.

Signing off,
JL.

Chinese new Year Wish/ Dream list

2009-01-26T01:58:00.005+08:00

Hello!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Here's my list of dreams and wishes for 2009 and beyond~
Dreams/ Wishes for 2009 and Beyond:
(排名不分先后, includes both long- and short-term , as well as feasible and far-fetched dreams and wishes)
(Subject to changes and additions)

- Buy my own camera
- Find a job that I like, that has a fixed base salary
- Get 3.5 for my next GPA
- Continue to listen to Jay Chou's songs
- Learn to play the piano
- Learn swimming
- Get into the sniper devision in NS
- Improve my chess skills(for both Wei Qi and Chinese Chess)
- To be prepared and ready for a relationship within six years
- End of the economic crisis
- Sucessful, fast and effective results for measures taken by Governments to tackle the economic crisis.

And that's the end of today's post!
Wish all readers and their loved ones a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year!!

2009-01-22T23:56:00.005+08:00

Hello~

Its been quite a few days since i last blogged.

Tuesday's FM test was not so bad, except for some stupid careless mistakes, like i mistook "L" as "I", thus adding "LP" instead of "IP" in my calculaions..

Then came PSCM presentation, which is a total turn-off.
Veri hard to explain in the post, and also veri tired to explain, kept typing wrong words, and having to play with the "backspace" button to and fro.

anyway, jut finished my part on "Banner advertising" for my FEB project report.
:)

in the process of starting a new blog in collaoration with another friend of 5/6 years, not even in closed beta stage, but open beta estimated to be out in not around mid 2009 - 2010..

Recently found an onlinemanga of "Hikaru No Go".
It has i tink all episodes, to episode 100+..wow

I really hate Thursady cos we had four lectures and one tutorial, not counting my General elective Module..it stretches the whole day from 8 am to 5pm..what a long and sleepy day, with one whole day of aircon.

but tomorro lectures atarts at 10am!
yes:)...and ends at 5pm....:(

But the good news is e have four days of non-school days(Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues)

Oh ya, today evening, my father's sister's family, aka my small aunt's family, came to visit us at our house.
And i gt to know a little more about NS from my uncle.
and i gt to knw abou the importance of learning to swim before NS.
It's not a secret, but i dunno how to swim(so pathetic), i only learnt how to swim using a swimming board..and that was like 5 years ago..

heard from my uncle that if you dunno how to swim, it would be veri hard to cope after Poly.

look at the time!! (12 am 10+mins)
got to go sleep le.
Good bye:)

Signed,
JL

2009-01-13T00:19:00.006+08:00

Well~

Three full No-resting-at-all days for me..

Sat:
- Went to school at 9 for open house until 3-sumthing, reached Simei at 4-sumthing
-then wanted to go KM play lan , in the end, cannot go(scolded by mom)
-went home slept.

Sun:
One whole day doin the bloody Con B questionnaire..coming to this, it really gets me mad.
Its sumthing like this:

-We were finishing part one of our con b project, which is designing a questionaire.
-Had a not-so-easy time looking for respondents ( But thanks to some good friends found 12 in the end)
-Had a mighty difficult time spending three whole fr**king hours trying to collate all responses into one excel file, and the file i really spent a lot of effort doin it..
-Then comes the fr**king news that we were supposed to go out and use our teachers' questionnaires to ask 12 fr**king people to help us do our survey, and not only that, we were supposed to be following some st***d age quota or sumthing....so the bottom line is....all our responses are wasted!!!all time spent at collating the previous valuable responses are wasted!!!
In the end we had to ask and beg some strangers outside to help us do the surveys which are not ours in the first place....
and it was on this beautiful Suday that our group spent more than 6 hours in the sun in Bedok, and well, to be optimistic, i had one helpful respondent.

reached home at around 5 or 6..another whole day gone.wasted.finished.

Then comes Monday, which is today.
-Whole day at school.
-Reached home do PSCM project
-Then do the st***d collation-of-survey-findings thing, which, ironically, had to be done in an excel file.
-Then have to look for sum st***d advertising rates about an online directory...cannot find any at all except one at a , to me, wuru wuru website..
-I dun even know if its the corect info..
-When all these is finished, well~ its 12.37am!!congrats for another whole day gone!! finished!!
let us celebrate three whole days of unrest, stress and mayhem!!Cheers!

Signed off,
A very tired and neck-pained JL

2008-12-30T23:44:00.004+08:00

To whoever's reading this now, thanks for taking the time to read through my posts:)

Anyway, its one more day to 2009.

Merry belated Christmas and Happy 2009 :)

Many thing have happened in 2008..

but let's have a frsh start in 2009.

Not that i must put everything behind,
~but that i would need to have my life reorganised.

Best wishes, and hope that the next year..would be better.

Believe in destiny,
absolutely guaranteed.

Signing off,
JL, 2008

2008-12-09T21:51:00.008+08:00

Finally
MSTs ended like so long ago...
i think i screwed up two papers but its ok(really?)

Three weeks of holidays now left two, or should i say , one?.
but there's also three projects waiting for me.

anyway, i'll put them aside first
just completed five survey questions for my Consumer behaviour project..
typed it out in Ms word and sent thru emal, cos we're spposed to have a meeting this thurs, but due to some unforseen circumstances, i could not go for it.

My friend's went to Fukuoka for a exchange trip which started last Saturday
So good lor, and its partly sponsored by the School.

i did nt go cos even with the sponsor, still did nt have enough money..
but
i tink i'l go for the next exchange trip if i can afford it :)

thus marks the end of this post.

oh ya..last sun my friends were talking about that if you failed you fm mst, you'll get a msge/sms that reads sumthing like this: ".......(blah).... You are eligible for the FM retest...."
its like....lol, but lucky i did not get this msge.

anyway, this afternoon my friend and i went to TM Glden vilage to watch " Ip Man" or "葉問".
its quite a nice show, the main actor being Donnie Yen.
So tt's all for today.

Signed,
JL
...........................................

Lying and telling the truth are about the same; they both hurt on circumstances.
Its either you get hurt or the other pary gets it.
but its better i get it than others :)

2008-12-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

There's a test on Quality Management tomorrow morning at dunno wat time(8, i tink)
AND i haven even read anything yet.
even if i read now(its around 11.41pm currently), i'll surely forget almost everything tomorrow, and there's 15 whole pages of words to read.....!
ther's not even enough time to write notes, unless i typed them out and print them, but this would waste a lot of ink.....

plus there's another test on Fundamentals of electronic business at 4.30pm tomorrow..
mind is in a blank rite now, dunno what to write...
very fed-up...
tired...
i've been , like slping at 1/2 plus am every night, and waking up at 6/7 am the next morning...
tomorrow have to wake up at 5.30am
..................................

2008-12-01T01:38:00.011+08:00

Its 1.39am.
just finish copying definitions and notes for Financial Management mst, which is today, or tomorrow(1/12/08)
very tired, haven even read the notes, though i did read through the textbook..
but the info in the textbook is totally different from how it was arranged in our notes...everything was messed up....dun even know how to read.

woke up at 6.30am today, then wrote notes until about 11am.
then it became really messy, cos i was supposed to meet my friends at 1.30pm to go to the iT expo thingy at expo.Yup, it was poor and lousy time management on my part, cos i could go out at 12, but i played a little Dota, and can't stop myself...in the end, i ended up bathing and eating lunch before i called my friend while another called me at the same time, so i was like using my house phone and handphone at the same time...
onli managed to go out at around 12.50pm...but luckily i'm not really late.
its like this: I live at Tampines; one of my friend live at Simei, while the other lives at Pasir Ris, so we were like:
1) meet my simei friend at simei mrt
2) Sit back to pasir Ris
3) wait for my pasir Ris friend at Pasir Ris platform.

at first we did not know where the IT expo thing was
we guessed it was at expo.
when we reached tanah Merah, the huge crowd there confirmed our guess.

at least there's still some space in the mrt to expo...

then went to the IT thing....talk crap here and there, went to John Little expo mega sale, but there's nth there, just a lot of snacks and what-have-you, like clothes, toys(for little children onli-we're expecting CD-roms),etc..

then my friend told us he won a psp in a lucky draw, with games included.
well, that's a piece of good news for the whople afternoon.
cant wait for tuesday so i can borrow it, if onli for a short while..

signing off,
JL

2008-11-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

Eversince the first time i met you in Pasir Ris station.
If there's a reason, then its not real.
cos if you like someone because of a reason, then you do not truly like her.
and no; its not an infatuation
you do not need to be special; its not what tt counts.
i was really afraid this would happen, and it did..
...i'm sorry you had to take the trouble to post these to make me understand
i'd be a damn fool or total moron if i carry on daydreaming.
its time to put this down.
sorry this happened, and sorry if it impacted your life/studies in some way or another.
i'm grateful and relieved that we're still friends, that i did not scare you off..haz
yup, i admit i did not understand you enough, and it may be an impulse...but the feeling is true, though i may be selfish cos i did not put a thought on how you would feel, so pls accept my apology

Thanks for your well-wishes.
I get it, but you may be right, these things...you can only really understand it when you meet your "one"..

...haz, enough apologies, wish you luck in your studies.
and best of wishes in finding you "One".
I mean it. Good luck and yup, friends forever :)

Signing off,
J

2008-11-24T09:30:00.006+08:00

Well.
i admit:
i'm really not good-looking at all, some sort of a loner, quiet most of the time, and some even think i'm..emo?
and i've no communication skills watsoever, plus i'm not good at any relationshipional things...
but if being total opposites is the real and only reason, i can change, and i'm changing, only that it would take time.
and i think i knw changing is not a solution and maybe not even the issue here...
Sometimes, I really feel like a multi-personality hypocrite, bt only in the way i present myself and express my feelings..but not my real feelings.
I just wan to know if its possible in the future..
if you think it will not be possible at all
its perfectly all right for us to be friends again, maybe good friends?
I'm really sorry for causing all thse mess/guilt/Awkwardness
, but i wan to know of the posibility only.nothing else.
I dun mind anything, i can accept, but i do not knw if others can accept me. that's why i know i need to change.but i do not knw when i could fully discard my present character/personalities.
so..off to depression! and three days of crying....
Just kidding.

Its ok.
If you change your mind, just call me.
Available 12/7.
Friends for life.

Signing off,
J.

2008-11-21T09:09:00.007+08:00

I think i know, but i dun want to know.
I think i understand, but i dun want to understand.
And i dun even want to think about it.
I know its hopeless, and there's no results, but it look like i'm being childish this time round.
From the start, i knew it would end.
I'm just not ready for anything, nor suitable at all.
But at least let me know it straight.

There's no point holding on, but why am i so tenacous?
words just flow into my mind as i write;
It may be a totally lame misunderstanding, but i dun mind.

I'l forget everything about why/who/what/when//where/how i wrote this post the moment i press the "PUBLISH POST" button, but it'll stil stay in my heart, and no, i'm not avoidin responsibility.
and yes, maybe i'm writing this post cos i gt nth better to write or i'm just bored.
Dun worry; its has nth to do with anything/one in SP, but it also does not imply that someone/thing else must/surely had a part in it.
Imagination runs deep, but dun let it run wild.

Not giving up yet.
Crapping off,
J.

2008-11-19T14:15:00.003+08:00

Wednesday...
another day that i like
only one hour lecture.(9am- 10am)

just completed my FEB presentation on Monday.
As usual i talk like a machine gun or a train.
My teacher once told me about this problem of mine before, but i just could not "delete" it.
Whenever i'm in a state of anxiousnes or anxiety, i would either stammer or talk like i'm rushing a train.
But its over, so let's not talk about it anyore.

Back to today.
After Consumer Behaviour leson,went to the printing station to bind my FM tes.Its too thick le, cannot ataple, always fall off, or its quite untidy, so just bind it.
Costs $1.40....

Then go lunch, do sum( and really just some) writing o notes for consumer behaviour, then play doata with friend( was killed 8 times, while my friend as "beyond Godlike..." lolz..it was fortunate tt we are playing against AI, not each other)

Then my friend go lesson while i go to the washroom.
After which i came back and as usual there was not a single plac with a usuable plug(some f the plugs in the foodcourt are "de-elecrified" which means if you plug your charger into these plugs, your laptop wil not receive any electricity, but luaky for me, i found some tables with usuable plugs at the far en of mthe foodcourt, whee you wil be facing the windows, not against it. Its quie uncomforatble (lack of privacy as everyone can see everything on your desktop, BUT my desktop is clean, really!)

Anyway, after like an hour, i tried moving back to other end of the foodcourt, where there might be more tables where your back is facing the windows and you would get more privacy, but to no avail...until i found a corner seat.
had no choice but to take it.

then i started reading thru some of my friends' blogs until i saw there is a an empty four-seater table. So i moved over and......so i shall stop crapping about my boring life..haz.

btw,
msts are nearing....in week 7 and 8, and this week is week 6.
until next post then.
Signed,
J

2008-11-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

TGIF
We had our "Pre-ITP Seminar" on Wed.
It basically talks about some stuff related to our ITP (Industrial training Program, i think), which we'll be having in March to April 2009.
Its in MLT 9, at around 3pm.
What was the talk about?
i forgot, but i know that we were each given a logbook.
oh ya, there was a lecturer there talking about what to write in the logbook, what to expect for the ITP, etc etc etc, and also about things such as how to prevent sexual harassment at the workplac, and what to do if it happens(...)
Anyway, it went on for an hour, and that is before we were told that we had to move to another mlt for another one hour's talk.
we were like, ........, but attendence will taken, failing which one grade would be dropped from our total marks...
I forgot what this talk is about also, but i remember we had to pass some online tests in order to be able to do our ITP.
and i think it also touched more on what is in the logbook..

back to projects, which regrettably, i had not touched on for a while.
we were supposed to have a meeting thru msn, but the group members were either "appearing offline", or they were offline literally.
Dunno what to do.
Was told need to do report, but nobody there.Case dropped.

came across a website called http;//www.howthemoneyworks.com, or sumthing like tt.
its an interesting website where you can buy and sell shares, virtually.
Everything else is according to real-life data, except tt the money isn't real.
so you can buy and sell shares, earn profits or lose them all in a day.
its quite fun, but it depends on personal taste.
If you're bored, its a good way to "waste" away your time, i think.
and its free.
just sign up, and you can start trading now.

until next post then.

2008-10-31T22:09:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i last touched this blog.
Its been about three weeks since sch restarted with the introduction of sem three and all new modules like Business Law, Fundamentals of Electronic Businesses, Financial Management, Human Resource Management, and Principles of Supply Chain Management.
Already we had projects for PSCM, HRM and FEB, i think.
Yesterday was doin FEB project, and now also doin it.
Have to look for websites and write down information of the site such as site navigation, product features, customer assistance, customer services and company information.
What a whole lot of ----
just write what i can think of lor, cos the website will not giv u ans; u hav to think of them yourselves.
heard that Red alert 3 Premier edition has already hit town, but at a costly price(literally~)
so i wouldn't even dream of buying it...

or maybe i should say i can only dream of buying it.

haz...anyway today is friday, have been waiting for this day every day of every week week.
But not because today is halloween. (happy halloween btw~)
but because tomorrow is saturday and the day after that is sunday.

Then i shall end my post today with this fullstop .

2008-10-15T12:22:00.008+08:00

Just found out that i'm really having serious short term memory span.
1) A friend was asking me bout the name of MY FM tutor for this sem, and i do not
knw what is her name, though we had FM tutorial yesterday.
2) I was asked what grade i had for my MR last sem; i dun remember, though i just
checked my results less than a month ago;
3) I was asked who my QA lecturer was last sem, and i do not knw his/her name.

Though this may imply that i could be an ignorant fool who couldn't be bothered about names and grades, but i knw i'm not, and i would rather refer to this as a problem regarding my short term memory span.
which means if i did not realy force myself to remember anything, like during revisions for exms, then there's a high chanc i might forget something and if asked suddenly about anything , i can only answer with a "i dunno" or "i'm not sure".

Am i really that useless?
What has been in my mind all along, filling up so much memory space?
I dun really mind about what my friend might think when i answered " i dunno/not sure" to almost all his/her questions, but it cannot go on like this..
It not just a mental block, but it can't be as bad as a permanent case of Amnesia or Alzheimer's disease, right?

But i dun think there's much to worry, as from what experts say, mild memory loss is quite normal, especially as we progres with time.

So...oh ya
signing off, bye.

2008-10-08T15:41:00.010+08:00

Hello!
This few days, i've been "chasing" a Hong Kong Serial on Channel U ("学警雄心")
Tonight last episode..
And i've also been playing a MMORPG called Bounty Bay Online.
And doing house work like sweeping the floor and mopping the flooor.

I just applied for my GEMS (General Elective ModuleS) this morning.and surprising, it took only less than five mins!
Its quite a smooth ride, cos usually it would be quite lagging due to the huge number of students applying at the same time
Within a few steps, i suceeded in applying for " Quality Management".
Normally, when i applied for a Gem, i would look at what we need to do for it, such as any tests, quizes, or projects.
For Quality Management, it onli has tests, quizes and assignments.

We started applying for GEMS during our second semester of our 1st year.
We need to go for at least one of each of the three clusters of GEMS, namely Business and Management, Arts and Humanities, and Science and Technology.
I went for two of the clusters, Arts and Humanities and Science and Tech le, so left Biz and Management.
and Quality Management is under Biz and Management, so naturally i'll need to go for it.
Of course there are other GEMS under Biz and Management, but they are either clashing with my time-table, or i have not much interest in them.

I believe that exam results are a little like riding a roller coaster.
At first u may rise to the top, like when ur results are improving, and u might feel quite excited and anticipating, but when the roller coaster hits a standstill for maybe a split sec(before it falls), it seems like u have no progress at all, and u may feel like u may feel that this is ur standard of exam results, but when suddenly it falls,( which means ur results falls), u may feel a sudden lurch and the word "fear" comes into ur mind, and u really want to shout out loud. Sometimes the roller coaster falls at a very fast speed, and u dun even have the time to breathe nor do anything to stop it... but then after some time, it would slow down and come to a slow stop; no more falling, just rumbling on at a horizontal platform, and then it stops.
Some would climb out and vomit, while some would say " no more roller coaster rides for me"

In linking to results terms,
The first type of people may vomit after the ide, but after some time, they would feel better and may think that they are ready to brave this type of ride again.

the second type of people may feel that they do not like the ups and downs of their results, and just want to remain a norm, horizontal flow of their results, like sort of maintaining it at some level.

Of course , there are many other types of riders..
all these are just some thoughts that come to my mind as i write, though i dunno wat i'm actually writing about...

More posts coming soon.
Bye.

2008-09-17T10:47:00.003+08:00

Well, today, we gt our results.
My GPA dropped by almost 0.5(yes, a whole 0.5) from 3.2 last sem to 2.7 for the first sem of 2008.

i only got 1A, 2Bs and, ...4 CS
This time round, i really dropped, like a roller coaster cruising down the tracks
....all the way down....
2.7!
not even a 3..
i was hopping to get 3.3, but nw i only get 2.7....
but well, its better than failing rite?
and yes, i should be grateful for what i get (No sarcasm really)
its just desserts for me.
but i promise my next goal would be to get at least 4Bs and 2As.
that's the least i can hope for.

Thus ends my post.

2008-09-14T23:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!

The moon is quite round and bright today, but i heard its gonna be more round tomorrow.
Anyway, this morning went with my mom to watch "Money Not Enough 2"
I feel that this movie is equally funny and sad at the same time.
The director might be trying to input humour into sadness, and the other way round too.
But its quite a good movie overall.
Only one thing is not good(at all):
This movie costs a bomb, and exploded in our pockets, causing a major burn.
$10 each, and we're so smart to watch movie at a Sun.

Cos in my history of watching movie, i had never,ever watched movie on a Sun, let alone a Sat.
Sat i dunno if i have, but definitle not on a Sun.
...i initially though its $7.50, but was utterly shocked when i knw it is $10.
let this be a painful lesson for me...:(

This few days, i've been quite bored to the extent that i managed to rewatch finish all twenty episodes of " Under the canopy of love", and memorised the lyrics of a song, beside other things.

at least i did not waste my time away(or did i?)

so, this ends my post, gdnite.

2008-09-12T23:49:00.006+08:00

Hi
these few days, i'm quite free cos i have not found a job yet, and its now exactly one month left til sch reopens..
anyway, because i'm a little bored, i shot some photos using my handphone..
the following are some of them , taken before the exams and after them.
some of these picts were taken from SP, while others are taken in Tampines and near Expo.
as these picts are taken directly from a handphone, pls forgive me if the quality are a bit....not good, haz.
But i hope that if anyone is feelng stressed or wat, u could be able to find some "inner peace" by looking at these picts, not that they would definitely help or what..(lol)
but before that, a little disclaimer: i'm just an amateur photographer, and i'm just taking these picts using a not-so-good hp..haz
anyway here are them..enjoy.
(note: you ar able to find thses picts in their original "versions" and other picts at http://s260.photobucket.com/albums/ii37/Jayzican/)

..thus ends my post.goodnite.

2008-08-31T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hi

Yes, that's the end (for now) for my exams...
My aim for GPA is around... 3.3? Hope i'm not asking for too much..?
anyway, the exams are ok, i think...except for the ones which requires maths, like FMA (lost bout 40 marks on that)

MR was my last paper, lasted for two hours...seems like a long time....but overall, should be able to pass everything, and maybe get at least GPA of 3.0 (slim possibility, but its still a possibility)

so...Sat, which is today...went for a two-hour meeting in school for the upcoming monopoly challenge organised by SPSE. I'm in the tabulation unit, which means i'll be typing in scores for the individual players.

Finally uninstalled Cabal, given up hope on it..
and revived my interest on other games like..em...Age of Empires, Battlefield 2, and DOTA.

tomorrow goin to RSAF open house, then to Suntec for ....i forgot the name of the event, i think its called "Comex 08" or sumthing like that.

next week not so free, got stuff relating to the monopoly challenge on Mon and Tues.

so maybe will find a part time job after next week, dunno if anyone's hiring sumone who can only work for, like, four weeks??

.........................................................................................

Many things have happened since the start of the exams...or even before the exams.
when one finally ended, its just the start of sumthing else.
no, it will not end, but will last, though i know i'm not ready for it, yet, but i have to build a foundation fast before its too late.

Thus ends my post.

Signed,
Jz

2008-08-19T22:55:00.004+08:00

Two hours of torture..

It was FMA day (Financial Management Accounting)..
cool---42 marks gone like that...or am i exaggerating?or do i have a high uncertainty avoidance?

well...
-Cash budget(12marks)
-Statement of changes in Equity( 6 marks)
- Production budget, DM budget, etcetc...
almost flunked me la!
...Its maths!!
and its from 6pm to 8pm!
the worst time ever....to have an exam.
and guess where i live?
You know it. And now you know why.
And in case you dun know, i live in a very far away land call Tampines.
so why did i choose SP in the first place???
because the name is good?
because it has a good reputation?
because it is in another far away land call Dover?
because my one of best friend also go there to study while another goes to a JC and i dun have enough points to go JC?
because............?
there are too many reasons (or am i just making up them as i type?)...
anyway, i reached home at round 10+ *pm*
but the good thing is tt i have a free rest period cos my next exam only starts on 22.8.08!
and rest assured there's no more "night exams" for these two modules.

Then comes QANL and MR..
the last two.

But they are on 22 and 29 Aug, quite far (or is it veri near?) from now.. :)
today is 19...still got three more days... one day for me to procastinate, and two days for me to feel veri stressed and freak out, and the last day also to rush thru my notes.

So thus ends my post for today...
Good luck for those who pass thru here, who are having exams too.
All the best! And have a nice day/ night.

Jz out.

2008-08-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

Good evening

two cAs gone, bye to UCCD and SSM.

But I still got three exams, FMA, QANl and MR.
FMA can go fly kite le, and while i may have sum hopes on QANL, it may just be RIP for MR( and that's if everything goes smoothly)

Anyway, just finished reading thru ( and i realy mean only READing thru) four chapters of FMA, which took me close to four hours..

and i haven touched on the tutorials , yet.
but the important thing is i took the first step by fighting my procastination to read the lecture notes in the first place...

anyway, FMA's on 19.8.08, still got em...bout 4 more days...

I really do not like anything associated with maths, it really sucks...
and FMA is related to maths..
One of my worst night(and day)mare!

Wish me luck, hope i survive, and pls let me pass all.

Thus ends my pathetic post.

Jz out.

2008-08-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

Good evening.

Its 09.08.08 today.
Happy National Day!
Yesterday, its 08.08.08, which some of my lecturers said is an auspicious date which means getting rich in Chinese, i tink...and its the opening day for the China Olympics.
anyway, we would not experience this date ever again, until the year 2108, but there's a slight possibility that some of us might be able to see it.:)

Finally wrote finish my notes for SSM, which i refer to my lecture notes. I dunno y, but i feel that writing notes from lecture notes is a better way to study( at least its not as boring as reading)
It about 10 pages long, and i took about two days to finish.
But i haven even read yet.and still gt UCCD.
Our next CA for SSM is on 13.08.08, and UCCD is on 12.08.08
Four more days, but actually only three days left.

Tomorrw need to read UCCD , for one whole day, just read, and hope i can read finish in one day.
Or else its GG for me...
And that's a great thing right?
N.O.

So..wish me luck, and for those who is in the same boat as me, good luck and all the best too.

Jz out.

2008-08-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

Good evening ladies and gentlemen
welcome back to my next post

Acually i just finished doing the exercises on three QANL chaptrs, namely LP-Simplex Method, Inventory Management, and Project Management.
We will be having a lab test tomorow morning about this chapters. The only good thing about this is that the teacher will be giving us formulas, so we do not need to memorise the formulas, and the bad thing is we will be tested in the form of Excel and QM for Windows.

Also coming up tomorrow is the presentation for RWPS.
later still nid to write the speech.
but lucky that's about all for tomorrow, the rest of tomorow i dun even wan to know about..

Today i went to EA.com to check out Red Alert 3. It realy revived my desire to buy Red Alert 3, which might be out in OCT 08.
New fractions, new units, new graphics, new features, upgrades for the previous units, etc etc.
BUT.BUT.BUT
i'll have to see the prices first la, haz
if its >$30 (which has a 99.99% possibility), then maybe i'll not, and can't, buy it... ):
but if i can buy it rite, then i would have red alert 2 and 3! wat a wonderful feeling...

now i'm still playing the old (and antique) red alert 2: Yuri's revenge
for the friend who lent me this, pls dun feel offended cos i'm actually praising it as the word "antique" in this case means "object of an earlier period, valued for its beauty, workmanship, ...", not the other meaning, so just give me more time, thanks!
(though i've been holding on to it for like ages..)

Wednesday got PSYC test, but its a mcq test, so not so hard.
but i just read the whole ook la(actually just 9 chapters), just in case.

thus ends my shift.
Have a great day.

Jz out.

2008-07-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

Welcome back to my next post.

Last Friday, i went to Suntec City Convention Hall level 6 and 4 to help out as a volunteer for the Singapore Garden Festival.

The hall was separated into two main parts; Landscape garden and Fantasy garden
I did not know why i went there, maybe just to acompany my friend..?
Anyway,i was "posted" to Landscape garden o1 , i tink, if i'm not wrong (symptoms of short memory span)
Basically, my job was like a stationary guide, which means explaining to those who visit the landscape garden (yes, inside the hall) about the concepts of the garden.
i onli took one shift, frm 9am to about 4pm.
Then i went to the volunteer longue to do my fma tutorial(...)
and at the same time, wait for my friend, who took both shifts until 6pm.
actually its not until 6pm, but he wanted to leave early for some impt reasons.
i may put some picts in if i remembers and after my friend send me the picts(*they are taken from his camera)

so...on to sum impt happenings...

Tues(last week)

i woke up in the morning and scared myself close to death.

i tok i nid to print out and hand up my rwps report on that very day.

i chionged thru it that morning and when i rushed to sch, into the tutoril room, the teacher tld me that we're actually supposed to hand in next week, which in this case is today,this week.

Mon(yesterday) gt ssm presentaton

and, ... about the SA report, its actually an anti-plagiarism report which helps to analyse our rwps report and produce some kind of plagiarism percentage.
another shock for me, i gt 64%.
64%!!!

then i realised i put in the questionnaire in the report i uploaded for analysing.
wat a not-so-clever mistake.
the questionnaire was a standard thing given to all those who do the pushcart case-study for the rwps report, and i go put it in my report, of course confirm-chop plagiarism onela...
becos it has alrady been designed by someone else.

now just received more info for my psyc ppt slides, nid go chiong again le.

see u next post then.

Jz out.

2008-07-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

What a fantastic memory i have.
We were supposed to hand in our ssm report on 18 July 2008, and yesterday, i stilll thought the deadline is on 1 Aug 2008.
In the end, it was my other group members who had to compile the report, and i really felt very sry for that.

Today we gt 3 hours of break, and i actuallly wanted to do my QANL tutorial during the break, but...well..
i used up about two hours eating and playing com, and the last hour is spent checking thru the ssm report.
thus, after sch, stayed back to do qanl tutorial(dun wan to bring hme, cos at hme harder to do)
Interestingly, i took about two hours to finish seven questions( i tink not even seven cos i dunno hw to do one qn)
then i realized we gt ssm presentation next week, and fma ca next tues too (gg)
cool.
so...
i went hme.
we were lucky there are seats available on the mrt, or else we would have to stand all the looooong way to Simei(my friend n i).

It seems hard, but during these stressful times, even the minor things in life would keep you going and reaching for your goal, and dreams. I'll wait for that day to come, after making sure i am ready for it, and am in the neccessary conditions to be able to put my committment into it.

Thus ends my post.
Jz out.

2008-07-16T10:54:00.003+08:00

These few days....
i just dun feel like doing anything at all...
SSM,UCCD,PSYC, RWPS.........etc etc etc etc
stressed and tired...
today, during uccd presentation, i was doing a self-evaluation of myself as i presented my slides.
our group members took turns presenting our own slides.
for my first turn, it seems ok
then i totally crumbled during my second turn to present the slides...
and to make it worse, Q and A chipped in to crush me flat. I just stood there like a statue as others asked me questions. Of course i think i know how i would fare( i hope having 50% would not be over expecting).

Then there is the ssm thing.just finished six whole files of just one part of the report. think too much info le.
And not to forget the rwps report
For the past four days, have been staying up until 12am to do all these projects.
later still got SSM lecture, and stil nid to go orchard after tt to do ssm project cos my group member gt dental apointment (u can't ask him to go orchard, then back to Dover again rite?)but before that i still gt GEMS!!!
anyway, after all these crap, tomorrow sch starts only at around 2, but morning still need to do rwps report (wth)
Of course, there are other things as well, which i shall not disclose here...

it all boils down to this: I can't give up now; once i'm committed, i'll not back down until i've achieved wat i wan and nid to, even it means breaking me down to skin and bones, BUT it does not mean that i can survive till then.The mental side of me is never giving up, but the physical side is collapsing.(My endurance level is about nil, but four years of NPCC at HSC kept it from bearing being extinct in me)

AND!
Next week gt 2 tests, and 2 weeks tt, another test
Too tired to look up the dates.
or maybe my procastination attitude is acting up again (i'll keep it in check, i promise)

So tht's the end.
Til next time (if my remaining strength and will permits)
Jz out.

2008-07-08T17:56:00.005+08:00

A new post, a new day.

The msts are over, but in two week' time, the CA3s would be here.
Up to now, i'm certain that we ould be having CA3s for SSM and FMA.
The strange thing is that for all three of my previous msts, i gt about 70-sumthing for my marks, one of the worst in class(...)

Anyway, we have bout three projects goin on now( SSM, UCCD, and PSYC)
nt so bad, but just as worst.

Finally found a song which i had not heard of in a very long time since the last time i watched the anime in veoh.(Which is veri, veri long ago indeed)

Yestrday stayed at sch until 8-plus doin project.i was supposed to find sumthing about the taboos and blunders to avoid in the workplace and also the gift giving etiquette, when doing busines in Thailand, as par of UCCD project.

caused/persuaded my friend to stay back with me as well, though he's from a different class, AND a different course. cool. Thanks!

managed to do finish my project part in less than four hours( or in more than 2.5 hours)

then took mrt hme( Still in Dover then, on course back to Simei)

we were quite surprised to find empty seats in the mrt! Yes, Empty Seats. after 6pm but before 8.30pm.

reached hme at around 9.30pm, in time to watch the second-last episode of "When Rules Turn Lose" (though it was an "old" serial, as my sis put it.)

oh ya, not to mention my RWPS individual-cum-group project.
today we discussed a bit, then i had no choice but to deicde to begin a "major revamp-cum-redo" on what i had did so far.What the-

Changed my blog adress just yesterday. just felt like it, but of course not before thinking thru la.

i cant believe i'm actually blogging at sch. finished my classes about an hour and 18 mins ago, according to my laptop clock.

Maybe i won't wait for my friend, who had a Jap class frm 5.30pm to 7.3o pm.
cos i had to rush hme... to watch the last episode of "When Rules Turn Loose" and to do other things as well*not that i'm not a loyal friend, or selfish or wat, but its due to circumstances :)*

So, gotta go, til next post...

J out.

2008-06-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

The mid-sem tests are finally over!
After three long days of going between Tampines and Dover, we now have four free days to ourselves(counting sat and sun).
Mon we had FMA(Financial management Accounting)
Tues, QANL(Quantitative Analysis)
Wed, MR(Marketing Research).
Overall, i feel that all three tests have a not so low chances of getting a passing grade.
Mostly i focused on FMA and MR.
FMA: i tink i used bout quite some time to write out notes from the lecture notes.but did not memorise.
QANL: Read only. Did not memorise.
MR: Write out notes, twice.Read.and .Memorise, but only when taking the mrt to Dover on the very same morning of MR test.cool.lucky gt one hour, or else...well...?anyway, its all over(the tests), and then its back to projects.I have PSYC, UCCD, and SSM waiting to pounce on me anytime, waiting, watching,...like a predator..
ok.
now for my goals(a.k.a impossible desires):
i hope to get a gpa of maybe ..3.3?
its just a wild hope, but maybe can.
so that's all for today.

"If there's a chance, grab it; if there's no chance, fight for it; if all else fails, never give up."
Til next time~

2008-06-07T18:12:00.003+08:00

"It stopped on 20/5/2008, but was revived on 8/6/2008."
"Its not the end; it haven't even began"
well, its been a week since my holidays started.
We have a total of three weeks of holidays.
And the next two weeks are most likely dedicated to revision, or simply reading the notes again( to make it less complicated)
One whole week gone in a blink...
i wasted away 120 hours without revising anything.(not counting today)
but its okay, there's still two more weeks
we onli have three modules to study for(or is it too many?)
FMA, MR, and QANL....
starting from i think 23/6/08...so near, yet so far(or should it be the opposite?
anyway,
got my "MS Office Specialist" cert (MS Word) , specially delivered from overseas in a First Class mail (Although i bearly passed the test with my poor and humble skills)
yaya its really nth to be proud of, really.
actually i managed to do sumthing related to sch in the first week of holidays-- two tutorials.
that's all.
Been reading "Romance of the three kingdoms" (Chinese version) for the past three days.
I bought it for about $5 from the Popular sale in Expo Hall 6 i tink
and managed to read half the book in three days.
Not too boring , bout the contents, if you could imagine what happened in real time by just reading the lines and oines of paragraph and forming the pictures in your head , like watching a TV serial, onli its much cheaper than buying a DVD.
There's a new TV serial cuming up on 10/6/2008, 10pm channel U, called "When Rules Turn Loose"--i think i'll be catching it till the end.Quite a nice serial..
So that's it for today.
Until next post, then.

2008-05-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

Good evening.

the last three days is quite rush
sat, sun, and monday, rush thru UCCD and started on SSM project
its like three whole mornings-til-evenings thing
its one of the times when i totally messed up a whole report, and a team mate had to "change a lot of things"...it crushed up my confidence and all (ok, some of) my hard work, so in the end i had to "squeeze" all my info into just four pages from the previous five.

today i almost forgot to do my tutorial-- i watched tv until 10pm, then realised gt tutorial.
theni chionged until finished it bout 30 mins later.

oh ya
about the SMART results, we'll have to wait till this friday to see them.
then i'll knw if i'm in.
But to say the truth,
i'll actually be relieved if i'm not in.
This's becos i've always know that i'm not so good at communication skills, and at most is good at onli one-to-one communications, and joining SMART in the first place is just to test out how well my communication skillls actually are(although i felt really fake during the interview), and also my friends psycho me into it(in a sense).

anyway
one more week til holidays
and three more projects to go
after holidays then Mid-sem-tests le

been slping late for the past four days, including today
really found out more of my weaknesses during these days too.

however..
Hakuna Matata~
All will be clear after a period of darkness.

Signing off,
Jay.

2008-05-14T17:11:00.008+08:00

Welcome back to the evening news
This is Jay, your commentator for tonite.

ok.Recent news.
1)
Went for the Student Mentor smthing Academic Relationship Team (SMART) this afternoon.
Actually, its not really an interview, but more like sumthing like a group discusion, which i sux most.
So you could see me sitting there like a stone, among the other people( and is it a bad or good day? cos i was grouped into a group of all girls except one boy, other than me.)
Then we were "splitted" into two groups, and so i was the onli male in that group of four.
then we nid to chose a topic from among a list to disus about, one for each person.
then blahblahblahblah...
at last it was time to talk. to the whole group of eight.
the onli consoling thing was tat we were given onli bout 1 min to talk about our topic.
and i was the second speaker.so fast.
b4 tat i told myself: must have eyecontact.must speack clearly.must have eye contact.must speak clearly.must have.....
in the end, i achieved none. and the salt to this wound is tat i tink i spoke too fast.and i kept looking down at my "script".
and the leader of the group(sumone from SMART) kept asking me to speak up often.

so say goodbye to success into SMART.welcome kickout.

started "revising" for my Microsoft Office Specialist Challenge last night.

the study guide was like, the great wall of China, onli its the great wall of Microsoft Word.

(i should start rereading a book called " MS word for Dummies")

actually i took the challenge not becos of the name, but becos of the 2 cca points upon application, and the very slim possibility of obtaining a MICROSOFT office specialist certificate(if i'm not wrongabout the name of the cert)

a cert!

wow, o.o , lol

anyway i dun think i would be able to finish reading the study guide before friday, where the test is to be held.

Butbutbut

a pass might be possible

must be positive!(by ignoring my limits)

Weather news

Thse few days, the weather is not quite good.

gloomy day today

it rained yesterday and yes-yesterday(or did it?)

sunshine/rain/wind to be expected in the next few days.

so that's all for today. Have a nice evening

See you next post, same time, same blog address, different day, different news.

Stayed tuned.

For more boring news.

Signed,

Jay

Commentator, JayNews.

2008-05-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

Good evening .
Its been about 21 days(or about 504 hours)since my last encounter with this blog.
I've been taking my GEM, psychology and councelling, for about 4 weeks, but there's still nothing in my head except for the four temperaments, emm...
Melanchloric, Sanguine, Phlematic, and one more which i had clearly forgotten, and i don't even know if these are the correct spellings.
anyway, recently i signed up for the MOS challenge with one of my friends.
I took the word challenge because i was more familiar with it.
But i'm sooo poor that i had to share registration cost with my friend.
and i thought the door gift would be some exclusive thing, but it turned out to be a --- ...
file. But not a bad one. its something like a ring file, only thinner.
might have been sponsored by CNB.
but if i passed the challenge, which is something like a test where there's lots of tasks for us to do, i would be getting a cetificate endorsed by Microsoft itself.
IF i passed.
and i haven started practising yet.
The cca drive last week, was well, ...
The tennis cca, i found out from a friend that i need a tennis racket to join, so... no more.crossed it out.
Then the table tennis side, thay say onli need expert players, so... cross it out also.
For archery, they would provide the equipments, they welcome all,...
and its on a saturday and sunday.
imagine me goin to Dover from Tampines everyday.
cross that out too.
then, for SPG, we left a whole stack of brochures at the place where the other ccas brochures were for students to take, and 200 brochures were gone in a day.
wow
but no one called.
so we're still lack of about 40 more members.
the would-be president of SPG have quite a good job in completing the
monetary formula for SPG using excel. Quite a genius, maybe.
That's him . in the chatbox.
i mean his name, or his nickname.
so that's all for now.
see u next post then
different time, same place. same web address. real boring.

2008-04-15T20:58:00.004+08:00

Good evening .
Welcome back to this blog.
1) Today marks the third day of school reopenssss.
Of our class of about 22 students( i think), only two(besides me) are from my previous class last year (sadly).
so that means there are a whole lot of new faces this year, and we'll be together as a class for two years..

2) I heard that Red Alert 3 (RA3) would be released late this year, probably this December.
So i'll be saving as much as $1 per day for five days every day, so that i would be able to buy this popular RTS game when it is released at the end of the year..
I remembered some time ago( or was it 1 or 2 years ago) when i bought Red Alert 2 from Cash Converter for just about less than $10 dollars, and now i haven even finish the Allied missions yet! Not to mention i did not even touch the Soviet mission at all.(Maybe the missions are just a bit too hard...?)
I'll just acumulate the unfinished missions.
But i'll be looking forward to RA3 this year.=)

3) SP's CCA Drive are coming soon, about maybe two weeks later..
I might consider joning the tennis club if all of four conditions are met:
-The club would provide free rackets during training sessions;
-The training sessions does not clash with my other ccas and classes;
-The club accepts noobs and amateurs.
Which is quite impossible, so i think i might not be joining this cca after all.
About SP Gardenology, i think we'll be discussing about the flyers and/or brochers we could be giving out during the CCA Drive in one of our meetinggs with five other members before the CCA Drive.We might also ask for approval from the respective departments to put up posters on notice boards around the school to recuit more members for this ccs.
We are currently still short of about a minimum of 44 members before we could start the cca.
it would be almost a miracle if we could confirm 50 members for the cca before the cca drive, but i feelthat we could achieve this.

That's all for today.
Goodbye and goodnight.goodevening.or goodmorning if you are reading this at the other side of the globe.

2008-04-10T12:14:00.005+08:00

Let's think about these questions:
How much is your allowance per month?
How much could you save per month?
What is your ideal salary?
Which job would you like to take in the future?
After ORD/graduation from JC/Poly, would you rather:
1)Study further;
2)Work; or
3)Slack?
..................................................................................................
Saving and spending are linked together: If you don't spend, you naturally save; if you don't save, you naturally spend.
But saving is a habit.
Its just that , would you rather spend first then save, or save first then spend?
......................................................................................................
Someone once told me that:
- A person with just a ITE cert could earn as high as $10,000 per month;
And
-A person with a Diploma cert could earn about $15,000 per month.
They achieved these results because they put in the extra effort.
To succeed, you must not be afraid to make mistakes, make mistakes and make mistakes again, then learn from the mistakes, and you will be able to improve, and then you would succeed.
To excel in the workforce, you would need to have the courage to take the initiative, do what you think you need to do, and not be afraid of being scolded.
At first, you might always be scolded as you would tend to make many mistakes, but if you do not give up, and make the extra effort to improve yourself, you would be able to succeed one day.
Perserverence is the key to success.
This applies to everything else.
Courage, perserverence ,initiative and the extra effort are just some of the key elements to success.
I could safely say that the most of the above...
i have not even applied to my life, yet.
maybe next time!
maybe later
and later...
So... that's all!
Nothing more.(at least till the next post )
...

2008-03-30T14:00:00.003+08:00

Its been such a long time since my last post..
The gardenology cca still onli gt less than 6 persons..sigh...we'll have to wait till after the next cca drive (maybe), or we can never get this cca started.
these few days, i've been thinking..
time really passes quickly, its been a month, and i had hardly done anything except eat, sleep, and play.
i had wasted way too much time on practically nothing, and now tt i realised it, its too late.
I could never take back the times i missed.
its non-refundable.
i just have to get on with life.
the amount of finance i have plays an important part in my more-serious decisions, like not going to Perth when i have the opportunity.
Thus, i promised myself: when i've earned enough money after i went to work, then i'll really make some changes to my boring and lifeless life, and start taking the initiative.(its too late by then, but i tink its not toooooo late)
for now, i'll just learn about some communicative skills first(from whatever friends i have)
the rest can wait.
now i'll just hope and wait.
two years down the road and everything would have changed.
well, not everything. at least some things won't.
today, i heard from my mom's friend that when you go to the US, if you are at least 16 yrs old, then you can take the wheels after passing the driving test.cool rite.
then i heard the driving test in US is much easier than that in S'pore.
also, you would be driving on the left, while in singapore, the driving wheel is on the right.
also, the speed limit in US is lesser than in Singapore.i heard its like 25mph in areas around schools, libraries, etc, if i'm nt wrong.
in addition, if you are at least 21 or above, then you can own a gun, but you need to register for it, and i heard tt your bullets need to be registerd too, i tink, so the authorities know whose bullets is it when they saw a body on the streets.
the exchange rate between singapore and the US is about 1:1.3 now.
so, its much cheaper to go to US now than in the past.
but, the air fare is still quite expensive.
i tink its about $800+ for 1 trip/ person.
the above news should be correct at the time of publish, if i remembered correctly.
anyway, i'm still keeping hopes alive, for one thing or another.
that's it then
cyalaterbyz.

2008-03-17T21:38:00.005+08:00

Hi all
A new announcement for all SP students:
There is a great chance that a new CCA about the essence of garden would be coming out in April/May/June..
..if we could have at least 47 more members for this new cca.
well...the proposal is already out, ready to be submitted, but i'm afraid that the SAC would nt be opened til start of April, so this proposal for the new cca had nt been submitted , yet.
however, if we could have 47 more members, and if the proposal is approved , then this new cca would be hitting the school's compound by, maybe between April and May.
Interested parties(exclusively for SP students) please click on the link "Blog For Gardenology " on the left panel, next to this post, for more details.
OR
you could contact the new CCA's would-be president, William Swee at his hp no, 94507888.
Any enquires, please send them to williamswee611@hotmail.com.
Please allow for some time for us to respond to your enquires.
Thank you.

2008-03-07T23:03:00.007+08:00

Hi
Today...its my last day of a two super-ultra tiring week of work, and finally, its ending!!!Yeah!!(though i nvr heard of anyone so happy bout nt being able to earn more money...except me..well...in this case)
But..
i had quite a horrific and scary experience this morning.
i actually had a very close encounter (very,very close) with a type of species....ants.
welll...its like this...
as the story goes( and quite a boring one)...
i was , as usual, waiting for the bus to my workplace this morning...and i HAPPEN to lean against a pole...and next moment...i felt something crawling up my .......
...
...
leg.
and something bit me.
it sent a chill down my spine...
then...
i found out that!
...
...
its an ant.
and not "an"
but many , many, many, ants!
and their size...
...
well...
a bit larger than normal ants.
i can see that there are many of them on the floor..
...
and quite a few "visited" me..and left some bites there...
but onli on my leg.
then i had to "kick " every one tt i can find off onto the floor.
making a small nuisance(did i spell correctly?) of myself
wat a awkward( did i spell correctly?) scene...as i try(dunno how to replace this with other words) to shake the ants off my leg.
well in the end i managed to keep clear of the ants and avoided an ant attack, and also nearly missed my bus.
That's all.
then ...for the whole of today morning...time seems to pass by very slow as i waited ( a little impatiently)for five pm to come( BUT i did come for the whole of the five-day-week for work for both this week and last week lor, so its should be ok to feel like this, i tink...)
Then....its dissmissal time!(and end of my two-week workload!)
no nid to wake up at 5.30am!
no nid to sleep early!
no nid to get so tired!(maybe)
then afterwards...
i went to Kembangan to play lan with a friend.
we played Age of Empires III: The Asian Dynasties (i tink tt's the name)
it was quite fun, and hilarious...and many near-sarcastic remarks were exchanged among us as we play.
But overall, we had a fun time playing the real-time strategy game, one of my favourite genres.
we played until about 9pm(tink so)..haz..totally forgot bout the time!(or maybe we knw the time, but is "mesmerised" by the game.)
Thus marks the end of Friday the 7th of March 2008.
Bye.

2008-02-29T19:36:00.003+08:00

Hi
What a special day to begin a new post!
A four-years-once-occurrence (29/2), and i'm gonna write my next post.(probaly just as boring as the previous ones, BUT today is indeed a special day!)
ok...so..
i found a job(temporary one ) and having been working for one week ( EXcluding sat and sun. ) and its near Tampines 2.
Location: Classified
so..on this special day......
....i hav nth to write.
recently started "browsing " thru sum threads in PlayPark Forums(for fun)
wrote some lame replies to the threads also.
then...maybe i'll go arcading at Tampines tomorrow, or lan gaming( c if gt money first)
That's all!
What another boring post.
But for a special day, its worth it.

2008-02-17T23:10:00.006+08:00

Hi
Another week has passed, and chinese new year had already ended...how fast
I heard that the exam results would be out by 28/2/08...hope everything's alrite!
...haven the courage to do sumthing, but i tink i'll do it next year (nothing illegal, haz)lol.
anyway,still got about 7 weeks before sch reopens and be goin to new class(cos second year would have started then)
until then...would be finding a job.found one, went for interview(actually onli left my number then), then had to wait till maybe next mon( or tomorrow) for the results(they'll call me, i tink)
till then, slacking( and wasting) away time..not a bad idea, but definitely not a gd one either.
heard from my friend a new CCA might be cuming up during the period between April and July,or August..could be interesting, haz.
These few days are full of un-interesting happenings, so i'll be blogging not-so-often, but rest assured my next blog would be cuming soon(but dunno how soon), though it maybe be as boring as the previous blogs, haz...ok..maybe not so boring.
That's that then
Bye.